Thank u God

Don't feel like posting anything, just want to say thank you to God. Thinking back on how I became a Christians, counting all his blessings, the ups and the not so up times, all the fun moments, struggle moments really overwhelms me. If not because of Jesus, I wouldn't be here and I won't be what I am now.

I want to do some fun exercise. Want to count God's blessings in my life since I am a baby. Hehehehe ... Well, of course there are too many to count, but I will try my best anyway ...
Blessings:

1. Thank God that I was born .. yuhuu .. Hello world!!
2. Thank God for mum and dad who raised me with all love and care. They are not perfect parents, but I know that they love me soooo much.
3. Thank God that I was not so healthy when I was a kid. That way my parents had a chance to show their love for me and I can get really close to them too.
4. Thank God for all the fun holidays that we had together as a family
5. Thank God that I have a lovely brother, Jun. He has always been the one that understand me better than my parents or friends.
6. Thank God for my mum who is always there when I needed help in anything.
7. Thank God for papa yg sabarrrr dan teliti bangettt ... a calm factor in my life.
8. Thank God for mama and papa yg always work so hard just to provide me with the necessities in life. All the tears that they shed, all the sweats and hard work, really appreciate it. They are very brave parents and ulettt banget .. Kagum kagum ..
9. Thank God that I had lots of fun when I was a kid. Watched cartoon, played video games, played with friends and many things ... wow .. PUASSS BANGET POKOKNYA !!! hehehe ...
10. Thank God for my sunday school teacher .. what a great work that you did for God!
11. Thank God that I had a chance to get "0 DUCK" in one of my test during primary school. Once in a lifetime experience .. hehehe ... I cried a lot at that time since I am not used to that. Masih inget booo sampe sekarang!
12. Thank God for all my friends in Bondowoso!! Made some really2 close friends whom I still keep in contact until now.
13. Thank God that I had a chance to go to malang for junior high.
14. Thank God that I was becoming somewhat naughty on my first year of junior high, so that God's grace were shown more abundantly when I got to know Him the following year.
15. Thank God that I move place the following year and met my friends who introduced me to Christianity.
16. Thank God that I believed in Jesus on my second year of Junior High .. YUHUUU!!
17. Thank God that I experienced a lot of opposition from my family after that. It made me stronger and long for Jesus' return even more.
18. Thank God for all the struggles that I had to bear on that year and the following year. Fights with parents, all the tensions, and tears .. It was so hardddd!!!!! still is !
19. Thank God for all my friends in Malang ... I really enjoyed being with them and cherished the fun moments that we had together ...
20. Thank God for all the fun times at school in malang .. Hahahha .. so many memories ... From studying, makan rame2, makan bakso, nasi duk2, all the restaurants, pinjem2 buku kalo lagi mau ujian, visiting kost cewe rame2, jalan2 sore naik sepeda/sepeda motor, ngejahilin guru, funny friends/teachers, belajar bersama, POR (Pekan Olah Raga)-> juara tarik tambang, and so on !! Seru deh !!
21. Thank God for my church in Malang (GPdI Hebron) .. It started with a small church but it has people with a full dedication to God. The people really loved God with all their hearts, always friendly and warm. The church now grows and became a big church though.
22. Thank God for giving me talent to play music (guitar). It grows since I played for remaja at Hebron church. Music is the only art that I am good at apparently .. hahahaha ... I am hopeless in doing ketrampilan ama menggambar ..
23. Thank God for giving me a chance to share the gospel with my friends and ended up loosing my face by not being able to answer my friend's questions about christianity. I was really down at first but after a couple of weeks I was even more motivated to learn about the bible more.
24. Thank God for all the care and attentions that my parents gave me even though I did not live at the same city as them. It's unbelievable really!!! I remember one night that I was sick and asked them to come to malang and they did!! I couldn't believe it myself at that time!
25. Thank God for making me decide to go to Australia after finishing first year High school.
26. Thank God for bringing me to IPCYF through one of my language indo friend (Mike boris bro) at Sydney English Language Center.
27. Thank God for giving me a chance to serve Him in music ministry at IPCYF too.
28. Thank God for my uni friends. None of my close friends are christians. Thank God, because of that, I learnt how to live consciously as a christian. Tried to share, but never succeed though ...
29. Thank God for all the fun times that I had at uni, belajar bareng, di lab, played around with computer chips, played games together, renang bareng, masak2, gathering .. hahaha .. gosh it was fun!!
30. Thank God for giving me a chance to live in International house. Met so many people and broaden my point of view.
31. Thank God that Jun came to Australia - for all the sharing time together - this sort of chances don't come twice in my life - I really cherish having an argument, fight, laughs, and some fun moments together with him in Aussie. Thank God because He gave me a chance to witness through words and deeds about Jesus.
32. Thank God for finishing my school and being able to graduate!! It's a proof of God's providence in my life!
33. Thank God for romantic feelings that I had to some people even though it did not work out for now .. hahaha ... Learnt a lot from those experiences, and really opened my eyes to certain things in life.
34. Thank God for IPCers - you guys helped me grow in my understanding of God. I learnt a lot during fellowship with all of you.
35. Thank God for pemuda, whereby I can learn to encourage and serve one another in Christ.
36. Thank God for all of my bible study groups that I had in the past, for all the leaders (awa, Jimmy Liang, Darwin) and the members. Bible study really made me think seriously about who God is and purpose in life.
37. Thank God for my former flatmates (senior), e.g. vic bas, arie, jeffrey, aliong, for all the sharing time that we had together, about life, God, cewe, ... You guys are awesome!
38. Thank God for all the failures that I had in the past. Through those failures I learn more about life and how I should live as christian better.
39. Thank God for all the successes in my life as well. Through those things I learnt that all things come from God and He alone deserved to be praised.
40. Thank God for today! coz He reminded me about all His goodness in my life.
41. Thank God because He made me stronger day by day. I trust that He will finish His good work in me, making me more like Jesus.
42. Thank God ......... -----------------..........

Banyak bener kannnn!! Ga abis abis dehhhh .. Amin! =)

Beautiful psalm

1 O LORD , you have searched me
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD .

5 You hem me in-behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.

7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.

11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.

19 If only you would slay the wicked, O God!
Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!
20 They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.
21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD ,
and abhor those who rise up against you?
22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.

23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.

When God doesn't answer your prayer

I am currently reading a book called "When God doesn't answer your prayer". I am up to chapter 3 and so far it is pretty interesting ... Makes me wanna read more ...

angry

Here I am, sitting in front of my compie, tried to sleep for about an hour ever since 12AM but just could not do that ... I am angry to someone for acting irresponsibly on something ... I feel like not telling the person that he/she is wrong, but it got to a point where I could not take it anymore and had to do something, although that person might think that I am a nuisance ... huh, who cares ... I just want that person to be a little bit responsible for what he/she is doing .... and I pray that he/she would understand that I did that because I loved him/her.

In the mean time, I wanna get more sleeeppppp!!! tomorrow got church in the morning ..

Australian Day ... very memorable

Spent the whole day with some friends today. In the morning, I went to clovelly beach doing snorkeling (do i spell this right?) .. Well, that was the first swimming in years I think ... I haven't swam for ages, getting tired easily, especially in the sea. But overall it was a lot of fun ... I feel like doing it more .. :) ...

We then rushed to Ratu sari for lunch .. I reckon the food was pretty ordinary ... maybe because we didn't order the best that they have to offer .. hehehe .. Deb, if you are reading, what exactly did you order?? I need to know for future reference .. We ordered ayam mentega, cumi kapitan, chap jay goreng ama ikan goreng ratu sari tuh ...

We went straight to Juliana's place afterwards because Jule did not feel well today. She actually went home first ahead of us during our time in the beach. We wanted to see how she was going and finish swimming early ... We were a bit worried when we heard what happened to her .. She turned out to be alright, thank God. After that, we decided to go to Max Brener in the afternoon .. I ordered the waffle and WOWWWWW ..... It was the best waffle I've ever had ... EXCELLENTE .. IMPRESSIVE ... really really nice ... I want to go there again if I have a chance .. :)

From Max Brener, we planned to head home but somehow ended up at Juliana's place until late at night. It was really strange, but God is behind everything I guess :) .. At her place, we did a lot of sharing through truth and nothing but the truth game (the modified version of truth or dare game .. heheheh). It wasn't planned at all. Most of the questions are about Boy/Girl relationships and surprise surprise, there are a lot of openness in the conversation. We were honest with one another, sharing our good and bad experiences in relationships, sharing our lives basically. There were times where we can feel someone's sadness, but there were also many times of joy. It was so interesting. We closed the sharing with one statement that, each individual has his/her own strengths and weaknesses, but it will be wrong to base our confidence in those things especially in a relationship. Our confidence should be in Jesus who has saved us from our sins, redeemed us from this evil world. That is where our confidence lies ... In a relationship, the most important thing is both parties love God and are willing to be shaped, mould by God Himself so that both can grow and encourage one another in the Lord since our lives is not about us but about HIM. That is also the case with our relationships. We then headed to KFC Maroubra for dinner at about 10PM and said good bye to one another.

Well, that was pretty much my day ... What a day!! Definitely a memorable one !!

William lagi nembak freddy ... HAUHAUHAUHAUAH 

Danny lagi hyper ... hahahaha 

kakak adik ketemu gede ... yg mana yang kakak coba?????? 

foto rame2 di reception 

aduh fred, senyumnya ga tahan booo!! :) 

Danny and IVAN G ... you guys rocks!! 

