Wednesday, July 28, 2004

Company Meeting

Had a big company meeting today ... pretty big considering we haven't done something like this in the past ... came up with short term action plan (60 days) as well as long term plan ...

Glad to see more team spirit happening at the company .. it's been lacking in my point of view .. It needs to change if we want to move forward and work together more as a team and have a more happy environment .. :) ... The change must start from top-down and bottom up (meet in the middle) heheh ..

Tuesday, July 20, 2004

Meaningless? not at all

Had a chit chat with two friends today unexpectedly .. One is an old friend "A" (rarely meet him even though we go to the same church) and the other one "B" is much much senior than me, also church friend ...
 
Well, managed to talk about a couple of things ... I met A on my way to work this morning. Managed to catch up with him a bit .. asked him how he's going and all that ... I am surprise to hear how he's going .. A is currently working hard to support one of his family member to study in aussie .. well, I really admire his maturity, his love and his sacrifice ... I met the other person "B" on my way back home from broadway shopping centre .. "B" is currently working as well .. didn't manage to talk a lot except the general stuffs, like what work I do, where do I live, our church retreat, "B"'s work etc ...
 
From these two people, I sort of see the world of the "grown ups" .. hehehe .. if you'd like to put it that way .. I have to agree to what is written in the book of ecclesiastes,
 
"Meaningless! Meaningless!" says the Teacher. "Utterly meaningless! Everything is meaningless."
 
What does man gain from all his labor at which he toils under the sun?
 
Generations come and generations go, but the earth remains forever.
 
The sun rises and the sun sets, and hurries back to where it rises.
 
The wind blows to the south and turns to the north; round and round it goes, ever returning on its course.
 
All streams flow into the sea, yet the sea is never full. To the place the streams come from, there they return again.
 
All things are wearisome, more than one can say. The eye never has enough of seeing, nor the ear its fill of hearing.
 
What has been will be again, what has been done will be done again; there is nothing new under the sun.
 
Is there anything of which one can say, "Look! This is something new"? It was here already, long ago; it was here before our time.
 
There is no remembrance of men of old, and even those who are yet to come will not be remembered by those who follow. 
  
 
Well it doesn't mean that my friends' lives are meaningless ... hehe .. anyway, the writer of ecclesiastes was talking about life under the sun, life separated from God .. meaningless, pointless, no hope .. :) .. Thank God that I know Jesus ... Really Look forward to fill my life with hopefully what He wants me to do .. and later die and be with Him .. so good so good .. heheh

Tuesday, July 13, 2004

Moving forward

Don't know what to write .. It's been a while since I wrote about my life ..

Hmm, talking about life, Life seemed so busy this week .. there are many things that I have to do since many events are coming up .. There is youth KKR on 24 July 2004 with topic "The challenge of Christianity in this post modernism era" by Rev Hendra G. Mulya. Church Retreat is also coming up. At work, one senior of mine is taking annual leave at the moment, which means all responsibilities are on my shoulder .. fiuhhh ... so hard, but challenging at the same time .. so far so good, hopefully it stays like that ..

I recently talked to Hans regarding why is it so hard for me to communicate with my work mate who are Caucasian and yet it's not so hard for me to communicate with my asian colleagues and friends .. One of the conclusion is that the culture differences creates a barrier between us .. When they gather, they talk about something which I am not really familiar with, like cartoon that they watched when they were kids, aussie jokes, aussie books, different type of music, different general knowledge, different way of life .. so many different things ... I guess it's true that we have to apply the principal "seek to understand first, before you want to be understood" ... Must try harder and communicate more ... heheheh ...

About my ministry at church, it's really hard being one of the member of youth committee, since you have to organize this and that along with your everyday work plus other commitments .. Oh well, I can't complain, since God has been good in my life ... Want to give the best I can .. Many times I feel like giving God only 50% of my total effort, sometimes less ... not good .. I must change myself and ask God to help me with that ...

Moving forward, I think I want to start thinking seriously about what I want to do later on in the future .. I've started to make up my mind on a few things but there are many other things that I still need to think about, decide and surrender everything in His hands ... I am sure there are many obstacles ahead and I really need to be prepared for that ... Sometimes I thank God that I can live in Australia, have a good fellowship and learnt so many things from so many different people ... It's part of my life that I will always cherish later on in life ..

