I guess feeling a bit tired because of so many things that needs to be done ... I am burned out I guess ... Everyday I struggle to live ..... whether it is at work, ministry, at home, uni ... I feel constant pressure from all directions ...
At home, dissapointed with so many things that I see at home ... there are so many things... like cleaning the room, house, and many other that I can't share here ...
At church, I feel some dissapointments on why no-one actually follow up my flatmates from church .. Why do I have to do it myself? On top of that I have to be strong and encourage other people ... Why do I have to do that?
At work, Pressure from doing one project after another and not being able to stay late because of lecture... I am struggling to tell others about Christ ... struggling to be examples in the way I work and produce results ...
With Uni, So many assignments and exams ... ARGHH!
Well, I came to pemuda today, heard a sermon from Bruce ... What a wonderful sermon ... Not that all my problems are solved after that, but in that sermon I see the big picture of God's grand plan since the beginning to end ...
God from the beginning is longing to have relationship with human ... When he called Abram, Israel, he wants other nations to be blessed through them .. God is longing to make his name known among the nations of the earth .. He longs to have a relationship with us .... That's why we are here on earth .... Hearing that making me feel like gado2 ... I long for that day to happen ... kapan kapan Tuhan? .. I feel joy, and I know that God is the one longing to make his name known among the nations ... Evangelism is God's initiative through us ...
So, having seen the big picture, I should stop complaining ... I wanted to be encouraged when I came to pemuda today, and I did ... knowing that the bottom line ....... at the end of the day ....... when nothing else can help us, It is God (my Father) that matters ..... It is to make His name known and to have a deep relationship with Him ....
So stop complaining and do your work! Be thankful!
