Tuesday, June 08, 2004

Sharing room

Today, I had a little feeling ga enak to my brother Jun. The problem started after I arrived home from work today, to discover that my bedroom is filled with Jun's friends (about 5 of them) were in my bedroom, watching naruto movie in my computer. I was a little tired at that time and I wanted to get some rest, or sitting in front of my computer or just having a relaxed time. Having found Jun's friends in my room made me a little ANGRY to be honest.

I thought that he should know the code of sharing room with someone. I thought that it was inappropriate for him to do such thing. I thought that he should realize that I was tired today and never to bring his friends sleeping on my bed. I came up with all this reasons trying to JUSTIFY my action and anger.

I actually went out of the house, trying not to show my anger infront of Jun's friends. I went straight to Hans' place today. I thought maybe I can have some rest at Hans' place and have a chit chat with either Ryan, Jerry or Hans. On the bus, I remembered about the preaching last Sunday. It was about loving your enemy. Hey, I might have all these VALID reasons to justify that I'm right. Jun might have his own. I realized on the bus that I need to forgive him and just be frank with him on how I feel. This is my brother I'm talking about, one of the closest person to me in the whole world. If I cannot love him, I cannot really love my enemies. Decided to remove my anger, slowly but surely with God's help I believe I was able to do that.

After spending some times at Hans' place with Ryan's bible study group, *Not really joining the bible study though*, taught hans how to play Meteor Garden song (Qing Fei De Yi) in guitar, read some comic books and watched Hans do some chinese character writing in his computer, I went home and told my brother how I felt at that time. Tried to do it gently, not to hurt him or anything. I explained to him everything and tried to make it right with him. Fiuhhhh ... ^^

One thing that might happen is that he might move to vic bas' room as Vic bas has found a new place in Maroubra ... Well, we'll see what happen in the next couple of days. I think it's a good idea for adults to have a single room that belongs to themselves. I don't mind sharing room with Jun, coz it's cheaper, but he might need some space for himself to study, invite his friends over, and so on. So we'll see what he'll decide ..

Don't know who's right or wrong in this incident, but the most important lesson that I've learnt today is to be OPEN to people who are close to me and to learn to FORGIVE and LOVE them, not just by words, but by my action as well.

**Love is patient, Love is kind ... bla bla bla ... *** DO IT!!

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