Until then ..............

Sunday, July 11, 2004

To let go

Hmm .. don't fully understand what "letting go" means, but here you go,

To let go doesn't mean to stop caring, it means I can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off, it's the realization that I don't control another.
To let go is not to enable, but to allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try to change or blame another, I can only change myself.
To let go is not to care for, but to care about.
To let go is not to fix, but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes, but to allow others to affect their own outcomes.
To let go is not to be protective, it is to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold, or argue, but to search out my own shortcomings and to correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires but to take each day as it comes and to cherish the moment.
To let go is not to criticize and regulate anyone but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past but to grow and live for the future.


To let go is to fear less and love more.

-- undisclosed source -- :)

Monday, July 05, 2004

Strange feeling!

Suddenly there is this strange feeling in me
Feeling hard to express
Want to let it go and yet
its arms hold around me tightly

Sooo tight
It makes me sigh when I feel it
How long will it hold me like this
Like a mother who won't let go of her son from her arms

Should I feel this way
After all those trials and tough times
After all those cries and laughs
Should not I be stronger than this

I bow my knees unto Thee
The one and only God is He
Pouring out my burdens and my sins
The strange feeling I surrender also

He lifted me up again, oh yes He did
He makes me like a warrior and teach me to battle the enemy
He looks into the weak and deliver them from their troubles
He puts His strength in those who fears Jehovah

Ohhh what a feeling, what a relieve
Let all who are weak come to Him
Jesus is His Name
Mighty God, Warrior and Counsellor

Friday, July 02, 2004

Feel tired

Feeling a bit tired lately. I guess I need to rest a bit to restore my energy...Worse, jun my little brother has been sick for 3 days now. We went to the doctor today, and the doctor said it was infection in his digestion .. We bought some medicine and abon for him to eat. Just wish him well soon ...

Wednesday, June 30, 2004

Sunday, June 27, 2004

waiting waiting and waiting, AT LASSTTTTT

Hmmhhhhh .... I picked up my little brother at the sydney airport today. I had to wait for quite some time. Since there was a delay in the flight I had to wait around 3 hours in the airport. Such a troublesome airplane, luckily there was a soccer match at the airport between Holland and Sweden, so I watched that game while waiting. The rest of the time, I used it for shopping at the airport. I thought why not do shopping while I have a chance to do it, since I rarely go shopping these days. In the end I met my brother, I was very happy. VERY VERY HAPPY, AT LASSSTTTTTT ... Hehehehe .. We went home and spent a bit of time together, had lunch and all that. It was a good time.

Looking at that experience, I think I have a lot of things in me that I currently have to wait upon. Wait for God's time. So manyyyyyy, that sometimes I begin to loose patience. Things like waiting for God to work in my family, continuing my study, have my own usaha, having a relationship, waiting for growth in my ministry, and many things. Those waits seem so loooongg and so farrrrr away. I can get impatient easily when things don't go according to my way, and I am quite a hasty person actually. I like to do things very fast. ^^ .. I sometimes loose track, like a sheep, a dumb sheep that is lost. Thank God, He is THE good shepherd. I can see and feel that He always directed me, not to loose sight of what's important in this life. It is not MONEY, or RELATIONSHIP, NOT EVEN MINISTRY. I think the most important thing in this life is to make Jesus' Name known, How great is God's name and the things that He has done. Whatever I do, wherever I will be, I don't want to loose track of this goal. Hey friends, please rebuke me if I start to loose sight of this! ^^

Anyway, in the end of all those waits, there is an "AT LASSTTT" part. I will wait for that time and rejoice and be thankful. Maybe this is the time I meet God face to face or it can be other times as well. hehehe. In the end maybe I don't get what I really want, but yeah, I will trust HIM who loves me, the good shepherd and still rejoice, because I know who HE IS.

Oh well, in the meantime, I'm just happy that my brother is here again. YAYYYY! AT LAST. It was worth the wait.

Wednesday, June 23, 2004

Happyyyyyyyyy!

