Pohon Jati di tengah taman bebungaan
Berdiri tegap kebingungan
Dimanakah buah diri-diri gerangan
Tidak ditemukan di pekarangan
Dimanakah jati sejati
Sudah bertahunan diri rekat berjati
Rekat dekat menyentuh daging
Dipelihara bagai buah kirmizi
Pohon jati kembali mencari diri-diri
Daunnya merambah rambah kanan kiri
Akar merasuk menembus tanah alami
Serat kayu melandau landau seakan tak pernah berhenti
Terus dan terus mencari
Diri pun sadar dan menangis
Tanpa Jati diri tak dapat berdiri
Oh Indahnya dunia taman bebungaan asri
Disaat pertemuan jati diri
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
2 things to do
1. To be more patient and humble ... especially when I feel threatened by something or someone
2. To be more pro-active in gospel sharing to my family and friends
2. To be more pro-active in gospel sharing to my family and friends
Tuesday, February 05, 2008
Relationship stuffs
This is just a quick entry ...
In a relationship, how can we know if our bf/gf is the one from God for us to marry? It's a hard thing to answer, because I can never give an answer that is definite she is the one 100% ... After all, who can fathom the mind of God?
What I learned this past couple of days/weeks/months/years is that God has a plan for each of His children ... And His plan is always a plan to prosper (spiritual prosperity) and not to harm ... Whatever challenges ahead of us, they are there because God allows them to be there ....
What we should do in a relationship when this question arises are
Back to the topic, my experience with my past is the same. Like any other normal guy, I had crushes on (Christian) girls. There are 3 cases in my observation:
Case 1:
The girl is not interested ... ^_^
Case 2:
In some cases, I changed my mind about the girl because I saw some characters/incompatibility that I can't bear if she would become my wife... This, I consider as God working in my life and an indication that I shouldn't go into a deeper relationship with that person no matter how much I like that person (after all there are no coincidences in His children's life)
Case 3:
But in some other cases, I didn't see anything that would cause me not continue pursuing the girl (she is in a ministry, not lazy, love God, good communication, bla bla bla) ... Of course she has bad characters as well, but those are not the show-stoppers ... Still God blocked my way somehow (time, activities, future plans, other guy, etc) ... I guess this is also God working in my life, guiding me not to go into a deeper relationship with that person ....
In the three cases above, I was serious in looking for potential gf .. but God somehow blocked my way ... It is no different when I am in a relationship ... God can open the door or close it ...
Many people especially in Chinese new year wants to know his/her luck in the new year. As a Christian, we are lucky to have a God that guides our walk daily.
YES, it is important to know God's will ...
God's plan will be revealed to us at the right time ....
BUT all the more important is whether we accept God's plan/will when it comes and say Your will be done!
In a relationship, how can we know if our bf/gf is the one from God for us to marry? It's a hard thing to answer, because I can never give an answer that is definite she is the one 100% ... After all, who can fathom the mind of God?
What I learned this past couple of days/weeks/months/years is that God has a plan for each of His children ... And His plan is always a plan to prosper (spiritual prosperity) and not to harm ... Whatever challenges ahead of us, they are there because God allows them to be there ....
What we should do in a relationship when this question arises are
- To surrender our life (relationship, plans) to God daily ... Asking for His will be done and to block the way if it's not His will ...
- Keep working hard in the relationship itself and not slacking off ...
Back to the topic, my experience with my past is the same. Like any other normal guy, I had crushes on (Christian) girls. There are 3 cases in my observation:
Case 1:
The girl is not interested ... ^_^
Case 2:
In some cases, I changed my mind about the girl because I saw some characters/incompatibility that I can't bear if she would become my wife... This, I consider as God working in my life and an indication that I shouldn't go into a deeper relationship with that person no matter how much I like that person (after all there are no coincidences in His children's life)
Case 3:
But in some other cases, I didn't see anything that would cause me not continue pursuing the girl (she is in a ministry, not lazy, love God, good communication, bla bla bla) ... Of course she has bad characters as well, but those are not the show-stoppers ... Still God blocked my way somehow (time, activities, future plans, other guy, etc) ... I guess this is also God working in my life, guiding me not to go into a deeper relationship with that person ....
In the three cases above, I was serious in looking for potential gf .. but God somehow blocked my way ... It is no different when I am in a relationship ... God can open the door or close it ...
Many people especially in Chinese new year wants to know his/her luck in the new year. As a Christian, we are lucky to have a God that guides our walk daily.
YES, it is important to know God's will ...
God's plan will be revealed to us at the right time ....
BUT all the more important is whether we accept God's plan/will when it comes and say Your will be done!