Cewe2 IPC!! go girl 

Married soonnnnn... just wait a little longer ok!! 

me and my cousin angkat Yossie .... !!!  

The latest husband and wife from IPC + 2 cowo/cewe ganteng/cakep 

The singers and song leaders 

At your service Denden and Alia. ^^ 

3 cowok belajar pasang dassi .. hauhauhauh 

Leonard bangun tidur .. monkey style .. hahahha 

Foto rame2 before going back! Ken is being iseng tuh.. 

In the house on the second night. What are you doing danny? 

Me and hans before going to den den and alia's wedding .. similar hair style .. inspired by each other huh hans? :) 

KYC 2004 - Looking for relationships? hmmmm hmmm hmm ..

Looking for relationships? That is not really a question. It is the theme of Katoomba Youth Convention (KYC) 2004. KYC is a christian youth convention in sydney attended by around 1000 young christians. It is held every year at Katoomba blue mountain and it happened that there were about 36 people went there from IPCYF (the record number ever).

Well, I really enjoyed the trip. Learnt a number of things from the sermon, here they are:
1. We should live for the future ... In the future, Jesus will come again as judge .. At that time, those who believe in Jesus will be saved and those who does not will be judge because they do not believe in the only Son of God. I will meet Jesus face to face, the person who gave His life for my sake, betrayed by person he trusted the most, suffered so much under Pontius Pilate, separated from His Father in heaven, died on the cross, shed his blood and body up there, died among criminals just for my sake ... so that I have a relationship again with the Father in heaven, and I may know Him, the true God and being forgiven. My future looks really beautiful .. There will be no more tears .. God will wipe out tears from my eyes ... so beatiful isn't it?
2. Be involve with as many non-christians as you can and be the reflection of God's light to them.
Basically be salt and light to the world. Salt: get involve with many non-christians at all levels (political and social) and be a reflection of Christ, be different to them in all of that. It is very very hard, not an easy thing to do ... I guess there is a big difference between accepting sinners and approving what sinners do .. We are all sinners and Jesus himself accepts sinners as they are, but He did not approve what they do ..

Those two were the main points that I got from KYC .. does not seem to be related to relationships among men and women at all huh ... =)

I also had so much fun during KYC ... sang lots of songs with friends, play cards, play pictionary and did some sharings with a couple of close friends ... I got to know them better I guess .. I get to share some of my burdens as well, which is good . heheheh .... Fun is a good thing, and we need fun ... but the more important thing is to let me be challenged by the Word of God and really put it into practice.

Thanks to all of you who have worked so hard in preparing stuffs, driving, cooking, book accomodation, shopping, sending email .. You guys/gals are the best ...

Another old song yet one of my favorite

Since I am a musicians, this time i am gonna do the song with chords ... hehe .. I really love this song ... simple, touchy and always remind me about God's position in my life.

Yang terbesar (Do = C)

C                     Am                     Dm     G
Yang terbesar di hidupku mengasihi Kau
Dm                     G                     C   C7
Yang terbesar di hidupku mengasihi Kau
             F     G
Ku mau lebih cinta
           E/G#  Am
Ku mau lebih cinta
         C            Am                Dm   G     C
Yang terbesar di hidupku mengasihi Engkau

Back to indo in 2 years time

I think I might decide to go back after I finish my master degree. Still thinking about it though .. it might change later ..

Pro:
1. Di indo ada all my families and relatives, lebih rame kali ye.
2. My parents ask me to and they definitely ga mau datang sini.
3. I feel more comfortable raising a family/children in indo. Different environment, aussie is more individualistic, you you, me me.
4. I don't like paying mortgage for the rest of my life 30/40 years.
5. More opportunities if you want to open business or advance in your work.
6. Kehidupan di sydney monoton banget at the moment (everywhere kayak gini kali) plus kadang juga feel not at home aja.


Contra:
1. Fellowship di sydney sangat encouraging
2. Many uncertainties kalo pulang indo.
3. Indo itu kehidupannya susah being true and honest, selalu ada compromises here and there.
4. Macet, polusi
5. Masih harus cari2 gereja lagi di indo, walaupun gua yakin di indo juga ada gereja yang teach the bible and ada fellowship bagus.
6. Disini udah agak mapan - ada kerjaan and all that - can save quite a bit as well ...

Life ....... beyond 2005

Hmm ... tahun 2005 mungkin bakal banyak yang berubah ni .. bukan hanya I will continue my study, tapi juga in terms of pekerjaan and all that ... Kalo dulu2 ga banyak mikir tentang kerjaan, bisnis, sekarang malah banyak banget mikirnya ... Did I change my focus in life? Am I being selfish? Why am I like this? Is it because aku udah nambah umur lagi? Maybe because Ada harapan dari ortu juga kali ya .. I don't know .. :)

In terms of my relationship with God, I will still do the same things as I do now. I really need firman Tuhan to guide my path. Well, udah banyak di warn sih di awal2 tahun ... make an aim in the year 2005 to be:
1. Punya Tuhan Yesus dalam hidupku (udah)
2. Mengutamakan Firman Tuhan dalam hidup (hmm ... can do better)
3. Pake hikmat Tuhan in doing all things which usually berbeda 180 derajat dengan hikmat dunia. (can do better).

My vision is to be different dengan orang yg ga kenal Tuhan. Kalo misalnya bisnis, ya bisnis yg sesuai dengan kehendak Tuhan .. Kalo misalnya bakal kerja, I aim to be independent dan cukup secara financial ... I think itu jalan that I will tempuh untuk tahun2 ke depan ... Ga gampang I know, soalnya ya itu tadi - hikmat Tuhan melalui the bible is usually considered a "fool" bagi orang dunia .... I might have to experience loss/rugi/dipecat dari kerjaan yg udah mapan because of that .. Am I prepared for that? I don't really know the future, but I will try my best to live a christian life ...

Many examples in the bible where people must pay the price to follow God. Zakheus lost everything setelah mengikut Yesus, Daniel and his friends had to go through many trials to live a righteouss life in the eyes of God, Jesus had to suffer to save us from our sins, Paul suffered many persecution for the sake of the gospel, Joseph suffered because he was blameless and so on. I don't think I am strong enough to bare all that by myself, but is there anything impossible with God?

While doing that I am still hoping to still be able to share Christ with my family members and relatives and people that I will meet during my journey in life. My big aim in life is definitely to see the people that I meet know who the real Jesus is ...

Well, this is just my plan for a few years to come ... Plan is just a plan. They are meaningless, infact life is meaningless like what ecclesiastes says ... what matters is Fear God and keep all His commandments for this is the whole duty of men .... My life is not my own, but His ... Applying it to the real life might be a little tricky though ...

Hidup, hidup .. susah amattttt sihhhhh .. !! or is it because of me and the situation that makes it complicated? hahahaha ...

First IPCYAF 2005

Attended first IPCYAF for the year 2005 today. So happy and thankful to see friends/bros/sis encouraging one another ... We held the service in the new church at Kingsford .. The church is small but nice and it's ideal for holding pemuda service. We went to Fajar restaurant afterwards for dinner. Thank God for IPCYAF.

Surabaya - Jakarta

I had a chance to visit Surabaya and Jakarta for about a week recently. Didn't do much except some shopping and business activities. It was quite an enjoyable experience since this is only the third time I went to Jakarta in my entire life ... hahahahah ... I stayed in Ibis Hotel mangga dua, pretty close to Pasar pagi, ITC, and Mangga Dua Mall. Not a bad place to stay in Jakarta considering its strategic location ...

In Jakarta I saw quite a number of old friends. Met Christanto during IPC reunion. He's currently working with IBM, already has 1 child and really blessed by the Lord. Another person that I met is Mariana who by the way looks really really thin. She does not change much, still calm and mature in the Lord like before. Jemmy who used to be in one bible study group with me is still waiting for His Aussie PR to be processed. Ryan who went back to indo this year is also well and blessed by the Lord. Kevin Rusly and Jimmy are also doing well. They are so busy these days with their family business. They told me that it is not as easy as people might think to help their parents in the family business. There are many challenges and competition especially in Jakarta ... I also met edwin and christine. It is still a mystery for me whether they are a couple or not, but they already got a job and are doing well in indo in terms of settling down and all that, thank God.

In surabaya, I met some of my friends from my old church in Malang. They have not changed much at all. I am glad to see them. We had dinner in one restaurant, did some catching up and organize another gathering at my friend's place. It was quite fun.

God also gave me one or two chances in these past couple of weeks to talk about Jesus to my auntie, cousins, and mum. It wasn't planned at all, and it just happened that I had a chance. I was so scared to share the gospel to my relatives. It is easier to share it with a friend or someone that you meet on the street. With family, you usually know each other well and I am not used to do it anyway. If I could, I don't want to share at that time, but I did. All of them told me that they either had some bad experiences with christian, or have seen things which preacher, church or christians should not do. These days, they mainly think that church has become some kind of business organization. The large part of it is about money, offering. The church/preacher expect the congregation to give lots of money and when the congregation needs help financially, no one at church are willing to help. I guess it is not a fair comment considering there are many missionaries in indo, risking their neck for the sake of the gospel. Mum also raise issues of worshipping ancestors according to chinese customs, money, and so on. Tried to explain gently to her, and I think she understand but still disagree with me on many things. At least I've let her know my beliefs and feelings in God. It is very rare that I open myself that much to her and I am glad I did share. As for my dad, we also talked a lot which is very rare. I got to know and understand him better and although he is not as expressive as my mum in showing his love for me, I know that deep down he loves me. We laughed a lot during the trip to Jakarta and it was quite fun.