Ureshiiii, Yippiiii, Horeeeeee .... ^^
Reasons:
1. Georgia Charissa Widjaja telah lahir, 22 June 2004, 11:22 PM, 3.7 Kg .. hehehe ... Congrats Ferry and Sianty ... Matanya mirip banget ama sianty . hehehhe ...
2. Si Jun will come back soon ... 26th June ..
3. My computer is back to life .. asikkk ...

No Action Talk Only

I was talking to friend today about Christianity especially the Christians. His view really reminds me that I should "always always always always always" have a full self-awareness living in this world as something that I claim to be, a child of God.

His view about Christians is basically what I write as the title of this blog. He thinks that most Christians (including the preachers), if not all, are mainly people who can only talk about this and that, about love, faith and all that, but in real life, real situation, critical situation, most of them don't live to the expectation that they always talk about. The church are not sensitive to issues, people's need, not friendly enough to new comers, and so on. Oh well, that's his view which I have to agree to a certain degree when I see my own life. Benerr juga yaa. Hmm ..

A reminder for me, from kitab James: Jangan cuman jadi pendengar (dan omong) doank, tapi jadilah pelaku Firman.

Of course as a Christian, I still live in this world with flesh and blood, with sinful nature. Christians will fail and we can't do it perfectly, but thank God that God doesn't see me my sins, but God sees Jesus in me and justify me to be righteous before Him. Thank God, since none of us would and could live up to God's standard anyway.

Having that truth in our mind, well, still other people are watching over us Christians. All of them are LOOKING, WATCHING, and STARRING at us. They watch us everyday whether we like it or not, since we are carrying our Father's name. We are called to be witnesses wherever we are. Our calling is to be witnesses that glorify our Father's name, so that His name might be known.

When I see my own lives, hmm, I am so far far far far far away from what I claim to be, the child of God. Thank God for Jesus, but that's not a good excuse for me to live as I want to ...

*God I pray please give me strength and wisdom to live wisely as Your child*

Monday, June 21, 2004

life without computer

The title really summarizes my life in this past couple of days. Yes, my computer at home suddenly switched off and it's being checked by one shop at kingsford now. I think there is some problems with either the motherboard or the graphic card, but yeah I still don't know exactly what the problem is. Maybe I need to upgrade to a better one? It's gonna cost me a fortune though since I'm planning to buy a new computer as well.

Lately, been struggling at work, especially late last week. I was feeling a bit tired and didn't work to the best that I should .. Today was better I think. I put a reminder on my PC using a software for posting notes in PC to work as if I'm doing it for God. It's taken from collosians 3. That works i think .. hehehe .. Realize If I don't have that attitude, can't really become a blessing to my work mates ...

Had a good yum cha branch with Ronny and friends at silver spring ... As you know, I ate quite a lot of sio may, dkk lah ... it was yummmm ... and the dessert (semangka + kolang-kaling) WOWWW, lezaaat sekaleeee .. ^^ .. Heheheh .. During the branch, Ryan, monnie, I, Agung and Alex had a little conversation ... Basically kita coba ajakin mrk2 ke pemuda ... The funny thing is si Agung try to ajakin kita ke persekutuan Doa .. Hmmmm ... I told them that I already have too many things to do at church, Rabu PA, Sabtu half-day di pemuda, Minggu pagi, belum kalo ada bible study preparation and practice for Sunday Night, not including the meetings for retreat, inti, etc. I don't think I can handle it if I come to Friday night juga ... Need to spend time on other things juga, like with my bro Jun, and do other stuffs ... Oh well, that's how I feel anyway .. So I said to them, kayaknya kita kebanyakan kebaktian deh ... hehehe .. so wherever u r terpanggil, setialah disana ... build one another up in that fellowship .. I guess if i can compare with MRI, they only have one umum and one pemuda on Sunday only. The rest is only sport activities and gatherings ...