Monday, November 05, 2007
Learning to put God first
Matthew 6:20-34
20But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
22"The eye is the lamp of the body. If your eyes are good, your whole body will be full of light. 23But if your eyes are bad, your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light within you is darkness, how great is that darkness!
24"No one can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money.
Do Not Worry
25"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life[a]?28"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
It is hard to put all things that happen to life in the perspective of God's kingdom ... At least for me, it is difficult ... why? Because I keep forgetting God in all other things that is happening in my life. As hard as I try to remember God, I failed ....
- If I work, I should think of focusing on how the gospel and Jesus can be glorified to my work instead of focusing on enhancing my career or other little things at work
- If I am in a relationship, I should focus more on how to honor God through this relationship by honoring and loving my girlfriend
- If I invest, I should do it in a light of providing for myself, my future family, and the work of the gospel in the place where God wants me to be
- If I invest in property, I should do it in a light of providing the shelter and security for my future family so they too can bring glory to God in the end
- If I engage my work friends or friends in general, I should be focusing more on how to bring them to know Jesus and the gospel lovingly and respectfully, rather than focusing solely on having fun with them and chat about general life conditions
- If I am doing ministry at church, I should focus more on serving others and God, not my own pride
Well, it is hard for me!! But will try to always remind myself in the process of this life!!
ENGAGE - conference
Just wanna share a bit about ENGAGE conference that I attended lately ... I guess I am not gonna share the summary of the kotbah, but I will try to share the Word of God that struck me during the conference ...
OK, a little background about ENGAGE ... ENGAGE is one of the conference ran by Katoomba Christian Center by evangelical churches which is intended for young professional ... I went there last week and there were about 1000+ people gathered in mount Katoomba, Sydney ... It's always amazing to see God's people gathering together to hear God's Word and sing praises to His name !!! Always Good!!
Well, let me share what struck me there ... I guess I will remember ENGAGE as a reminder to self about my love for my Lord Jesus ... A reminder to love Him like when I first became a Christian ... I can't say that I forgot to pray or have a quiet time everyday, but my passion for God has become eroded by all the other things in life, like work, church activities, social activities, relationship, investment, etc ... One example would be, I forgot to spend enough time in my prayer to adore God and say that I LOVE GOD in my prayer .... or another example would be during praise and worship at church ... Kalo dulu I can be very easily moved by church songs yang mengena to my situation, but now kayaknya jarang juga due to always busy playing music, etc ....
I guess it is a reminder that God's command is to LOVE God with all my heart, mind and soul and to love others like myself ... I cried to God during the conference and prayed that God kept guarding my heart to keep loving Him and others ... and not to lose focus on that ...
One of the speaker said something like: "If after this conference, your love for God has grown and grown and grown, than I would consider this conference to be a successful one" ... I guess it's true that our knowledge of the Word of God will only become knowledge when we don't love God and adore Him in all our ways ... We need to love God first and I believe the Holy Spirit will teach us about the scripture in His own unique way ... But loving God must be a priority ...
So friends, hope this can be a good reminder for us too ...!!
OK, a little background about ENGAGE ... ENGAGE is one of the conference ran by Katoomba Christian Center by evangelical churches which is intended for young professional ... I went there last week and there were about 1000+ people gathered in mount Katoomba, Sydney ... It's always amazing to see God's people gathering together to hear God's Word and sing praises to His name !!! Always Good!!
Well, let me share what struck me there ... I guess I will remember ENGAGE as a reminder to self about my love for my Lord Jesus ... A reminder to love Him like when I first became a Christian ... I can't say that I forgot to pray or have a quiet time everyday, but my passion for God has become eroded by all the other things in life, like work, church activities, social activities, relationship, investment, etc ... One example would be, I forgot to spend enough time in my prayer to adore God and say that I LOVE GOD in my prayer .... or another example would be during praise and worship at church ... Kalo dulu I can be very easily moved by church songs yang mengena to my situation, but now kayaknya jarang juga due to always busy playing music, etc ....
I guess it is a reminder that God's command is to LOVE God with all my heart, mind and soul and to love others like myself ... I cried to God during the conference and prayed that God kept guarding my heart to keep loving Him and others ... and not to lose focus on that ...
One of the speaker said something like: "If after this conference, your love for God has grown and grown and grown, than I would consider this conference to be a successful one" ... I guess it's true that our knowledge of the Word of God will only become knowledge when we don't love God and adore Him in all our ways ... We need to love God first and I believe the Holy Spirit will teach us about the scripture in His own unique way ... But loving God must be a priority ...
So friends, hope this can be a good reminder for us too ...!!
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Random thought!