Fiuhh .. Indo ... I am gonna miss you

Sydney: too good to be true

I had this feeling that sydney is such a good place for me. What more can you ask? I had wonderful friends, fellowship, workplace, and place to stay (the last one is relative though :) ) ... It is like everything is going well when I am in sydney ... But is it a real world? Can all the good things that happen to me in sydney continue forever?

In indo, I see many things differently ... The world here is so much different to sydney ... To start, I don't have fellowship where I can serve and to support me as well since I became a christian in Malang and the church that I went to was a pentacostal church .. In business world it is a lot dirtier than I thought ... In terms of relationship between my family and relatives, there are many politics going on ... Here, my relatives look up to me .. They think very highly of me, it is like i am a superstar or somethin ... I also see many sufferings in indo ... so many of them, even among people close to my heart .. Whether I like it or not, it is just much more complicated here ... Many things I don't want to do, but I just have to do it ...

I realize that as adult I can't run from all those problems ... I don't want to run .. I want to face them ... I just thought, are all the good things that happen to me in sydney somethin that real to me? Real means that is where God wants me to be ... Should I be in indo and facing all these problems? I don't know ... Only time will tell later ...

On a happier note, God has blessed me in my study .. I've been accepted for master degree for next year ... and I've been able to keep my weight despite all the "Good" food, snacks in indo ... hahahahhaaha ..... thank you Lord ... cen te xie2 NI ..

Joshua 24:
14 "Now fear the LORD and serve him with all faithfulness. Throw away the gods your forefathers worshiped beyond the River and in Egypt, and serve the LORD . 15 But if serving the LORD seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your forefathers served beyond the River, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you are living. But as for me and my household, we will serve the LORD ."

Weird situation ..

My mum sms(ed) me yesterday at 1 o'clock in the morning saying one of the bikkhu that she used to ask help from is in sydney now (not sure why he is here) and trying to contact me. She asked me to help him if he needs help. This morning, the bikhu sms(ed) me and ask me to call him on a certain number. I thought, I don't mind helping him as my mum's friend if he really needs help, but I don't think he needs any help at all. I don't have cars and I am working, can't spend too much time with him and I don't want to. He should have some place to sleep I guess, and my place doesn't have enough room in case he wants to spend the night at my place.

I guess he just want to meet me, and talk to me ... Honestly, at first I was worried ... A bikhhu, talking to me? hehe .. sounds a bit weird ... what should I say to him? What will he say to me? Will he stay at my place? Will he give me a jimat? hahahah .. of course bakal ditolak kalo diberi ... Should I talk about religion to him? He will be interested in talking about buddhism to me I guess , I don't really know ...

My current stance is I will regard him as my parents' friends and give him a hand if he needs help. I don't want to spend too much time with him, but I don't want to give the impression that I am impolite to both my parents and the bikhuu as well. It is just that I need the wisdom to do that. This will be interesting actually ... another God-given adventure/experience of my life ..

Well, what would you do if you are in my situation now?

Hayo Jujurr

Too many of my blog entries are about my personal struggles/experiences in life ... kali ini nyantai dikit yah ... hehehehe ... main jujur2 an de .. heheh .. this is taken from friendster's bulletin board .. I thought it is fun .. :)

Jujur2an questions:

1.kamu tuh orangnya gimana?

• Aku orangnya loud (dalam hal suara), n suka yg simple simple. Yg sederhana2 aja lah ... hehehehe ..
  

2.jujur pernah boongin ortu?

• Sering ... namanya juga anak ... masa ga pernah siiii
  

3.jujur pernah mencoba bunuh diri?

• Ngga banget .. buat apa bunuh diri ...
  

4.Jujur! Pernah coba n make narkotik?

• nope .. ....
  

5.jujur pernah suka ama orang?

• Aduhhh .. ya jelas pernah la .. beberapa kali sejak SMP ... hahaha ... my masa puber .. jadi inget waktu2 dulu .. masa2 indah waktu SMP dan SMA .... huaaaaaaa .. I miss those happy times ..
  

6.jujur pernah selingkuh?

• ga pernah ... doi aja belum pernah punya
  

7.jujur pernah mabok?

• agak mabok sih pernah pusing2 gitu ... tapi ga terlalu gimana gitu ... langsung tidur kok abis itu di college dulu. Besoknya juga oke oke aja ga sampe muntah2 atau gimana .. Dari pengalaman itu I guess kalo gua mabok bisa jadi lebih hyper kali ya ... forget about your problems and all that ... but that's not really a good thing ... nanti kalo udah abis kan masalah ada lagi ... ^^ .. Tapi waktu itu minum alcohol abis acara bush dance di International House ... bukan gara2 ada masalah atau apa ....
  

8.jujur pernah ngerokok?

• Pernah sekali waktu SMP dulu .. coba2 ama teman satu kamar kost .. langsung batuk2 .. huekkkkkkkk ... ga enak banget .. terus ga pernah lagi
  

9.Jujur pernah kehilangan hp?

• Ga penah tuh ..
  

10.Jujur pernah nonjok orang?

• Yah .. beberapa kali lah ... namanya cowok ... nonjok jun my brother sering juga .. heheh .. di tangan tapi ... kita sering main tonjok2 an waktu kecil ... kalo udah gitu si mama langsung marah2 tangan si adik pada biru2 ... upss .. sorry jun ...
  

11.Jujur pernah kecelakaan?

• Pernah ... kecelakaan di luar kota waktu mengunjungi one of my friend .... ga parah2 amat sih .. amit2 ... nabrak angkot ... waktu itu gemeter banget soalnya masih kecil banget umurnya ... sendirian lagi di tengah jalan di luar kota ... ada polisi lewat pula, untung ga berhenti .. hauhauhauhauha ... selamet selamett .. huhhhh
  

12.Jujur pernah punya pacar?

• ga pernah ni ..
  

13.apakah kamu sekarang sudah punya pacar?

• nope, kok pertanyaannya diulang2 ya?? @_@
  

14.JUJUR kenapa kamu bisa suka ma cewe/cowo?

• emmmmm ... kenapa ya? I guess cewe nya cinta Tuhan, itu yg paling pertama ... kalo dari muka/body ya of course yg gua suka la ... kalo dari sifat maybe I like someone yg simple2 and sederhana, mandiri dan punya prinsip dan pengertian ... terus yg lucu juga kalo bisa .. hahahahha ...
  

15.JUJUR siapa mantan kamu yang paling kamu sayang?

• Pacar ga pernah punya oiii .. apalagi mantan ...
  

16.JUJUR siapa gebetan kamu saat ini?

• ga ada kok ..
  

17.JUJUR apakah kamu lagi pengen pacaran?

• Hahahahah ..... ga tau mo jawab apa .. I guess waiting for God's time is the best ..
  

18.JUJUR tipe ce/co yang kamu idam2kan?

• Yg cinta Tuhan .. baca amsal pasal terakhir ... kayak gitu de pokoknya ... heheheh ...
  

19.JUJUR!!!!!!!! siapa orang yang lagi dekat denganmu untuk saat ini??

• Deket sih banyak ... tapi temen doank ... Kalo for relationship, ga ada at the moment ...
  

20.JUJUR!!!!!!!! apa orang yang sedang dekat denganmu itu termasuk gebetan? ;p

• ngga ....hehehhehehe
  

21.JUJUR!!!!!!!! apa yang kamu inginkan saat ini?

• Ingin all my family members to come to know Christ .. :) .. serius amat .. but that's true though .... And I want all my friends, flatmates juga know Jesus ... orang2 di sekitar kali ya ....
  
• Pingin do master juga taun depan ... *so many things yg I want to do actually in my life* ... so maybe in some other blog entry de .. hehehehe ... terlalu banyak keinginan .. *Aku ingin begini, aku ingin begitu, ingin ini, ingin itu banyak sekaliiiii* (doraemon song) .. hahahah ...
  

dapur gereja

The title of my entry is in indonesian which means church's kitchen. Well, there is an old saying that says something like "if you go to a restaurant, don't go to its kitchen". Just enjoy the food without knowing the "inside" of how the restaurant made the meal, the meal's ingridients and so on. As long as it tastes good, that's all you care about. :)

It could be like that also with church. Many people only come to church, sit, sing, sermon, say little hi, say good bye (5 S's) .. hehehe ... It is tasty, yes .. enjoyable, yes ...

Why did I tell you this? Well, I just knew a couple of church problems recently which I can't share in this blog .... Problems that are not really something big (at least for me), but made big by circumstances and people .... Problems are always everywhere, how we handle problems are what matters I guess ... I realized now that Om Joe and Om joni are facing so many problems and dillemas in serving as pastors at our church ... I should be regularly praying for them, I guess, and thank God of what they've done for God's church and for God .. Been guilty of not doing that ... :( .. It's soooooo not easy being church pastors ...

Back to school

I am going back to school next year. Planning to do MCOM at UNSW. Currently filled out an application, waiting to be sent electronically to the uni. If God willing, I should know whether I will be accepted or not before the end of January.

coz I am not ......... perfect

What do you think is the best way to learn to be more patient? Is there any exercises that teach you how to become more patient in life?

Just to share a bit, one of my weaknesses is I am not a patient person. I like to do things fast and efficient ... I usually takes initiative (not all the time), don't mind in helping out and may expect certain things from people ... If you are a close friend of mine, you will know.

