Wednesday, September 29, 2004

busy-ness in life

Been tired at work these few days .. been coming early to work, and going home relatively late as well .. a bit bored with what I am doing at work .. I guess that's the way people huh ... If you are given work with deadlines, you complain.. if the work that you do is not too demanding, then you get bored easily ... ^^

Been given a new task in the coming weeks .. must create ACS Website through Coldfusion and web components (JScript) .. I don't really know how to program web apps using Coldfusion, only learnt a little bit before .. but I can learn and hopefully it will be ok in a couple of weeks ...

Finished reading up to chapter 5 of ASP.NET book now ... been reading at home, on the weekend, on the bus, on the train whenever I feel like it ... It's been interesting, new concept .. very impressed with the way they design the .NET Framework .. hehe .. I realize learning these things is meaningless, .. and yet I just want to keep myself busy these days ...

Had a good outing last weekend ... not many people came though .. it was a good walk .. managed to share and talk with yap2 and some other friends ... after walking from coogee to bondi, we had mirasa fried rice *yummm* and we played some childhood game at bondi beach .. the game is called "engklek" in javanese .. Does anyone know this game? It is like you make boxes on the floor (arranged like a cross shape) and people are suppose to jump on it in following some rules .. anyways ... The gals is suppose to be better at playing it since it is a gal's game .. But last saturday the guy beat the gal pretty badly .. heheh .. gals, you need to do sport more u know ... ^^ .. need to increase ur level of fitness .. after that I went pemuda .. oh well .. again not many people came :( .. felt a bit discouraged, maybe not a bit, but a lot ... I always feel like that even though trying so hard not to feel that way .. tried to remind myself whoever come, let's build one another up .. but still u know ...

On sunday, felt a bit guilty to Jun .. he said to me that why I always go out to church .. he said that because on Sunday after I went back from sunday morning church, I had a bible study meeting and after that christmas practice until 3 PM ... hmm ... not a good sign ...

Oh well, overall, my life's busy these days .. is it a good thing or a bad thing I don't know .. hehe .. I guess need to balance my life more, not to overdo stuffs ...

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

Hanvy (bday gal) and lyds in relaxing mode Posted by Hello
Yap2 playing ... hmm . God knows Posted by Hello
from the side .. everyone except me Posted by Hello
the gals Posted by Hello
near the cliff .. yap yap is standing far away :) Posted by Hello

Thursday, September 23, 2004

in the hand of an angry God

A little sharing after attending MASTER program today. MASTER is a bible training ran at our church IPC Randwick ..

Have you ever imagined about a God that is angry .. If an all powerful God is angry and especially angry at you, oh well it will be pretty scary is not it? Earth quake, flood, hurricane, mass murder, september 11, Bali blast, mob, penjarahan, kerusuhan, being killed brutally is nothing compared to an angry GOd ... He is GOD ... and He is angry, angry to sins, and sinners ... You and me, your relatives, your parents, your brother, your sister, your niece, your cousins, your uncle, your friends ..

Ever imagine yourself in this hands of an angry God? or you don't care ?
Ever imagine your parents going to hell? Do you care or you care but you are afraid?
Ever imagine your brother going to be judged guilty?
Ever imagine your closest friend going to be punished eternally?

It is only through Jesus Christ, the perfect sacrifice for our sins in which God's wrath is satisfied. All our iniquities are put upon Him on the cross, and He raised again from the dead to prove that he wins against the sin and death. And the message is this

"Believe that (Jesus) is the son of God and LORD of your life, then you'll be saved", not by work, not by your own good ...

and guess what, GOD is not angry anymore to sinners who believe in HIM since His anger was directed towards Jesus ....

Now, there is ONLY two ways to live, live under Jesus as LORD or live under judgement. Judgement because we do not believe in the God's one and only SON. Why don't you read the bible and judge for yourself who Jesus is ..


Tuesday, September 21, 2004

Locked out of the house

Hahaha .. forgot to bring the house key today .. had to wander around for a while (1 hour) -> go to randwick, eating KFC, go home until Jun opened the door ... ^^"


Sunday, September 19, 2004

Happy bday Jeff

Had bbq today at his place ... Jeff is a close friend of mine from High school here .. makan sampe kenyaaaaanggggg bangettt .. gileeeeee .. ... Happy bday Jeff ... thanks for the bbq .. ^^"

where will you be?