This is just a random thought OK ...
I was just thinking the other day:
Why is it that a church, that is supposed to be a place where sinful people who have been saved by God - encourage each other, forgive each other turn out to be a place where people is expected to be so holy and never make any mistake? Plus if we hear someone at church has fallen into sin (say sexual sin, and it was purely accidental and not intentional), we tend to judge him/her and talk behind his/her back, menjauh dari dia, etc?
This is just one of the irony that came up to my attention about the church! Aren't we (including myself) becoming more like a pharisee if we do that?
I was just thinking the other day:
Why is it that a church, that is supposed to be a place where sinful people who have been saved by God - encourage each other, forgive each other turn out to be a place where people is expected to be so holy and never make any mistake? Plus if we hear someone at church has fallen into sin (say sexual sin, and it was purely accidental and not intentional), we tend to judge him/her and talk behind his/her back, menjauh dari dia, etc?
This is just one of the irony that came up to my attention about the church! Aren't we (including myself) becoming more like a pharisee if we do that?
Sunday, October 14, 2007
UpDATe - work
It's been a long time since my last update ...
Well, let me share about my work and what I do lately ... This sharing is in no way intended to boast about myself, but it's just purely a sharing and thanking God for His provision in my life ...
Work has been good ... thank God ... I have moved from ELAW (the only workplace in my entire working life that I didn't like very much) to CISCO ... Yayyy!!! I had to admit, it was very risky to move out of COIN software to ELAW in the first place ... I was considering to move purely due to the consideration of myself being "underpaid" ... I had to admit that ... and since the job market was very very very very good as well, I thought why not try to look around ... After all, given that in Australia people is entitled to be paid according to their skills, I saw nothing wrong in looking for a job just to get a pay that is close to what market is offering at the time!
It didn't turn out well at ELAW and I wanted to get out of there starting from the first week ... *so ashamed of myself* ... And then I looked for a job again ... Thank God that I got this job at Cisco ... I wasn't looking for an analyst/project coordinator role, but somehow God gave it to me *all things come from God* ... It was very much a surprise that I was offered this position even though 95% of the application that I sent was for .NET programmer role ... I was starting a bit desperate and really look up to God to give me a job ... I thought, it should be easy for me to move out of ELAW (due to my arrogance), but God somehow allow a lot of rejections happened to my job interviews ... I was starting to feel a bit hopeless after a few months at ELAW and all the frustration in the job that I did there ....
But thank Goddddd banget! .. I got a job at Cisco ... It's like a gift dari langit ... Better still, this job requires ZERO coding, which I really like ... So far so good at Cisco and praying that it will continue this way!
Good lessons learned ...
1. Always depend on God for everything ....
2. Acknowledge Him in all my decision making ....
3. Focus on His kingdom and righteousness rather than unimportant stuffs in this world ...
Well, let me share about my work and what I do lately ... This sharing is in no way intended to boast about myself, but it's just purely a sharing and thanking God for His provision in my life ...
Work has been good ... thank God ... I have moved from ELAW (the only workplace in my entire working life that I didn't like very much) to CISCO ... Yayyy!!! I had to admit, it was very risky to move out of COIN software to ELAW in the first place ... I was considering to move purely due to the consideration of myself being "underpaid" ... I had to admit that ... and since the job market was very very very very good as well, I thought why not try to look around ... After all, given that in Australia people is entitled to be paid according to their skills, I saw nothing wrong in looking for a job just to get a pay that is close to what market is offering at the time!
It didn't turn out well at ELAW and I wanted to get out of there starting from the first week ... *so ashamed of myself* ... And then I looked for a job again ... Thank God that I got this job at Cisco ... I wasn't looking for an analyst/project coordinator role, but somehow God gave it to me *all things come from God* ... It was very much a surprise that I was offered this position even though 95% of the application that I sent was for .NET programmer role ... I was starting a bit desperate and really look up to God to give me a job ... I thought, it should be easy for me to move out of ELAW (due to my arrogance), but God somehow allow a lot of rejections happened to my job interviews ... I was starting to feel a bit hopeless after a few months at ELAW and all the frustration in the job that I did there ....
But thank Goddddd banget! .. I got a job at Cisco ... It's like a gift dari langit ... Better still, this job requires ZERO coding, which I really like ... So far so good at Cisco and praying that it will continue this way!
Good lessons learned ...
1. Always depend on God for everything ....
2. Acknowledge Him in all my decision making ....
3. Focus on His kingdom and righteousness rather than unimportant stuffs in this world ...
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Question??? :)
What is the ideal number for a guy and a girl in a relationship say "I love u" in a day, a week, a month?