That's me and my character ... I am usually become impatient when I expect something to be done by a person (his/her responsibility) but he/she has not done it or he/she has done something far from my expectation. For example, in a group meeting, if I have asked my friend to do a particular thing, but he/she neglected it. I could have high expectations which might be a problem for some people .. :) ... but I have expectations (as most people are) .... from parents, brothers, friends, lecturers, preachers, leaders, flatmates, and so on. When everything is smooth, I can look good and smily, otherwise I become this impatient monster WHICH I REALLY HATE. I want to be more patient .. I wish I can pretend to be a patient person, but I am not ... I am who I am ... learning to be more patient, struggle with it ...

Funny enough, the bible talks about a patient God ... If you read the old testament, you will know how patient God is to His people Israel ... So many times the israelites dissapointed God, but God's mercy saved them again and again from their enemy. God was really hurt you know, no kidding ... He was hurt a lotttt ... Even Jesus cried during His walk to Jerusalem

"O Jerusalem, Jerusalem, you who kill the prophets and stone those sent to you, how often I have longed to gather your children together, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings, but you were not willing!" (Luke 13:34)

Well, that's not really the end of the story ... Even though God is patient, yet He is just. That's why He punished Jesus on the cross. That really shows how great are the consequences of my sins and your sins .. Even so, that verse really describes how God feels about Jerusalem/God's people disobeying God .. As for me, sadly that happens too .. So many times in my life that I've dissapointed God and yet He forgave all my sins ... that's why the bible says "Forgive as the Lord has forgiven you" ... not with our own strength, our own good ...

That is good news for me ... Happy news ... Why? Because everytime I get impatient with someone, I don't have to pretend that I am patient .... coz I am not .... But I can pray to God asking for His patience in me .. trying to remember His patience and try to forgive as the Lord forgave me. After all, I do make my parents, friends, brother, flatmates angry too ... It's not like I am perfect or somethin, coz I am not .... I am who I am by His grace ...

what a year this has been

Year 2004 - hmm ... so many things happen in my life .. It will end soon though .. Come to think of it, I am thankful that I can live this year as it is. There were many struggles, many temptations, many experiences, many victories, many failures, many sins that I've done/experienced during the year. As a matter of fact, this year I lost two of my jempol kuku di kaki ... hahaha .. something to remember ... definitely don't want to repeat it again .. :) ... Really need to start doing some reflection though ....

Btw, found triana's blog ..welcome tri to blog community .. hehehe ... sering2 diupdate ya ..

Psalm 90:12: Teach us to number our days aright, that we may gain a heart of wisdom.
*dah 25 nih taun depan* .. diitung diitung diitungg .. hahahahhahahah .... I'll share some of my thoughts later on .. maybe when I am in indo, enjoying and struggling with my holiday ...

at lidia's place .. all happy faces .. :] 

Me ronny and Budi 

Triana's blog

I heard that Triana has made a blog too .. Does anyone know what the URL address is? :] .. Tri, if you are reading, tell me ok .. forgot to ask u last saturday ..

Itu

Suddenly want to make poem ... don't even know what it means :]

"Itu" datang itu pergi
Seperti angin sepoi sepoi,
Sebentar kerasa lalu habis entah kemana pergi

Darahku bergelora panik
Ku mulai mencari dan mencari
Dengan berpeluh dibawah matahari
Keringat salju menetes di dahi
Takut gemetar melanda hati

Akankah selamanya hilang, tanya hati
Akankah kutemukan lagi
Akankah kuterus mencari
Akankah datang dan pergi lagi

Today!

Nothing much happened today. It is just another day. Another day of work and rest. Another day of my life. Came to the office at around 9.30, did some work straight away. I have a website project for one of our client due this Friday. I was trying to fix some bugs in the web application today, and was caught up in my work until lunch time. Managed to solve some difficult problems during that time ... I was singing "We are the champion" spontatenously because of that and kept singing the song for quite some time with a pretty loud voice .. *not that loud rite hans?* .. :) .. Everyone near me was sort of looking/listening at me, maybe thinking what is this guy so happy about? :) ... well, .... :) ...

Did not have rice for lunch today, just the cooked dishes from catering. That is because I could not find rice in my rice cooker this morning, so I ended up just bringing the dishes without the rice :( .. I thought it should be enough since I had coffee with lots of sugar just half-hour before lunch.

After lunch, me and hans went to bible means business (BMB) in the greenwood bar. The topic today was about the Stepford wifes. Learnt a lot today from what the speakers said, what God really design a marriage for. Still trying to digest his points as there were quite a number of them. Last week's topic was specifically directed towards the husband and this week the wife. Next week will be about parenting, how to become parents that God wants you to be. I can sense today that the speaker was a bit cautious about the whole issue since the idea of a wife submitting to husband in the context of marriage is highly unpopular these days ...

Quoting one thing that the speaker say: "a woman is to submit to a man in the context of marriage. Notice that it does not mean that women should submit to all men in other circumstances, not in workplace, not in the office, not in general sense." This brings back memory of my last bible study preparation with IPCYF bible study leaders about this topic. It is still not resolved yet though ...

After BMS, went back straight to the office .. still singing the song we are the champion .. It stucked on my head for some reason ... It stopped though, not long after that ... I continued the work until one of my work mate told me there is a problem with ACS system. One of our colleague changed something in the source code. It was a couple of line changes only, but the effect was huge. The letters generated by the system since 1/11/2004 are all corrupted .. woww!!!! My friend and I had to spend time to fix it ... It was around 4.30PM when he told me about the problem. We tried all we can to restore the corrupted documents. After long and hard hours (of debugging, coding, updating the exes, repositories, databases extraction), I thought we managed to fix the problem .. but after doing a couple of testing, it was obvious that the problem was only half-fixed ... It was 8PM already.. I was so hungry .. I didn't have rice for lunch .. I wanted to leave the office to get some snack, but the closest shop is not that close at all, and I was so eager to fix the problem ASAP. Everytime we thought we fixed it, there was still something left un-fixed ...

Fiuhh ... I tried to be patient ... and thank God I did ... Tried to calm my friend as he was pretty tired and nervous at that time .. I thought it's good that we are doing this together .. I wouldn't have stayed alone until 10PM with my stomach craving for food ... This friend of mine is a very persistent, hard-working guy ... I almost gave up when the clock reached 9.30PM ... But he just wanted to finish it tonight ... Well, I did not feeling good of leaving him with the problem alone .. So I stayed .. It was a good thing that I stayed ... In the end, we managed to fix the problem ... we tried all possible test cases to break it, but it seemed to work alright ... fiuuhhh .. at last ...

It was 10.05PM when I left the office, my stomach was really hurt ... I decided to stop at town hall and bought a KFC ... enjoyed it (as usual :)).. had 3 piece feed meal today .. I thought I deserved a good meal after all that .. hahahahahahha ....

Well that was pretty much my day in detail, how's yours?

**Every day is a good day because God is present no matter how bad your situation is, G'DAY**

Lays, Kettle, Smiths, Doritos

Feel dizzy after eating one pack of Doritos today ... Aussie chips/snakcs are very tasty ... My favorite is definitely Kettle but I rarely eats it since it's quite expensive ... Do u think chips are good for ur body?

New bloggers!!

Welcome to Kenny and Vic Lay to the blogger community!!! hehe .. sering update2 yo .. maybe triana will also make one soon! heheh ...

As for my day today, ............. zzz ... zzz... zzzz... zzzz ... I slept and had a rest almost whole day .. hahahha .. sleep sleep sleep to make up for my lost sleep during the week and on the weekend ... Just got up now and couldn't sleep anymore .. had too much sleep hahahah a..

Oh ... Muri and Kevin from my bible study just had birthday .. congrats to them!! Their bday is so close together .. hehe .. makes it easier to celebrate .. Kevin (and Muri I suppose) treated us to an italian rest in bondi last week ... The food that I had was spagheti somethin .. (prawny/seafood spaghetti maybe) it was really really really good and tasty ... italiano .. no surprise .. hahahahhaha .. thanks kev ... One not-so-good thing that happened on the day was the cake that I brought .. it was a munge cake ... I don't know whether all munge cakes melt easily or is it just michelle's munge cake .. hahah .. so disappointed ... The look of the cake was excellent .. well, look can be deceiving rite .. hauhauhauhauha .... I don't think I'll be buying munge cake for a while now ... As for Muri, she "ran" away on Saturday so we couldn't celebrate it together at church ... haha .. I'll meet up with kev and mur this coming Friday in BS anyway ...

Naruto .. Doriaaaa!!

This blog entry is dedicated to naruto. :) ...

Naruto is a manga that I like very much. It has an interesting story line about a ninja boy who has a monster sealed in his body since he was a baby. The monster was sealed in order to save konoha (the hidden village where naruto and the other ninja live) from the destruction. Naruto grew up not knowingly why everyone in the village hated him. Almost everyone hates naruto, since many of their relatives are killed by the monster/kyuubi inside him.

His bitterness in his heart keeps growing until the day when his sensei (ninja teacher) Iruka touches his heart. Iruka acknowledged Naruto as one of his excellent student despite what everybody thinks of him. He does not hate naruto even though his parents were killed by Kyuubi inside Naruto. When Naruto was at the lowest point of his bitterness/anger, Iruka protected him from Mizuki, the ninja who tried to make Naruto betray konoha .... to the point where Iruka almost die. Naruto cried .. He did not think that someone would actually do that to him ... From then on is the starting of Naruto's incredible journey as ninja. His life changes, his bitterness is slowly removed from his heart and he grow and grow and grow stronger everyday as ninja, thanks to Iruka's love ..