I heard today that Sianty is currently in labour. Olalaaaa ... She told me before (sambil bergurau) that she wants to wait until 1 July to get allowance from the government .. hehehe ... But well, it's God's time ya ga bisa apa2 lagi .. But I guess she also agrees with that ^^ Well, I was excited about the news... I really really hope anaknya lahir dengan sehat lah ya, and sianty nya and ferry nya juga sehat2 aja ... *hmm, bakal kayak ferry atau sianty, cowo atau cewe, namanya bakalan apa, beratnya berapa* hahahah, so many questions .. They all will be revealed soon .. ^^

Work at uni is starting soon .. It's been put on hold for two weeks now, since my supervisor is away. Fiuh, gonna get real busy i think. I still help my supervisor in his research on a part-time basis .. It's good since I can work on my own time as long as it achieves what he wants to achieve ... It's been going on for a few months now ..

Oh well .. today I phoned a friend who just had exam .. it seems to be a hard exam ... I guess it's exam time for many church friends these days ... Pray that God will give those who are having exam and assignments the wisdom and courage to do them and accept whatever result that they may get later ..

In the meantime, really2 berharap computer cepetan dibenerin... Hahahhaha

Thursday, June 17, 2004

Post long weekend

Long weekend seemed not far away behind and here I am, caught up in the busyness of life. Really enjoyed the lunch at Yoppie's place on monday. The food was great, the fellowship even better ... Can't thank God enough for that .... Thanks to Yoppie, Cicil (the hosts) and everyone yg dateng ..

Tuesday, I got excited by the possibility of watching live soccer euro match after a few months without soccer match. Yeah, I rarely watch soccer match these days, since my television is not good at receiving signal ... I've tried many things from digital setup box, connecting the antenna to VCR to boost the power, buying a really good antenna, but nothing seems to work. Anyway .. I'll be watching the game from vic lay's place. So on Tuesday night, I stayed at his place with Ken and Hans in order to watch the game on the following day (Wednesday morning). It was a good game. I supported Germany on that game, since Hans, Freddy and Ken went for Holland. hahahah ... just for the sake of making it fun and interesting .. I have never been a fan for any team or club .. anything that is worth watching is fine by me ... I could get passionate during the soccer game, but yeah, it's just me trying to enjoy the game and make the most out of it .. It was a pretty good game .. Germany scored first and Holland scored in the dying minute .. 1-1

Wednesday morning after the game, I went straight to office for work ... Had Krispy Cream doughnut for breakfast *yummmm* .. As usual wednesday is a bible study day for me ... Had BMB (Bible Means Business) during lunch with Hans and Derek ... Erwin also brought some of his friends .. At night, I had another bible study at bondi junction ... It was Muri's turn to lead and she did it really well ...

One thing that I plan to do in my bible study in 3 weeks time is to have an "Evangelize to one another" session(s), since we are learning about the book of acts which is about God's unstoppable mission to spread the Gospel to reach the end of the earth. Everyone in bible study will basically learn the way to evangelize to people, what is the core message of christianity (the GOOD NEWS) and at the same time, we tried to come up with the many many questions, hard ones, that people usually ask us ... Each individual in the bible study will be assigned some questions in order for them to do some research and present the answer at the same time. It will be interesting .. hehehe .. people got excited yesterday ... As for me, need to do research in the topic of evangelism, e.g. multi-cultural evangelism, etc etc.

Btw, it's been a week since my brother went back to indo ... fiuh .. kind of miss him .. Jun, if you are reading, cepetan balik ya .. heheheh ...

Didn't feel quite well on Wednesday, as for today I'm feeling a lot better .. hopefully ga sakit aja .. *pls God pls God*, jangan sampe sakit ..

Monday, June 14, 2004

Never say you are wrong and I am right

Hmm ... the title is taken from Bruce Dipple during pemuda session 2 days ago about the "Purpose" of the passion of Christ. Learn a lot regarding how to evangelize to other people ... I learnt that when you evangelize you should:

"Do it patiently, prayfully and lovingly and NEVER ever feel arrogant because we already know the truth. Never say you are wrong and I am right"

Knowing the truth should make us more humble and not being arrogant. We share the gospel because we want that person to understand the truth. Our job is to share the truth gently, and let the Holy Spirit works. It is hard isn't it, because the gospel claims EXCLUSIVENESS that no one come to Father except through Jesus, but it is possible. We've seen it last saturday during the passion session when Bruce tried to explain the Gospel to "D" who is Hindu. NEVER ever force a person to believe. It's NOT our job, it's God's Spirit's job. They are responsible for the choice that they make, not us. Our job is to share the gospel and live in accordance to it, not a stumbling block. The rest, give it all to God...Just give it all .. ^^ ..