- Once a day?
- Once a week?
- Once a month?
- More?
- Less?
This question assume that the guy/girl really mean what they say ... *ga gombal*
- Once a day?
- Once a week?
- Once a month?
- More?
- Less?
This question assume that the guy/girl really mean what they say ... *ga gombal*
Encouragement
I was encouraged by one thing that I saw at church ... I saw one of pension elder who went to church last Sunday where he had to use a tool to support his movement, but still faithfully come to Sunday morning service to worship God ....
I saw that every week, but it only strike me last week that that elder has been faithful for so many years and he is still going strong .... It reminds me how important it is to love God with all my heart until I am old, until death ....
"It's always good to start strong, but more importantly to finish as strong as we can be"
I saw that every week, but it only strike me last week that that elder has been faithful for so many years and he is still going strong .... It reminds me how important it is to love God with all my heart until I am old, until death ....
"It's always good to start strong, but more importantly to finish as strong as we can be"
Death and suffering (in theory and practice)
Lately, I feel death and suffering are close to the people and friends around me ... Late last week, a friend of mine said that her grandma has passed away ... Just a few days ago, a good friend of mine had an accident ... quite severe one ...
It made me ponder on the question of death and suffering ...
Those things above are all theoretical knowledge until you really experience the PAIN .... You can talk all you want about theological answer, but unless you experience the pain like Jesus did, you can't fully understand about the topic ... I do not deny that knowledge is important regardless of whether you are facing difficulties or not, but that will become REAL when painful thing and life difficulties start to HIT us right on our face ....
With regards to what happen to my friends, I don't know the answer to all their life's problem ... Only God does .... What I know is God demands total surrender and reliance on His promises that one day He will remove all sufferings in this world ....
My prayer is that my friend (and myself) can stay faithful until the end and through everything that is happening now and God's plan is revealed fully in our lives ...
It made me ponder on the question of death and suffering ...
- Well, in theory I know that God can not be blamed for the suffering that happens in this world .... Who are we to say to God the creator of heaven and earth that He doesn't know what He is doing in this world? God is God and He can do whatever He pleases according to His perfect and good will .... It is probably no coincidence that I have just finished the book of Job where suffering is so imminent in Job's life ... and the book talks about Job's suffering from God's perspective, Job's perspective and his friends' perspective ... How Job question God and how God answer him in the end ...
- In theory, I know that God's ultimate plan is for people to be saved ... it is a good and perfect plan ...
- In theory, I know that God will one day remove all the sufferings in this world
- In theory, I know that suffering happen to both Christians and non-Christians in this fallen world ... What differentiate Christian from non-Christian is Christians trust that God knows what He is doing and Christians also hope of eternal life where God will remove all suffering
- In theory, I know that God understand our pain and suffering because Jesus himself suffered on the cross ... and God does not just understand, but He helps us in our suffering and strengthen our faith in Him as well ...
- In theory, I also know that God can use suffering and pain to make us more like Jesus ...
Those things above are all theoretical knowledge until you really experience the PAIN .... You can talk all you want about theological answer, but unless you experience the pain like Jesus did, you can't fully understand about the topic ... I do not deny that knowledge is important regardless of whether you are facing difficulties or not, but that will become REAL when painful thing and life difficulties start to HIT us right on our face ....
With regards to what happen to my friends, I don't know the answer to all their life's problem ... Only God does .... What I know is God demands total surrender and reliance on His promises that one day He will remove all sufferings in this world ....
My prayer is that my friend (and myself) can stay faithful until the end and through everything that is happening now and God's plan is revealed fully in our lives ...
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Dukaku, tempat kudusMu
Lagi baca buku with judul like the title diatas ... Baru seperempat sih, tapi menarik juga ... It says that waktu kita berduka, kita bisa bertemu Tuhan disana and can learn to re-dedicate our life to Him ... Waktu ancaman bertubi2 datang, kesukaran, kesulitan kita tau bahwa Allah hadir and mengerti ... ga cuman mengerti tapi menolong dan melepaskan kita ... eventually God will remove all kesusahan di dunia ini when Jesus came back again to those who love God ....
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
John 16:33
33"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
Rumah baru!! and lama ...
It's still pretty much a mess ... I am trying to beres2 and hopefully bakalan beres sometime this week ... The worry now is ada banyak maling di Kingsford .... Anak2 North Sydney cerita about maling2 yg masuk ke rumah temen2 kita di waktu2 dulu ... It scared me a bit, especially our unit is just on level 1 ... It won't be too hard for a person to jump into the balcony and steal something ... We decided to get a new key in order to make the house more secure ... Hopefully ga ada maling masuk .. It's a bit scary now that I think about it ....