Naruto's one and only dream is to become a Hokage one day whereby everyone will acknowledge his existence. Hokage is the most skillful ninja in the village and is the appointed leader whose task is to protect the village. This dream is related to the fact that in his early life, nobody really thinks that He exists. he lived alone and it's very rare that people will talk or have a conversation with him. He is so focused to this dream in whatever he does as a ninja.

Naruto also has some principles which he tries to abide all the time, such as "Never run away from problem", "Never betray your comrades", and "Never give up until the end of end", which are pretty good principles in the ninja world. ^^ .. Because of many difficulties in his early life, Naruto developed a habit of not giving up easily. He is an interesting ninja because he uses his pain in his early life and touch others with the things that he does and say. He changes people's heart, from coward to hero, from betrayer to someone who trusts others, and so on. He is also a quite spirited ninja, always full of energy and very innocent ninja boy indeed.

Well, that was more or less the story line of the manga itself. One thing that I like about this manga is definitely naruto's character. Even though the story has some things in it which are not realistic/true or biblical and sometimes it is too ideallistic, but it is still a good story, very touching and I can really relate to it. Naruto's attitude of doing the best until the very last, not giving up until your last spurt is one of the thing that I most like. If I am to relate the story to my Christian life, I believe there will be many difficult things which I will face during my Christian life. I realize that a christian life is a journey and not a one stop terminal. It is a journey where I must STAY with no BUT. There is NO SUCH THING as conditional commitment in Christian life. I must never give up this faith of mine until the very end, not with my own strength but only by His grace, not because I deserve it but because of His mercy, not because of my own cleverness/riches/ability/look but because God chose to love me. God has loved me first even though I am a sinner more than the love that Iruka sensei gave to Naruto by dying on the cross so that I can start this incredible journey as a Christian, to grow stronger day-by-day in His love. I really want to have a life with no regrets and I believe that is to live a Christian life wholeheartedly. I will fall, stumble along the way but God has promised to be with me and I believe He does.

**Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up**

** Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another–and all the more as you see the Day approaching.**

Yosshhh, Doriaaaaa!! ^^

The past week

There were many things happen to me in the past week..To start with, last Friday we went to Karaoke wif my bible study members and david liu's bible study. That was a very enjoyable night for me and I hope the others too.Hahaha.I always like to sing. I think I became a sanguin in that karaoke room. Emm .. the only thing that I was worried about is hanna since she didn't sing much .. hanna "can and will" only sing english songs and only selected songs that are elegant .. haha .. our song selection ranged from rap (where is the love) to mandarin and indo songs :) .. we ended up spending $11 pp for 2 hours of karaoke .. In the end there were about 18 songs left in the queue .. Next time we'll do it at yap2 place since its free .. haha ...

Jun just got a job last week ... he is working in KFC town hall now .. brought home some KFC chicken .. yummy .. He also got a second job at oxford st bar .. the former employer at australian hotel called him up and asked him if he is available to work ... well it's a bit worrying .. he told me that some of his workmates are gay and he was scared .. I was a bit comforted knowing that it is his former boss at australian hotel who offered him the job .. Praying that he'll be ok despite his busy work and study

Master class was also pretty good last Thursday .. not too long .. :) .. anyway, I've got questions which om joe did not know/want to answer at that time .. He promised me yesterday that he'll think about it though .. The question is "how do you disprove reincarnation?" Given that people who believe in the reincarnation gives prove such as there is this person who can tell exactly where he lived in the past life, who his/her wife/husband was, when did he die, his sickness and so on. This person has never visited the country where he/she claimed to live his/her past life .. I think I heard there are many proofs of it, my parents know some of them and they always bring this as proof that there is such thing called reincarnation .. Does anyone want to comment or have any opinion?

On Friday, I watched Cirque De Soleile with some Damon, ken, rose, leo, alastair, rav, stef, hans. Wow .. it was fantastic .. recommended to watch .. it's been a long time since i watch any circus .. very enjoyable .. I was hoping it would run for more than 2 hours, kurang banget rasanya ..

Pemuda was good yesterday .. Jimmy brought a very clear message I think about mentoring topic, easy to understand and very applicable .. I approached/will approach Kev and Muri (not yet) and ask them to help out in taking care of some of the members in our bible study ... Kevin will mentor edward, muri -> hanna and inggrid and I -> kevin ... Maybe we'll try doing one on one meeting once we are used to it .. but the first step is maybe to pay attention more to the person him/herself. I am so not used to the concept though ...

At pemuda I had a conversation with a guy who come regularly to IPCYF about catholicism .. He is a catholic, but it is a bit weird for me that he come to our church youth fellowship but on Sunday he still goes to catholic church and he considers himself a catholic ... I really don't feel right about it though .. feel awkward ... I had a chance to talk a little bit about the difference between catholicism and christianity .. I think I have to say this to him, since if I keep quiet it will not be right .. I tried not to offend him as best as I could .. just try to be open wif him and at the same time try to understand him .. I think it is time that we need to be a bit ruthless about the truth but at the same time also melayani mrk ...

Yesterday after pemuda, I went straight to Lidia's place .. I had so much fun and laughter you won't believe it .. sampe hampir cram perut .. hahahah .. Lidia is a PHD student who usually come to Sunday morning service. She kindly invited me and some people (Ronny, Triana, Franky, Yosi, Mbak Maria, Windy, Nelvi, ahon dan istri (sapa nama istri ahon?) and some of lidia's friends to go to her place celebrating her birthday. Haha .. she can cook really well .. nasi kuning nya was very good ... es buah and cake nya juga very nice .. she also made tahu brontak sama lumpia vietnam .. how does that sound? hahah .. we brought her a kitchen utensil and cookbook as her bday present *hope she like it* .. so that she can cook for us more in the future .. HAHAHA .. oh well, this group of people is so much fun .. we laughed a lot like crazy yesterday .. I've never had that kind of laugh for a long time now .. it was unbelievable .. hahaha ... our converstion was always full of joke .. feel like we were part of srimulat team or somethin .. Yosi, Franky, Mbak Maria (she is the best), and Lidia are the funniest of them all .. really enjoy it everytime I mix around with them ... very happy bunch of people, well at least from the outside appearance .. I know that some of us banyak masalah juga ... but it was a good laugh yesterday ... very happy very happy .. ureshiiii ..

Well, today there is no bible study prep meeting .. haha .. I kinda miss it .. what am I gonna do today ya? I am sure there are many things that I can do .. haha .. clean my room and wash my clothes are definitely on the agenda :)

talking about getting organized, well, i am learning to do that

Hmm .. I am not a very organized person ... Unsurprisingly, when I tried to put on stuffs on my diary, I am actually quite packed with many things ... fiuhhh ... so many things to do in such a short time .. wow ... need to really manage my time better ...

Raker result so far ......

Had a full day today ... in the morning I went to our church's general meeting .. It is held every two years. The main purpose of having that is actually to see the general picture of what each department and commision doing as part of IPC church as a whole. I also had to give a presentation today of our youth program in the year 2005-2006 ...

During the meeting i realize it is not about which commission/department is doing better than the other .. Every dept has their own successes and failures .. We must support one another as partner in the gospel, if you know what i mean ... sometimes instead of supporting one another, we don't care about what the other dept is doing, let alone other churches .. It can be pictured like one church envy another church because they have more members or their members are more lively ... that really happens, I think ... Well, Ideally we should give thanks anyway since if Christ is really preached in that other churches, we should thank God for that .. The end goal is the same ...

To share a bit, here is our plan for next year (pls comment my blog readers .. ). But plan is just a plan, without prayer and full surrender, it's a bit meaningless .. Ok .. here we go .....

IPC Youth fellowship:

Who we are:

• We are mostly indo students who study here. Some of us are still in high school, pre-uni, uni students and workers.

Aim of the fellowship:

• To build a strong fellowship, solid bible teaching and reaching out to wider community esp youth ... (become a blessing to them by sharing the gospel and Christ's love) at school, workplace and uni

Program Routine:

• Weekly fellowship

1. Bible talk: The plan is to have more short letters, more bible series and topics in the year 2005. So we will do New testament letters (short ones) and followed by a series of topical sermon (e.g. relationship series, music workshop, money, wanting to be rich, ecclesiastes 1,3,12, Psalms - how we relate to God in real life situations, happy situation, sad, angry, lonely, down, and so on)
2. panel discussion (more of this in the year 2005)
3. fellowship and dinner
   

• Weekly bible study (most probably we'll learn romans in the first semester)
  

Non-routine

1. Special events: Valentine, Bday, Xmas and Easter
2. Outings: 3x a year
3. Evangelical nights (app 3 times this year) ... some of the ideas are (any more good ideas?):
   

• coffee table: have coffee and short bible talks ... (Mrs Mavis idea)

• Invite gospel singers to evangelize

• Invite good speakers for evangelism .. (combine with pemuda bday/MPKD maybe for this one)

1. Training: Evangelism training, 2 ways to live workshop
2. Outreach to uni (open a stand 1x a year) plus Free Maths/English/Science/Physics tutorial for HSC students .. reaching out to young people (maybe can liase with remaja if they are from aussie background) ...
3. Conventions: KYLC (Katoomba Youth Leader Convention), KYC (Katoomba Youth Convention), MKC (Men's Katoomba Convention), WKC (Women's Katoomba Convention)
4. Mini retreat in the summer .. gather and study the bible together, plus recreational activities in the blue mountains ...
   