Fiuhhh...Saturday and Sunday for me was full with activities. Saturday morning, I had a good basketball session with friends...Had lots of sweat .. hehehe..Unfortunately, last saturday I had a poor game :( unlike the past 3 weeks .. hehehe ... I don't know why ... I will try harder next time ... *JIA YOU* ... After some rest, went straight to church to prepare the video the passion of the Christ. There were a couple of obstacles, but thank God that we could solve them in no time ... In the evening I had Pemuda .. Overall it was an encouraging session to me .. The passion of Christ should be our passion as well now since we know the PURPOSE behind it. Read colossian 2:13-15. Now is the time to practice what's been preached ... ^^

Sunday morning, I had a chance to meet vera, her mum and victor at church before they came back to indo on Monday. Oh well, the first comment that she said to me was "you are very different, you loose a lot of weight". Many people whom I haven't seen in a long time usually say that to me when we meet. After that I had lunch together with a couple of friends at Pinangsia. During eating, I was moved by the sharing by "A". "A" told me how "A" used to live in such an unloving environment in indo. I think "A" still has a grudge against it or maybe not, I don't know. Didn't say much to "A", but I said that no matter how bad our environment is (remember Joseph), God called us to live a life that's different to the surrounding. Different in a sense a life that make GOD's name KNOWN. Maybe there are more people like that at church I don't know. But hey, YES, that story made me sad, but realize maybe like Joseph, God is working through all that to accomplish something which I don't really understand now.

On Sunday, I also went to Jazz Festival with a couple of friends at Darling Harbour, enjoying live Jazzy music. It was refreshing, good scenery (darling harbour man) with good entertainment from the bands and dancers. Went to sunday night service after that. It was VERY encouraging to see sunday night service grows in numbers and the fellowship is betta .. wayyyyy betta than before.

Harry Potter was next on my schedule after the evening service. Planned to watch England-France in the morning (5Am) at churchill bar across the road, but When I went there, they actually CLOSED the bar? No one was inside..Not sure what happened there... hiks hiks ... But anyway, England lost to france in such an UNBELIEVABLE way .. on the 90th minutes, 2 GOAL????? CRAZYYY MAN ... Can't wait for other games to unveil .. heheheh .. Til next time deh! Must mandi now and go to Yoppie's place for lunch.

What a weekend, what a weekend! Heheheh

Friday, June 11, 2004

long weekend

Hmm .. how long has it been since the last long weekend? Well, It's here now and me so happy. URESHIIIIIIIIIIIIII kalo kata org Jepang .. hehehe .. Been really tired lately at work, need some rest, YES, Rest .. in my own room with computer on, reading books, or watching tv or new ANIME would be very ideal .. heheeh ..

This saturday there is the passion of the Christ QnA session at pemuda. Inti has worked really hard in preparing this... Me Just pray to God that He will work tomorrow, and being confident in His Word which has the power to save people ... *Father, I Surrender everything yah* ...

After pemuda, cannot join the fellowship dinner as I've been invited to dinner by S to S's place. I Wonder what's the special occassion, still not sure, but I guess I'll just come... In the morning, I'll play basketball at unigym with a couple of hongkies and indos .. Should be pretty good .. It's been really good for the past two weeks .. met some new friends and who knows what can happen? new opportunity for the gospel? hehehe .. you never know ...

Why is it so hard yah to talk to people about the gospel? Even to our christian friends? It's suppose to be a good news, which we should be excited upon, just like having a NEW car or a NEW girlfriend, or a NEW computer or a NEW baby .. It's suppose to be EXCITING stuff looh .. but hey, it's not so exciting. It's maybe because most people that we meet everyday might not want to hear it .. people might get offended .. We don't usually like to offend people ... Or they have their own beliefs ... Or other thing like "What right do we have to say that their belief is wrong?" and so on.