About rumah lama, today was the inspection day from the owner and the agent ... One problem: karpet di deket jendela rusak karena kebocoran air ... Kita sudah lapor awal2 twice or three times tapi agentnya ga respond ... In the end sekarang karpetnya rusak dan ga bisa dipake lagi and harus diganti ... I can understand that the owner is upset and minta diganti, but I explained the situation and in the end they took $250 from our bond money for cleaning purpose only ... I think that is fair given that we lacked in cleaning the house ... Ya sekarang udah lega lah ..
All in all, God's providence is very real in my life ... Just have to keep persevering and menguatkan kepercayaan to my God ...
About rumah lama, today was the inspection day from the owner and the agent ... One problem: karpet di deket jendela rusak karena kebocoran air ... Kita sudah lapor awal2 twice or three times tapi agentnya ga respond ... In the end sekarang karpetnya rusak dan ga bisa dipake lagi and harus diganti ... I can understand that the owner is upset and minta diganti, but I explained the situation and in the end they took $250 from our bond money for cleaning purpose only ... I think that is fair given that we lacked in cleaning the house ... Ya sekarang udah lega lah ..
All in all, God's providence is very real in my life ... Just have to keep persevering and menguatkan kepercayaan to my God ...
Not good enough!
Susah banget rasanya untuk ga bikin salah .... The more I talk, the more I make mistakes ...
Psalm 141:3
Set a guard over my mouth, O LORD; keep watch over the door of my lips.
Psalm 141:3
Set a guard over my mouth, O LORD; keep watch over the door of my lips.
Monday, May 28, 2007
Thank the Lord!
Fiuhhhh ... Legaaaaaaaaaa .... setelah berminggu2 worried karena ga dapet2 rumah akhirnya we can move into the new place this weekend ...
The problem went into the surface when 3 weeks ago the property agent told me that the owner of my current place wanted to use the property and I have to move out as soon as possible ... I was told by a friend that I can have 2 months by law ... Being the confident me, I proposed to move out in 5 weeks ... I thought 5 weeks should be plenty of time to find a house ... After all, I found a place in 2 days before ....
It turned out that it is not so easy to find a property owner that wants to accept 4 guys in 2 bedroom apartment/townhouse ... Our applications got rejected and sometimes due to our busy schedules we missed the deadlines of submitting the applications ... Moreover, I miscalculated the fact that I need to have at least a buffer of 1 week of signing the contract and arranging the move itself and since finding the rent is so hard these days in sydney, it was so so so so tough !!! We also had lots of requirements, such as we wanted to pay around $350 pw and it must be in either Kingsford (1st priority), Maroubra, or Randwick ... If the property is a bit far from the main junction, we did not consider it straight away ...
It was so frustrating that some friends at church were afraid to see my tensed face .... I could not hide the fact that I am thinking about where I am going to live in the next 2 weeks ...
I cried out to God ... God please help!! Maybe I was too proud, saying that I could find the property without Him ... But only during the times when I had no choice but surrendering to Him, I learnt what it meant to trust Him fully .... I mean fully!! That does not mean that I didn't do anything ... I did my research every night, and called the agents during the day arranging for inspections ... I ran around here and there to inspect the property and filled in a tedious application forms ... It was so much trouble ... But I did surrender to my God at the same time .... because I know it is pretty hard to find a property that we want ....
During these times, I felt so blessed to have a family in Christ and many good friends ... I asked almost all of my friends for help!! and so many of my them offered me help .... Ada yg mau pinjemin garage nya, many sent emails to friends regarding my situation and asking if there is anyone interested in a room around eastern suburb area ... Ada yg just bantuin inspect the house because I could not make it for I had pelayanan on that hour ... My flatmates and my bro banyak bantuin juga, even though mrk pada sibuk assignment and exam ... Terharu sih !! Thank u friends!! I am grateful banget nget nget ....
Yesterday, the four of us at home prayed asking God for guidance ... Initially, we decided to take the house nearby, but we need one more person to fill in one of the room ... We made that decision because we thought we need to secure the place first and felt that finding the person to fill in the room should be easier than finding a place to rent ... But suddenly, this morning I got a phone call from one of the agent that I should send a deposit and sign the contract tomorrow morning ... It was a big big relief ... I thanked God straight away for His providence ....
Lastly, I just wanna say that my God is Jehovah Jireh, He provides the need of His children according to His riches and glory, especially spiritual needs .... !
The problem went into the surface when 3 weeks ago the property agent told me that the owner of my current place wanted to use the property and I have to move out as soon as possible ... I was told by a friend that I can have 2 months by law ... Being the confident me, I proposed to move out in 5 weeks ... I thought 5 weeks should be plenty of time to find a house ... After all, I found a place in 2 days before ....