Yeah .. that;s all folks .. I am a bit scare that we are doing too many things this year .. hopefully not .. well, what do you think?

tired

been feeling so tired this week .. I don't know why .. seems like getting stressed out of having so many things in my mind ... hmmh .. tired physically and emotionally ... don't feel so good at all .. a nice bath, quiet time with my guitar and my Father would be good actually ... =(

*Rejoice always, I tell you again rejoice* .. because you've been saved from death to life and you are a son of God now ...

updates updates

Went to latino festival last week .. that was the first time I've been to america latin festival. I found many traditional goods, cds, statues, jewellery, food, dances, music in that festival. Overall it was quite interesting. The thing that interest me the most is the music style that they have. They have their own unique music style like dangdut for indonesia. I separate the modern latin and traditional latin, since even though they are both latin music, they are quite different loh ... I like the modern one .. more colourful and not boring .. got the chance to see the drummer up close and personal in there .. hehe .. got a few things in my mind now which I want to try to improve my drum skill ...

Last monday Erico and Dency had a wedding ... congrats to both of them .. akhirnyaaaaaaaa!! hehe .. hans's speech was quite funny .. it ended with "akhirnyaaaaaaaaaaa" while we toss the drink for their happiness ... The thing that got my attention is when Erico's parents sing one song at church .. I really like the lyrics of the song that they sang at church .. It is called "Ku tau siapa yg pimpin" (I know who lead me) .. it's an old song but the way they sing it is really really different .. I guess it summarizes their prayer for both of them in going through this life as husband and wife to put God as the center of their lives .. hmm .. hmmm .. parents' blessing very important in the marriage eh .. ^^

As for yesterday, went with SDG group to centennial park .. BBQ BBQ BBQ .. oi oi oi ... ^^" .. played soccer with oscar, vic lay and ken .. that was a nice game .. hehe .. we won by 1-0 .. anyway ... after that played around with some kids, took some pictures and headed straight to church for pemuda. Challenging sermon yesterday .. It was about "How far will we go for being faithful to God?" The story was taken from Daniel 3 when sadrakh, messakh and abednego was challenged by Nebucadnezzar king to worship the gold statue and not GOD. If they refuse, they will be thrown to the fire. Om joe than gave some real life examples which was really helpful, like what to do in chinese funeral and so on. He gave a good practical advice which says that we should differentiate between religion and culture. If it is a religion which causes us to worship something other than Jesus then we must not do it. If it is a culture and does not involve worship of any kind of form and it is just a means to show respect to older generation, then it's ok .. but sometimes it is hard to distinguish between the two .. that's why we are in fellowship, can remind and discuss about such thing among one another .. Daniel, sadrakh, messakh and abednego learnt Babilon language, changed their names (to the name of babel gods basically) and were committed to Babilonian country (part of God's command to pray for the country where they are an exile) .. but if it has crossed the line, they refuse to do it ... really an encouragement sermon for me ..

Oh well .. today got a bs prep ... christmas practice, sunday night practice, sunday night service .. what a long day .. tomorrow get back to work again ..

Business (and/vs) Christianity

God gave me a chance to share the gospel with my workmate yesterday. I was nervous inside, you had no idea. But talking to this person, I can be open without being afraid since we worked together for quite sometimes now.

The story began with him reading my BMS postcard. BMS (Bible Means Business) is a group of working people gather together every Wednesday to listen to God's word. and then he asked me questions. He asked me, that how is it being in the business world can be in sinc with what is required from God in the bible? They are both in conflict all the time, he said. I also have that question in mind for a while now. I answered him with everything that I know, went straight to the gospel. Really glad that we had some practice at my bible study on the evangelism. He also asked me how do you explain all the tragedy that happen in this world, especially if that happens to your own family, he said. Sadly, when I asked him if he wants to join BMS next wednesday, he refused. I closed that chapter in my life long time ago, he said. Oh well, I should not be sad about it and trust God to work since you never know where the Spirit blows ... (never know when a person is the elect one - the Holy spirit works in Him to make him re-born)

Well, I am not writing this to boast about me being able to share the gospel, since it was God given chance. Just wanna share my personal struggle .. In terms of working, eventually I want to have my own business in the future .. That's my plan for the moment, work and save up a bit, then later open up something if God allows (my plan is not His plan I guess). I always believe and say to my friend that you have to be different as a Christian. You have to show God in all the things that you do .. Dare to say no to the world and yes to God. Hmm, I wonder how can I do that, since business world is so dirty, especially in indo. You know how it is, corruption, unclear taxation system, wild donation, and many many more. So I wonder if it is possible to be a christian and a businessman at the same time? I wonder what is my brother and sister in CHrist do in indo .. Are they being faithful to God or they do the same thing as the world does? It will be really sad if that is really the case ..

Any comment?

Farewell

I had a farewell party last night. Jimmy, one of my friend at IPC is going back to indo forgood today. It must be a hard thing for him and Jule (his girlfriend) to have a long distant relationship. They looked alright last night, laughing and being happy and all that, but you never know what is going on inside.

We were suppose to have BBQ yesterday at the Peak apartment, but it was cancelled. Instead, we gathered at Jule's place in Maroubra. That was actually the first time I went to her place. It was very nice, big and cozy, but it was a bit cold .. Maybe because it was raining last night and the weather was not nice at all, even now as I write this blog.

Jimmy picked me up along with all his brothers from Kingsford. We did not talk much last night since there were so many people came. The house was packed, people come and go, met some old friends from uni, a couple of new friends, IPC friends. At Jule's place we did not do anything beside eat and chat. I drank a glass of red wine and white wine each .. suprise2 I don't get the alergic reaction this morning. I guess if i don't drink that much it's ok, since I wasn't feeling dizzy/drunk at all last night.

Managed to have a meaningful conversation with some IPC friends. Asked them how they are going and talk about stuff, like the situation in indo right now, IPCYAF, future plans, christianity, work, the stuff that we hate, stuffs that we like .. I mentioned to my friends that I realized that I have a passion to be in a music team, since we were watching MTV awards last night from outside the TV room .. :) ... I always get excited everytime I see a good musicians playing their instrument .. It's just one of my passion I guess, even though I don't show it sometimes ...

One of the sad thing last night was one of IPC-ers broke Jimmy's camera .. That person had to replace that and I knew he was distressed about it .. In the end, IPC-ers gathered at Jule's room (there were many groups last night) with jule and jimmy (jimmy nyusul) .. wow .. her room is so clean man .. very Jule kali .. hehe .. and we chatted a bit and then go home. Jimmy is going to the airport today at 9AM. Really Wish him all the best in indo. Pray that he will also be zealous for God in indo despite all his busyness in helping his father doing his family business. Adios, we'll meet again Jim.

Laksa Day

It's laksa day again today at the company .. hmm .. I wonder whether I should order beef laksa or chiken hainam ... chicken hainam is definitely healthier and less fat .. but beef laksa with chilli is just too good .. oh well, both are nice ... hmm .. hahaha .. :)

busy-ness in life

Been tired at work these few days .. been coming early to work, and going home relatively late as well .. a bit bored with what I am doing at work .. I guess that's the way people huh ... If you are given work with deadlines, you complain.. if the work that you do is not too demanding, then you get bored easily ... ^^

Been given a new task in the coming weeks .. must create ACS Website through Coldfusion and web components (JScript) .. I don't really know how to program web apps using Coldfusion, only learnt a little bit before .. but I can learn and hopefully it will be ok in a couple of weeks ...

Finished reading up to chapter 5 of ASP.NET book now ... been reading at home, on the weekend, on the bus, on the train whenever I feel like it ... It's been interesting, new concept .. very impressed with the way they design the .NET Framework .. hehe .. I realize learning these things is meaningless, .. and yet I just want to keep myself busy these days ...

Had a good outing last weekend ... not many people came though .. it was a good walk .. managed to share and talk with yap2 and some other friends ... after walking from coogee to bondi, we had mirasa fried rice *yummm* and we played some childhood game at bondi beach .. the game is called "engklek" in javanese .. Does anyone know this game? It is like you make boxes on the floor (arranged like a cross shape) and people are suppose to jump on it in following some rules .. anyways ... The gals is suppose to be better at playing it since it is a gal's game .. But last saturday the guy beat the gal pretty badly .. heheh .. gals, you need to do sport more u know ... ^^ .. need to increase ur level of fitness .. after that I went pemuda .. oh well .. again not many people came :( .. felt a bit discouraged, maybe not a bit, but a lot ... I always feel like that even though trying so hard not to feel that way .. tried to remind myself whoever come, let's build one another up .. but still u know ...

On sunday, felt a bit guilty to Jun .. he said to me that why I always go out to church .. he said that because on Sunday after I went back from sunday morning church, I had a bible study meeting and after that christmas practice until 3 PM ... hmm ... not a good sign ...

Oh well, overall, my life's busy these days .. is it a good thing or a bad thing I don't know .. hehe .. I guess need to balance my life more, not to overdo stuffs ...

Hanvy (bday gal) and lyds in relaxing mode 

Yap2 playing ... hmm . God knows 

from the side .. everyone except me 

the gals 

near the cliff .. yap yap is standing far away :) 

in the hand of an angry God

A little sharing after attending MASTER program today. MASTER is a bible training ran at our church IPC Randwick ..

Have you ever imagined about a God that is angry .. If an all powerful God is angry and especially angry at you, oh well it will be pretty scary is not it? Earth quake, flood, hurricane, mass murder, september 11, Bali blast, mob, penjarahan, kerusuhan, being killed brutally is nothing compared to an angry GOd ... He is GOD ... and He is angry, angry to sins, and sinners ... You and me, your relatives, your parents, your brother, your sister, your niece, your cousins, your uncle, your friends ..