Paul said: "I am not ashamed of the gospel, It's the POWER of God that SAVES all those who believe..

We might look foolish (I hate to look like foolish in front of other people btw), we might not win the respect of men, we might break friendships, others might look down on us, our family might not like us, and so many other things, YET in all those things the bible says, we are actually more than conquerers through Him who loves us. *Be strong di* ..

Oh well, on Sunday it will be even busier .. Have night service pelayanan .. in the morning there might be retreat meeting .. waaaaa .. so busy so busy ...

On Monday, Yoppie invited me and other friends for lunch BBQ at rockdale .. It should be a good time to catch up with people .. the food is guaranteed Yoppie said .. hahahaha .. can't wait until Monday .... *Awasss kalo ga enak* .. :P

Hmm .. I think that's enough for now!! I will update this blog with what happen tomorrow and sunday and monday ... until then, be Joyful always!!

Tuesday, June 08, 2004

Being pushy

I was being a bit pushy to someone today. Not only it made me feel bad, but it made me think about something. When should you push someone and when should you restrain yourself from doing it? Or should we do it AT ALL?

Usually I don't like pushing people around. I would rather be in peace with him/her. hehehe ... That's built in my character which can be bad sometimes. I sometimes am very reluctant to be in conflict with people or tell people on what to do even though It is something that needs to be done. Some people told me that there are some occassions where you really need to be a little bit over the edge and really push if you really believe that there is a benefit in doing so.

Let me give an example to better illustrate this. There is a child who is reluctant to do just anything. He is very talented in music and his parents could see that talent in him. He could be a great musicians if only he wants to start practicing his music talent. The problem is, as I said before, this child is unwilling to do that. What should you do as parents? You know that this will bring great benefit for him later on in his life. Will you FORCE the child? If you force him to do it, there's a chance that he will thank you later on for that. If you don't force him, he might end up wasting his talents. As parents you might try many ways of trying to convince your child, including giving your son "pengertian" in the hope that he might understand your thoughts and insights. You have tried to do it patiently over a period of time. But yeah, it doesn't seem to work at all.

So in the example above, how should you act as the child's parents? How can you be wise to judge the difference between the two? Push/Force your child to do it, or let him do what he wants to do, which might NOT be the right thing to do. Afterall, what you really want as parents(this is what I want anyway) is to win the child's HEART (in this case, the child is willing to practice his music talent without any hesitant) .. This is the most ideal thing that the parent could ever wish kan? hehehe ..

Another question: Does God ever "PUSH" us in doing something? Remember Jonah?

Hahahah .. anyway, enough of confusion already.

Sharing room

Today, I had a little feeling ga enak to my brother Jun. The problem started after I arrived home from work today, to discover that my bedroom is filled with Jun's friends (about 5 of them) were in my bedroom, watching naruto movie in my computer. I was a little tired at that time and I wanted to get some rest, or sitting in front of my computer or just having a relaxed time. Having found Jun's friends in my room made me a little ANGRY to be honest.

I thought that he should know the code of sharing room with someone. I thought that it was inappropriate for him to do such thing. I thought that he should realize that I was tired today and never to bring his friends sleeping on my bed. I came up with all this reasons trying to JUSTIFY my action and anger.

I actually went out of the house, trying not to show my anger infront of Jun's friends. I went straight to Hans' place today. I thought maybe I can have some rest at Hans' place and have a chit chat with either Ryan, Jerry or Hans. On the bus, I remembered about the preaching last Sunday. It was about loving your enemy. Hey, I might have all these VALID reasons to justify that I'm right. Jun might have his own. I realized on the bus that I need to forgive him and just be frank with him on how I feel. This is my brother I'm talking about, one of the closest person to me in the whole world. If I cannot love him, I cannot really love my enemies. Decided to remove my anger, slowly but surely with God's help I believe I was able to do that.