It turned out that it is not so easy to find a property owner that wants to accept 4 guys in 2 bedroom apartment/townhouse ... Our applications got rejected and sometimes due to our busy schedules we missed the deadlines of submitting the applications ... Moreover, I miscalculated the fact that I need to have at least a buffer of 1 week of signing the contract and arranging the move itself and since finding the rent is so hard these days in sydney, it was so so so so tough !!! We also had lots of requirements, such as we wanted to pay around $350 pw and it must be in either Kingsford (1st priority), Maroubra, or Randwick ... If the property is a bit far from the main junction, we did not consider it straight away ...
It was so frustrating that some friends at church were afraid to see my tensed face .... I could not hide the fact that I am thinking about where I am going to live in the next 2 weeks ...
I cried out to God ... God please help!! Maybe I was too proud, saying that I could find the property without Him ... But only during the times when I had no choice but surrendering to Him, I learnt what it meant to trust Him fully .... I mean fully!! That does not mean that I didn't do anything ... I did my research every night, and called the agents during the day arranging for inspections ... I ran around here and there to inspect the property and filled in a tedious application forms ... It was so much trouble ... But I did surrender to my God at the same time .... because I know it is pretty hard to find a property that we want ....
During these times, I felt so blessed to have a family in Christ and many good friends ... I asked almost all of my friends for help!! and so many of my them offered me help .... Ada yg mau pinjemin garage nya, many sent emails to friends regarding my situation and asking if there is anyone interested in a room around eastern suburb area ... Ada yg just bantuin inspect the house because I could not make it for I had pelayanan on that hour ... My flatmates and my bro banyak bantuin juga, even though mrk pada sibuk assignment and exam ... Terharu sih !! Thank u friends!! I am grateful banget nget nget ....
Yesterday, the four of us at home prayed asking God for guidance ... Initially, we decided to take the house nearby, but we need one more person to fill in one of the room ... We made that decision because we thought we need to secure the place first and felt that finding the person to fill in the room should be easier than finding a place to rent ... But suddenly, this morning I got a phone call from one of the agent that I should send a deposit and sign the contract tomorrow morning ... It was a big big relief ... I thanked God straight away for His providence ....
Lastly, I just wanna say that my God is Jehovah Jireh, He provides the need of His children according to His riches and glory, especially spiritual needs .... !
Saturday, May 26, 2007
Cari rumah susah banget
A bit frustrated nih cari2 rumah ... Udah mepet banget and we don't even have one accepted application ... The ones yg available is either too expensive atau 3 bedrooms (we only want two bedrooms) ...
So at the moment I am a bit worried, tapi not too worry juga ... Setelah dipikir2 ga ada gunanya worry juga .. Yg penting do our best and trust in God la ... Malah kalo kepepet gini, I learn to rely on God and realize my own limitation ... I also learn to trust others and be patient with them (my flatmates) because kadang mrk not doing according to my expectation (apply rumah telat sehari and keduluan orang, etc) ... I also learn to battle my pride of asking my friends for help ... I am the kind of person yg rada independent and it's very hard for me especially kalo ga deket banget minta tolong ke temen buat hal2 ginian ... gengsi kali yah ... but during these times I learnt to rely on my brother and sister in Christ as well ...
Oh well, two weeks to go ... kalo ga dapet homeless deh *huhuhu* ...
So at the moment I am a bit worried, tapi not too worry juga ... Setelah dipikir2 ga ada gunanya worry juga .. Yg penting do our best and trust in God la ... Malah kalo kepepet gini, I learn to rely on God and realize my own limitation ... I also learn to trust others and be patient with them (my flatmates) because kadang mrk not doing according to my expectation (apply rumah telat sehari and keduluan orang, etc) ... I also learn to battle my pride of asking my friends for help ... I am the kind of person yg rada independent and it's very hard for me especially kalo ga deket banget minta tolong ke temen buat hal2 ginian ... gengsi kali yah ... but during these times I learnt to rely on my brother and sister in Christ as well ...
Oh well, two weeks to go ... kalo ga dapet homeless deh *huhuhu* ...
Thursday, May 17, 2007
Saturday, April 28, 2007
Akhirnya blogku diupdate!