Ever imagine yourself in this hands of an angry God? or you don't care ?
Ever imagine your parents going to hell? Do you care or you care but you are afraid?
Ever imagine your brother going to be judged guilty?
Ever imagine your closest friend going to be punished eternally?

It is only through Jesus Christ, the perfect sacrifice for our sins in which God's wrath is satisfied. All our iniquities are put upon Him on the cross, and He raised again from the dead to prove that he wins against the sin and death. And the message is this

"Believe that (Jesus) is the son of God and LORD of your life, then you'll be saved", not by work, not by your own good ...

and guess what, GOD is not angry anymore to sinners who believe in HIM since His anger was directed towards Jesus ....

Now, there is ONLY two ways to live, live under Jesus as LORD or live under judgement. Judgement because we do not believe in the God's one and only SON. Why don't you read the bible and judge for yourself who Jesus is ..

Locked out of the house

Hahaha .. forgot to bring the house key today .. had to wander around for a while (1 hour) -> go to randwick, eating KFC, go home until Jun opened the door ... ^^"

Happy bday Jeff

Had bbq today at his place ... Jeff is a close friend of mine from High school here .. makan sampe kenyaaaaanggggg bangettt .. gileeeeee .. ... Happy bday Jeff ... thanks for the bbq .. ^^"

where will you be?

Today heard a sermon at church .. part of it was saying who is our Father? God or the devil ... We might think that we belong to God like the pharisees did, but we actually belong to the other father, the devil himself ... and the preacher, om joe also mentioned that there was a time when Billy graham did a KKR in australia, the church where he grew up with was so full .. so many people were enthusiastic praying, follow sunday service, praising God etc etc ... But now .. 40/30 years after that he can see that they've changed so much .. not following the true God anymore .. He said it was sort of like a phase in their life where going to church seems to click .. but they never know the true God, never been born again .. even though 30/40 years ago they prayed a fantastic prayer, praise God and all that, but nowadays, in their lives with family, business and all that, they forget Christ .. I can see this pattern in some of my buddies now ...

The question now is that where will you be in 30 years time?
where will you be in 40 years time?
Will you persevere in the true faith?
Will you still believe and regards God as your master?
WIll you have the passion still to share the gospel?

Where will I be?

Hiks mama hiks

Hmm .. feel so sad today after I called my mum ... sad because she does not know Christ ... Not just that, the way of thinking is so different to mine ... she is a kind mother .. don't get me wrong .. she is the type of mother who would sacrifice everything for me and my brother jun ... very grateful for that .. It is just that, she works so hard, getting stress out and all that because she just wants to give the best for me? ... :(

Everytime i call her, she always talk about our shop, how hard life is, ask about my work, my salary, talk about how I can get more money faster, any chances, opportunities .. I feel sadddddddddddd .. so saddddddddd ... really sad ... :( .. I want to scream kali kalo bisa ... just to let it out ... Hmm .. writing a blog maybe is a good way for me to express my feeling now ... hehe .. I feel a little bit at ease now ..

I have always reminded her not to get too stress out, since it is not good for her health juga kan ya .. I told her that I can take care of myself now and there is no need to worry about my salary and all that since life is more than just getting money ... Surely there must be more than that in this life ... I am worried about her sometimes ... Today, I told her on the phone that I was bored talking about those stuffs, in a nice way of course sambil bergurau2 gitu .. :) .. I prefer that we talk about something lighter lah ya ... like: what I did today, the girl that I like, the kind of sport that I do, and anything new in my life, about God maybe, sharing lah basically ... haha .. I don't mind talking about the heavy stuffs but not all the time .. kayak udah di consumed banget, it seems unhealthy to me ... She paused for a while when I said that ... I think she kind of understand .. but being as she is, I know it is a bit hard to change ... hehe .. That I can understand ... she is my mum after all ... slowly kali ya ..

Well, talking about my mum, She is a very kind person, always try to do good to other people .. very ulett *salut salut* .. always work hard .. and her phylosophy is very child-centered ... She loves us unconditionally I think .. I still remember many things that she did for us .. When me or my brother was sick when I was in Malang/Surabaya, even if it is late at night, or in the morning she will come straight away to take care of me and Jun ... she always put us first above herself ... always want me to have the best even though we are not that rich ...

The last thing that I want on earth is actually to make her sad or unhappy, I am dead serious .... BUT SADLY, I might have to do it ... Why? coz the bible says: put God first above her ... and if what she wants me to do does not please God, I have to say a definite "no" ... That is really really hardd for me to do, knowing what she has done for me and all that and my personality juga kali ya ... hiks

About my mum, she actually shared quite a lot of stories with me ... I always enjoy her story about me and jun when we were still small .. She told the story on how I was born, my childhood story lah .. I think it was more happier times those days ... she also told me how naughty she was when she was a kid, how she got to know papa, her boyfriends ... hahaha .. so funny ...

Decided today to ring her and papa more often .. at least once a week ... hmm ... at least I want to keep more communication lah .. and also I really hope that i can have the opportunity to share gospel with her and papa this coming december ... pls pray for me and my family ya so that we can know how much God loves us .... ^^

Luke 12
⁴"I tell you, my friends, do not be afraid of those who kill the body and after that can do no more. ⁵But I will show you whom you should fear: Fear him who, after the killing of the body, has power to throw you into hell. Yes, I tell you, fear him

Luke 12
⁵²From now on there will be five in one family divided against each other, three against two and two against three. ⁵³They will be divided, father against son and son against father, mother against daughter and daughter against mother, mother-in-law against daughter-in-law and daughter-in-law against mother-in-law."

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD , "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

God God, please turn my mourning into dancing ... please turn my sorrow into joy.

intense meeting

Yesterday Inti had a meeting again .. It's budget meeting for next year which involves new-inti-to-be also ... It was a pretty intense meeting .. it started from 8PM until about 10.30PM ... Thank God that almost everything was settled at that time ..

Fiuhh .. I feel like my energy was drained out yesterday .. both emotionally and physically ... Funny though, although you are in the same boat, the people in it might want to go different ways and do different things ... The thinking could also be different .. That's when prayer comes to play an important part .. submitting ourselves under the one authority of God ..

As a team we should learn to listen before we want to be heard ... Sometimes that we sooooo want our opinion to be heard and do not listen to others ... that's maybe me (and others too, I don't know?) .. and you could also feel offended when someone give comments or not thinking the same way as you do, especially if you think that your ideas are good and will bring growth to youth .. I kept reminding myself yesterday: respect others and let your voice be heard for His glory ... This is all for Him not me ... There should be no ME in it ... Kept reminding myself again and again yesterday .. tried to be calm, prayed in my heart ... and even now ... I am having difficulty in balancing between authority (as youth leader) and humility .. heheheh if you want to put it that way ... I could be bossy sometimes .. I like my voice to be heard and obeyed ... hahahhaha ... scary rite .. ? Yup that's sinful me .. *ayo berubah*

I should follow Jesus' example of humility .. It is actually in my yesterday's morning devotion hehehe .. (*God is good* ^^') .. Even though He is in very nature of God, He humbled Himself, until death in the Cross ... So down to earth that guy, YET full of authority ... I want myself to be like that ... But it is hard (at least for me) because of my selfishness and my sinful nature ... Sometimes we want to show that how godly we are and how great are our ideas, yet we loose the focus which is Christ and we turn into something like hypocrites ... Humility is a hard thing to do when you are in a high position rite? It makes sense ... But look at Christ .. so true to Himself (being God with authority), and yet so humble ... wowwww ...

Lessons to be learnt: be humble like Christ, don't be afraid throwing out ideas, respect your bro and sis in Christ and other people and I should strive to be an example and be serious in my speech and action ...

Has anyone had a similar situation before?

Tax return

Hmm .. need to do tax return .. does anyone knows any good and qualified accountant (CPA preferably) near kingsford or north syd?

I found a couple ..
1. H&R (Near GPK Kingsford)
2. Tax accountant near DK Kingsford
3. Jessica (Indo) in Randwick

Friends, do you know any other which you think better or smarter? My one is a bit complicated because for my casual job, I acted as an individual contractor (with ABN and all that) ..
Huhhh .. Australian taxation system is so complicated ... Don't like it at all

Inti meeting day

Had a meeting with Inti and new-Inti-to-be .. Inti is the indo name for our youth leaders which literally means the "core" in Indo ..

Pretty intense discussion today since we had to come up with the budget proposal for next year since our church general meeting is pretty close .. The new intis contributed a lot in the discussion today and they had some good ideas as well .. In the meeting, we looked at some of our strenghts and weaknesses today in the meeting .. It was constructive, thank God, and it was a fun meeting i guess ... hehehe .. at least for me ..

Hmm .. got homework to do now, which is to print out the budget template to be filled in this Thursday in our last meeting before the raker ...

About Youth topic for next year, we'll still be focusing on biblical theology .. like learning books from the bible .. but we'll be doing short ones maybe and more topical as well, e.g. Boy Girl Relationship, Money, etc etc ...

Guys (and gals of course), ada ide ga for the topic part? Ayo contribute pls! :D

Hmmm ... Outing is in 2 weeks time ... next week, the young ladies will be going up to Women's Katoomba Convention ... Have fun learning and absorbing gals, so that you can start to practice it when you go down from Katoomba later on .. ^^"

It's the time of the year where we usually have outing at pemuda .... Next 2 weeks is gonna be outing .. yayyyyy ... hope to loose some weight from walking .. I've been stagnan for the past month or so, not doing any sports except walking from Wynyard station to the bus stop at martin place from monday to friday .. hehe .. that keeps me from gaining weight I think .. Never quite make it to basketball session every saturday morning .. ga bisa bangun .. parah parah .. hehehe ..