After spending some times at Hans' place with Ryan's bible study group, *Not really joining the bible study though*, taught hans how to play Meteor Garden song (Qing Fei De Yi) in guitar, read some comic books and watched Hans do some chinese character writing in his computer, I went home and told my brother how I felt at that time. Tried to do it gently, not to hurt him or anything. I explained to him everything and tried to make it right with him. Fiuhhhh ... ^^

One thing that might happen is that he might move to vic bas' room as Vic bas has found a new place in Maroubra ... Well, we'll see what happen in the next couple of days. I think it's a good idea for adults to have a single room that belongs to themselves. I don't mind sharing room with Jun, coz it's cheaper, but he might need some space for himself to study, invite his friends over, and so on. So we'll see what he'll decide ..

Don't know who's right or wrong in this incident, but the most important lesson that I've learnt today is to be OPEN to people who are close to me and to learn to FORGIVE and LOVE them, not just by words, but by my action as well.

**Love is patient, Love is kind ... bla bla bla ... *** DO IT!!

Sunday, June 06, 2004

Passion(ate) day

Had a full day today at church and at Kevin's place making movies for the Passion session next week..Fiuh what a day. I spent the whole day with Kevin *thanks Kev, really grateful for your support and help* making a GREAT presentation for next week's passion of the Christ session at pemuda *thank God* .. But yeah, really pray for next week so that people who turn up will have their questions answered by GOD Himself, and go home changed from enemies of God to His child.

Just wanna rest now after being full on for the whole day today.. Hahahahah ... Swimming swimming in my own pulau kapuk ..

Oh, another thing is that Jun is having his last exam tomorrow..Good luck to him, and he will go back to indo on the 11th June.. Gonna miss him neh ..

Another thing that i must do is to find new flatmates .. yes flatmates not flatmate. I need to find 2 new flatmates as 2 of my flatmates are moving out ... One is going to Brisbane and the other one is moving to nearby unit. I must start looking from tomorrow I guess.. Still many things to do tomorrow, ada kerja, ada urusan ini dan itu, banyak deeeehhh ... so JIA YOU DI !! Tetep semangat ...

Ok deh .. Til next time..

Saturday, June 05, 2004

Pemuda

Had Pemuda fellowship at church today. I am always excited at meeting friends whom I rarely meet during week days. Met Franky, Edwin (forgot that you are suppose to give announcement for retreat *hahahaha*), Triana, Christine, Andy (dah lama banget ga ketemu, katanya ada 3 weeks intensive class), Hatta, Cynthia, Anna (dah lama juga, katanya kerja di bakers delight), and many others. You can see that I'm getting excited from my behaviour .. If I laugh very loud, that usually means that I am in a happy and iseng mood. That's just me ... When I'm in this mood, I like to tease people and make people laugh as well .. Had to restrain myself not to overdo it .. heheheh ..

Funny, In pemuda we can find people with many diverse personality. Ada yg mature, ada yg masih anak2, ada yg egois juga, ada yg very helpful, ada yg diem, ada juga yg ribut, ada yg setia, ada juga yg males2 an, ada yg sifatnya thinker, ada juga yg lebih frank, ada yg sabarrrr, ada juga yg ga sabaran, ada yg banyak pake perasaan, ada juga yg pake logic. So many diverse personality. Maybe itu cocok kali ya ama what Paul said, Even though, we are many but we are one body in Christ. We are the CHURCH of Christ. It's good in a sense that we can learn from one another and being patient with one another juga sometimes.

Tadi baru kepikiran aja what is it that I would REALLY REALLY like to see happening in youth fellowship .. It's like what do I picture the fellowship in the end (of my period as pemuda leader or until God come again maybe*hehehe*) .. What I'd really like to see is that ALL Pemuda individually and as a group tuh bisa jadi BLESSING .. Diperlengkapi to become a blessing .... Blessing means being Christ' witness wherever kita ada, di indo kek, di sydney kek, di amrik kek, di kutub utara kek, dimana aja deh. I really want to see them and ME, show Christ in our lives, to our parents, bros and sis, friends, workmates. While doing that, we encourage one another kalo ada yg lagi jatuh dibantuin, di encourage.. Every week we receive blessing from God's Word and bisa meneruskan that blessing to other people as well. Christ ordered his disciples to become His witnesses before Dia go up to heaven and I think it's something yg really important. Yah ... begitulah ... ^^ ...