It's been a while my bloggggggg ... There is so much happening since last time I updated my blog ...Don't know where to start ... I feel like there are so many things happening and I don't know where to start ... I feel lazy updating my blog as well because there are many things happening, but if I don't do that there are even more things happening and I will never update this blog again .. huh ... *kayak lingkaran setan kata orang indo* ... ^^
Anyway, during these few months there is one at least one blessing that I receive ... and "that is" or lebih tepatnya "she is" Azaria .. ^^ .. We started courtship in April and pray that this relationship can truly bring glory to God ... Don't know what's going to happen in the future, but I guess both of us surrender our relationship to God ... He is in control la ... and whatever happen I am hoping we can grow together through this courtship ... Please pray for us!!
I just got a new job *again* ... The reason why I move is because I don't really like the work environment in my current place ... 4 developers resigned last month and we definitely shared a common view that my current work place is not suitable for developers ... I will move to North Sydney for the new job ... I will miss hunter connection food *cheapest in city* but I can't wait to try the beef laksa at Northpoint ... hahaha ... Thank God for the new job !!
I need to find a place to rent soon .. The owner of my current house wants to use the property and we have to move out soon by 9 June ... I haven't got any confirmation yet regarding the rent ... Please pray that I can have a place by 9 june ... Otherwise homeless deh .. huhuhuhu ...
My mum is very sick ... She had tipus + demam berdarah at the same time and has to be hospitalized ... Kaget banget and kuatir, but I realized ga bisa ngapa2in juga ... Can only call her and pray to God ... Please pray for her as well, especially biar dia and papa bisa kenal Tuhan ...
Bible study was cancelled again last Wednesday .. huhuhu ... si alfred datengnya telat, si ting2 and rio ga bisa dateng .. si wendy and me bible study sendiri juga ga possible ... kita group paling telat deh ... haha ... yg lain udah at least selesai chapter 3 ... we are still at chp 2 ... *matenggg* ... Tapi ga mau ngebut2 juga sih ... hopefully we can finish well ... yg paling penting ya melakukan firman Tuhan nya ... bukan cepet2an ..
Been reading a book called "Merupa hidup dalam RupaNya" ... bagusssssss, menempelak sekali ... recommended!!!!! .. It's like kumpulan kotbah2 yg bisa digabungin jadi satu ... ada bbrp theme: Berhala (memakai Tuhan untuk kepentinganku), Cara Tuhan (balas kejahatan dengan kebaikan), etc ... Ask me if you want to borrow!! Bukunya dikasih si Azar and dia ada 3 copy?? hehe .. kurang banyak !!
Hmmmm .... I guess that's about it for now ... There are so many other things that happened in my life these past month ... ada yg sedih, senang, menyebalkan, membuat kuatir, exciting, boring, melatih kesabaran, etc ... I guess ga bisa ditulis semua, but I am thankful because through all these I believe God works in me and others .... I know I am slow to trust and have faith .. Maybe I also need to love more and there are some areas in my heart that need to be changed ... and God is patient with me! hehehe .. So I'll be patient too ...
Lastly, I just want to remind myself about what I've learnt in Holland ... that is to die for self and live for Christ ... Kesibukan and activities kadang bikin me lupa about this truth, focussing on myself, my achievement, my problems and jadi self-centred and sombong rather than on focusing on God ... uhuhuhu .. Please pray for me!!!
Anyway, during these few months there is one at least one blessing that I receive ... and "that is" or lebih tepatnya "she is" Azaria .. ^^ .. We started courtship in April and pray that this relationship can truly bring glory to God ... Don't know what's going to happen in the future, but I guess both of us surrender our relationship to God ... He is in control la ... and whatever happen I am hoping we can grow together through this courtship ... Please pray for us!!
I just got a new job *again* ... The reason why I move is because I don't really like the work environment in my current place ... 4 developers resigned last month and we definitely shared a common view that my current work place is not suitable for developers ... I will move to North Sydney for the new job ... I will miss hunter connection food *cheapest in city* but I can't wait to try the beef laksa at Northpoint ... hahaha ... Thank God for the new job !!
I need to find a place to rent soon .. The owner of my current house wants to use the property and we have to move out soon by 9 June ... I haven't got any confirmation yet regarding the rent ... Please pray that I can have a place by 9 june ... Otherwise homeless deh .. huhuhuhu ...
My mum is very sick ... She had tipus + demam berdarah at the same time and has to be hospitalized ... Kaget banget and kuatir, but I realized ga bisa ngapa2in juga ... Can only call her and pray to God ... Please pray for her as well, especially biar dia and papa bisa kenal Tuhan ...
Bible study was cancelled again last Wednesday .. huhuhu ... si alfred datengnya telat, si ting2 and rio ga bisa dateng .. si wendy and me bible study sendiri juga ga possible ... kita group paling telat deh ... haha ... yg lain udah at least selesai chapter 3 ... we are still at chp 2 ... *matenggg* ... Tapi ga mau ngebut2 juga sih ... hopefully we can finish well ... yg paling penting ya melakukan firman Tuhan nya ... bukan cepet2an ..