Circque De Sole

Wah .. at last I decided to join the show .. I was a bit reluctant the first time, because It costs a lot of money .. oh well, i always like to save up and last month I spent quite some money already on things ..

But decided on the last minute that I am not gonna miss watching it .. It might be my only chance of watching the show who knows .. hehehe .. it's gonna be on 22nd of Oct .. I asked my work mates, and friends, they all said it's excellent .. so I think it will be worthwhile...

Quidam quidammmmmm ... anyone want to come?

Women in ministry

Found an article in www.bible.com regarding women in ministry. It's a long reading, but it basically argues that women can and encouraged to preach in church if it's their calling ...

The article also argues that when Paul mentioned in his letter that women should not teach, he was referring to either church that was out of order (Corinth) or has problem in it and "women" in the letter is not addressed to all women .. It also argues that throughout history, God has used godly women to teach men and women about the bible .. (the example is in the article) ...

any thoughts? :) ...

what's gregetan in english?

A question

In Titus 1:1-4, it is said that "faith" and "knowledge of the truth" will lead to eternal life. This is based on the promises of God revealed through His Word in the bible. That is why Paul is so much against false teacher, since false teachers teach something that is not the truth or slightly different to the truth ..

Nah .. the question is, how can we be sure that our current knowledge of the bible is true? Since if it is not, we are in a danger of
1. Be the false teacher
2. Not gaining the eternal life ..

Any thoughts? any comments are welcomed ..

One of adi's top-10 hitz of all of time + some updates

A few days ago, suddenly remembered my old favorite song .. I think this song is ranked on the top-10 list of adi's hitz of all time ... hehe .. Here's the song in indo

Ada waktunya bekerja
Ada waktunya berencana
Ada waktu bersenang
Ada waktu bersedih

Tapi waktu itu singkat
dan keabadian itu panjang
waktu sekarang takkan terulang

Ada waktu untuk hidup
Ada waktunya untuk mati
Kehidupan sekarang
Akan lalu dan pergi

Tapi hidup melayani Yesus
itu berarti
Membuahkan harta abadi

Dimana saja dan kapan saja
Layanilah Yesus
Dia rela mati bagi umat manusia
Dimana dan kapan saja
ohhh layanilah Dia
Yang memberi hidup baka
Dimana dan kapan saja
ohhh layanilah Dia
Yang memberi hidup baka

This song is taken from the book of ecclesiastes .. It summarizes the meaning of the very existence of us, human ... I remembered this song while having a chit chat with "J" about the meaning of life .. hehe ..

Booked the ticket to go back home today .. I'll go back on the 5th of Dec by Garuda .. wow .. haven't touched the mother land for 3 years now .. really excited to go back .. there are many things that I want to do in indo ... like, visiting old friends in jakarta, visiting my cousins, attending ari's wedding, shopping with mum and dad, hehehe .. buying clothes, and pants (really need it), PS2 maybe? .. hehehe.. Oh well, it should be fun, but on top of that, I want to go home and become a blessing to my family .. It's been hard .. very hard .. Need ur prayer and support friends .. I'll be back on the 7th of January ... Anybody going back to indo on the same date??? I'll be transiting at denpasar though ..

Today, I will join the MASTER training program conducted by my own church .. It aims at training leaders, equip them more with the Word of God ... oh well, the curriculum looks intersting ... will surely update you on what happen today ..

Watched Bourne supremacy yesterday with David, Alastair, Sebastian, Min2, Jessica dkk ... really cool movie, recommended to watch .. :) ...

been sick

been sick this past couple of days .. hmm. maybe too tired .. getting better though, still recovering ..

Bim bim bab

Highlight of the day: dinner wif BS group .. ^^" ... had dinner at korean restaurant, seoul ria ... just finished our last book on acts ... next week is starting with new topic about "guidance" before we start the new book "The path to godliness" ...

Our main conversation at the dining table was around personality .. One person in the bs group is a psychologist, and she knows a lot about this kind of stuff ... In the end everyone sort of know each other's personality gitu !...

We are quite different sih, there is a Melancholy/Choleric, Sanguin/Melancholy, Melancholy,Melancholy/Sanguin, Strong phlegmatic/Choleric .. wah macem2 deh ... Different but hopefully bisa kompak .. hehehehhe .. ^^"

Shopping night

Did a little shopping today ... can't really remember when was the last time I do that ... hehe .. it's been a while .. I don't really like to go shopping unless it's necessary or it's grocery kind of shopping ... ^^"

Bought a TV antenna at dick smith, wanna try the antenna tonight after dinner ... I have not been able to watch tv for almost 3 months now ... *pretty bad huh* .. I also bought hardware stuffs like cloth hangers, etc ... Went also to dymocks bookstore today to look for certification books .. I think I found one .. yup .. I want to do computing certification (MCSD), but through manual learning (books) .. I want to ask the company to buy one for me if possible, we'll see ... ^^"

On my way home, I met an friend of mine "D" on the bus .. I haven't seen her since her graduation on april this year .. hehe ... asked her how she's goin and all that ... It's good news that "D" has already got a job now ... thank God .. and she's enjoying it ... hehe ... Oh well, we talked about general stuffs la .. like where she lives, about her apartment, hahah a.. she said the facility is really bad .. the swimming pool in her apartment will make your skin itchy if you swim on it .. heheh ... so funny ...

Met Cathlyn Jessica Wong and "C"

Cathlyn Jessica Wong has been born! Yippieee .. Congrats to Ruby and Anne .. Dah jadi mum and dad ... and also to Oscar Wong who is also very very proud to be an uncle .. hehehe ..

On my way home from the hospital after visiting Ruby and Anne, I went to Coles to do a little shopping ... wih ... I met "C" an old IH friend there .. I was surprised to have met her there since I knew that she went back to singapore already .. Had a little chat and ask how she's going .. she is married already, she even showed me her wedding photos at Coles .. heheh ... she is very talkative just like how she normally is, and a very easy person to talk to.. Her husband was with her at Coles and he did not barely say a word ... hahahah ...

She was talking and talking, and me.... just laughing and laughing .... I used to call her "sista" .. I wanted to call her untie since she is much older than me, just like when you usually call singaporean woman, but she wouldn't let me .. heheh .. so I just called her sista looo ... Oh well, great to hear that she's doing well .. she is currently on holiday after coming back from china .. It's also great to hear that she still goes to church in singapore .. After some catching up then we say goodbye .. will send her email later on ..

1 Cor 16:13-14

This morning I flipped through Men's Katoomba Convention book that I attended this year ... Found a beautiful verse which I want to share:

¹³Be on your guard; stand firm in the faith; be men of courage; be strong. ¹⁴Do everything in love.

Funny that writing a sermon is good since it can remind you of important points that were brought up to you, but I am so lazy at doing it ... ^^ ...

House of game

Well .. just realize that my place is becoming a game and anime center now ... 2 of Jun's (my brother) friends are coming in as new flatmates and they play games a lot ... wih .. the house now seems to be more livelier than before ... lots of activities ... lots of games, animes, movies ...

It's good but it can be bad as well .. heheeh ... depending on how you manage your time really .. Just got a bit worried that jun won't be able to study even though he said he could .. heheh .. anyway .. he's an adult already ... he should know what to do :)

Well, my new flatmates .. they are all quite young ... hehehe .. unlike me old ... Oh well .. later on when Arie (the oldest flatmate) move out of the place, I'll be the oldest then .. hiks hiks .. hehe .. I guess it's alright .. don't mind being old at all .. Hmmmm ... They are all quite nice (as far as I know now anyway) heheheh ... One goes to church and the other one doesn't ... Anyway .. just glad to have them as new flatmates ....

Oh btw, I might need a new flatmate at the end of the year since Arie is moving out ... so whoever is interested, contact me ok? :) .. You must be a guy, and love to play game also .. hehehe .. no no .. the last part was a joke btw ...

My room is cleannnnn

Just cleaned my room this week ... bring a new table for my bro to study into the room ... remove a couple of unwanted stuff .. it's so clean mann .. heheh .. me happy ... the room is much nicer and cleaner now .. hope it stays that way ... absolutely love it !!!!

Worship

Oh well ... been thinking about it lately in relation to my church buddies, especially in youth fellowship, about the songs that we use in the service in relation to the meaning of worship itself ..

Oh well ... Worship, some people say (which I am totally agree) is not just singing praise and worship .. It's how you live your life for God .. your total offering, your life as a living sacrifice .. It's no use if you sing so passionately at church and yet your life doesn't really reflect what you sing ... no use mann ...

Having that in mind, what is singing then? Can praise and worship be considered a worship? How do you explain what God is doing through praise and worship .. I know that some people cry during worship and God changed lives through it as well .. Should we sing at all at church? Why can't we go straight to the Word of God? What kind of songs that we should sing? rock, contemporary, rap, hymn, gospel, not so gospel song ... Just wanna get people's opinion on this ... Is singing at church important? Some people say also that worship leader's task is equal to the preacher, that is to bring people to God's presence .. But isn't God already present in our lives ? What does it mean to bring people to God's presence? Is God present in our lives and collectively when we gather together? Remember when two or three gather in Jesus name, He is there .??

Hehe .. got many questions in my mind ... I should've attended Mid Year Conference held at Katoomba recently since they learnt a lot about what worship is ...

Got a couple of quotes recently which I like to share to you,
*More knowledge could make you proud, but love is always humble*
*Don't whinge, Don't shine, Don't recline*