Had a good meeting with INTI today. Now we try to meet every two weeks to pray for one another and pemuda. We asked how everyone's goin and we discussed the latest issue in Youth. Everyone's so busy with life .. Ryan is getting ready for going back to indo for good *hiks*, Hanvy is busy with nyari kerja (heard she had interview with st george), Monnie (Life full of assignment, presentation and assingment, but she will finish everything by next week and just wait for graduation .. :) ), Devi(Sibuk kerja, heard she got a new responsibility at her workplace, congrats dev), and Dave is busy with his PHD .. Overall it was a really good meeting, it was short but very encouraging to see all of them in the same ministry .. really glad that I can serve with them in Pemuda ...

Overall today's pemuda was good .. I felt a bit moved when SDG group prayed together. We sang "I surrender all" .. After that we prayed for many things and I was really glad that we did that ... Really encouraged by it .. prayer is a BIG BIG thing and we shouldn't forget to do it in the ministry ... Some people said it's the NAFAS nya gereja .. *Berdoalah senantiasa* .. Let your life itself be an offering of prayer to Him .. I was also encouraged by Oscar's and San2 testimony. I can see that these two bro and sis of mine love to do the RIGHT thing for the Lord. They are not perfect, just like me, but I believe that by His grace, God can use them to bring blessing to other people, to bring Jesus himself to others .. I pray that God will keep working in their lives and He WILL ..

Akhir kata, hehehe, yuk yuk let us giat selalu dalam pekerjaan Tuhan, coz we know it's not sia2 gitu loh ...

Cold Yet a Warm Dinner

Had an invitation from Andreas and Hanny for dinner last Friday. It was very nice of them to be willing to share meal. They basically want to talk to friends whom they rarely see in the past couple of months. *I should do it too later when I have a wife kaleee* hahahah ... anyway ..

The ones attending the dinner were mainly old friends .. Me, Ryan, Aldo, Rita, Oscar, and Hans. Jimbo, Jenny and Freddy couldn't make it even though they are the ones that we rarely see loh..But yeah, it was a great dinner. We talked and talked and talked and talked .... until 12 PM ... can u imagine ? from 8 - 12 ... Hahahha .. I was really really tired after 10.It's funny sometimes that people usually ask me when i'm a quiet mode, maybe it's because i usually talk much eh .. hehehhe .. I was a bit quiet during the conversation, but not too quiet loh. Ryan and Andreas asked me what happened .. *very nice of them*, even though nothing wrong or bad actually happened to me ..

Usually if I keep quiet is because i'm tired *after 9PM*. Also if i have a problem that I need to think about, or usually if I make mistake to other people as well, I always think about it .. ga tenang until I make it right again. Don't like making mistake to others .. ^^

Oh another reason why I didn't talk much during dinner is because of the alcohol. We drank mango alcohol ... the same one that I had in my previous gathering at Ferry's place. Wah .. that dring really made my head quite heavy .. parah parah ... so that's why I was doing listening all the time ... :)

Overall the dinner was great. We talked about many things, from tax return to plan for the future, mortgage, rich friends in indo, hans singapore friends, F4 nya Indonesia (andreas friends), high school memory, top 5 girl in IPC, my target girl and hans', and many other things .. although for personal questions, no one really opened up sih .. hehehe .. too shy I guess in front that many people ...

The food that we ate *Thanks hanny* were sayur asem (Indonesian soup with corn and vegies), grilled chicken wing, and sambal trasi (indonesian chilli sauce, must try one this one .. hehehe) and lalap (raw vegies to be served with sambal trasi) .. very nice very nice...*lucky Andreas* hehehe... really love it .. bring back old memory in indo before ... In the end, Rita helped hanny washing up .. very nice .. *thanks Rit* .. :)

That's all about the dinner. Eventhough the temperature inside hanny and andreas' house was a bit cold (some people wear ugg boot and shoes), but it was VERY warm dinner. Yah .. xie2 again for the hospitality and great fellowship yah .. ^^

Friday, June 04, 2004

CHUGO Samurai

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Duty and Loyalty: You serve your purpose and do
what you must do. People would consider you
someone to rely on, and one who keeps his/her
word when he/she gives it.


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