Been reading a book called "Merupa hidup dalam RupaNya" ... bagusssssss, menempelak sekali ... recommended!!!!! .. It's like kumpulan kotbah2 yg bisa digabungin jadi satu ... ada bbrp theme: Berhala (memakai Tuhan untuk kepentinganku), Cara Tuhan (balas kejahatan dengan kebaikan), etc ... Ask me if you want to borrow!! Bukunya dikasih si Azar and dia ada 3 copy?? hehe .. kurang banyak !!
Hmmmm .... I guess that's about it for now ... There are so many other things that happened in my life these past month ... ada yg sedih, senang, menyebalkan, membuat kuatir, exciting, boring, melatih kesabaran, etc ... I guess ga bisa ditulis semua, but I am thankful because through all these I believe God works in me and others .... I know I am slow to trust and have faith .. Maybe I also need to love more and there are some areas in my heart that need to be changed ... and God is patient with me! hehehe .. So I'll be patient too ...
Lastly, I just want to remind myself about what I've learnt in Holland ... that is to die for self and live for Christ ... Kesibukan and activities kadang bikin me lupa about this truth, focussing on myself, my achievement, my problems and jadi self-centred and sombong rather than on focusing on God ... uhuhuhu .. Please pray for me!!!
Saturday, April 14, 2007
Blessed man!
Psalm 112
1[a] Praise the LORD. [b]
Blessed is the man who fears the LORD,
who finds great delight in his commands.
2 His children will be mighty in the land;
the generation of the upright will be blessed.
3 Wealth and riches are in his house,
and his righteousness endures forever.
4 Even in darkness light dawns for the upright,
for the gracious and compassionate and righteous man. [c]
5 Good will come to him who is generous and lends freely,
who conducts his affairs with justice.
6 Surely he will never be shaken;
a righteous man will be remembered forever.
7 He will have no fear of bad news;
his heart is steadfast, trusting in the LORD.
8 His heart is secure, he will have no fear;
in the end he will look in triumph on his foes.
9 He has scattered abroad his gifts to the poor,
his righteousness endures forever;
his horn [d] will be lifted high in honor.
10 The wicked man will see and be vexed,
he will gnash his teeth and waste away;
the longings of the wicked will come to nothing.
Sunday, April 08, 2007
Besok si Jun dibaptis! ^^
Can't thank God enough for His grace ... I was shocked because I thought he was not yet ready and Om Joe suddenly told me that my bro is going to be baptized on easter ... I know that he joined kelas katekisasi, and told him kalo belum ready ga perlu dibaptis gpp ... yg penting terima Tuhan dulu secara sungguh2 ... That's what i told him, because in my eye he is not yet ready ....
After knowing that from Om Joe, I was really worried ... I was worried that he might feel pressured to be baptized by Om Joni ... I certainly did not or never put any pressure on him *tried my best not to* .. I then shared a little bit about christianity with him and asked him questions as well as showing him the passage from Luke 14: the cost of a disciple and a few more passages (John 3) .. Then I asked him, after knowing all this, do you really still want to follow Christ? He said "Yes" ... Dia bilang: "I am tired ga ada pegangan and gua percaya kalo Yesus itu ada and mati buat dosa gua gitu lah .. Lagian gua udah ngerasa cocok ama christianity .. Gua ga mau follow institutionnya, tapi gua mau ikut Tuhannya" ...
And then we prayed a little prayer ... After that, barulah gua sedikit tenang ... Right now, I want to learn to put my trust in not what I see, but what God is working in my family .... Pls pray for us!! Happy easter everyone ...
After knowing that from Om Joe, I was really worried ... I was worried that he might feel pressured to be baptized by Om Joni ... I certainly did not or never put any pressure on him *tried my best not to* .. I then shared a little bit about christianity with him and asked him questions as well as showing him the passage from Luke 14: the cost of a disciple and a few more passages (John 3) .. Then I asked him, after knowing all this, do you really still want to follow Christ? He said "Yes" ... Dia bilang: "I am tired ga ada pegangan and gua percaya kalo Yesus itu ada and mati buat dosa gua gitu lah .. Lagian gua udah ngerasa cocok ama christianity .. Gua ga mau follow institutionnya, tapi gua mau ikut Tuhannya" ...
And then we prayed a little prayer ... After that, barulah gua sedikit tenang ... Right now, I want to learn to put my trust in not what I see, but what God is working in my family .... Pls pray for us!! Happy easter everyone ...
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