Today heard a sermon at church .. part of it was saying who is our Father? God or the devil ... We might think that we belong to God like the pharisees did, but we actually belong to the other father, the devil himself ... and the preacher, om joe also mentioned that there was a time when Billy graham did a KKR in australia, the church where he grew up with was so full .. so many people were enthusiastic praying, follow sunday service, praising God etc etc ... But now .. 40/30 years after that he can see that they've changed so much .. not following the true God anymore .. He said it was sort of like a phase in their life where going to church seems to click .. but they never know the true God, never been born again .. even though 30/40 years ago they prayed a fantastic prayer, praise God and all that, but nowadays, in their lives with family, business and all that, they forget Christ .. I can see this pattern in some of my buddies now ...

The question now is that where will you be in 30 years time?
where will you be in 40 years time?
Will you persevere in the true faith?
Will you still believe and regards God as your master?
WIll you have the passion still to share the gospel?

Where will I be?

Saturday, September 18, 2004

Hiks mama hiks

Hmm .. feel so sad today after I called my mum ... sad because she does not know Christ ... Not just that, the way of thinking is so different to mine ... she is a kind mother .. don't get me wrong .. she is the type of mother who would sacrifice everything for me and my brother jun ... very grateful for that .. It is just that, she works so hard, getting stress out and all that because she just wants to give the best for me? ... :(

Everytime i call her, she always talk about our shop, how hard life is, ask about my work, my salary, talk about how I can get more money faster, any chances, opportunities .. I feel sadddddddddddd .. so saddddddddd ... really sad ... :( .. I want to scream kali kalo bisa ... just to let it out ... Hmm .. writing a blog maybe is a good way for me to express my feeling now ... hehe .. I feel a little bit at ease now ..

I have always reminded her not to get too stress out, since it is not good for her health juga kan ya .. I told her that I can take care of myself now and there is no need to worry about my salary and all that since life is more than just getting money ... Surely there must be more than that in this life ... I am worried about her sometimes ... Today, I told her on the phone that I was bored talking about those stuffs, in a nice way of course sambil bergurau2 gitu .. :) .. I prefer that we talk about something lighter lah ya ... like: what I did today, the girl that I like, the kind of sport that I do, and anything new in my life, about God maybe, sharing lah basically ... haha .. I don't mind talking about the heavy stuffs but not all the time .. kayak udah di consumed banget, it seems unhealthy to me ... She paused for a while when I said that ... I think she kind of understand .. but being as she is, I know it is a bit hard to change ... hehe .. That I can understand ... she is my mum after all ... slowly kali ya ..

Well, talking about my mum, She is a very kind person, always try to do good to other people .. very ulett *salut salut* .. always work hard .. and her phylosophy is very child-centered ... She loves us unconditionally I think .. I still remember many things that she did for us .. When me or my brother was sick when I was in Malang/Surabaya, even if it is late at night, or in the morning she will come straight away to take care of me and Jun ... she always put us first above herself ... always want me to have the best even though we are not that rich ...

The last thing that I want on earth is actually to make her sad or unhappy, I am dead serious .... BUT SADLY, I might have to do it ... Why? coz the bible says: put God first above her ... and if what she wants me to do does not please God, I have to say a definite "no" ... That is really really hardd for me to do, knowing what she has done for me and all that and my personality juga kali ya ... hiks

About my mum, she actually shared quite a lot of stories with me ... I always enjoy her story about me and jun when we were still small .. She told the story on how I was born, my childhood story lah .. I think it was more happier times those days ... she also told me how naughty she was when she was a kid, how she got to know papa, her boyfriends ... hahaha .. so funny ...

Decided today to ring her and papa more often .. at least once a week ... hmm ... at least I want to keep more communication lah .. and also I really hope that i can have the opportunity to share gospel with her and papa this coming december ... pls pray for me and my family ya so that we can know how much God loves us .... ^^

Luke 12
4"I tell you, my friends, do not be afraid of those who kill the body and after that can do no more. 5But I will show you whom you should fear: Fear him who, after the killing of the body, has power to throw you into hell. Yes, I tell you, fear him

Luke 12
52From now on there will be five in one family divided against each other, three against two and two against three. 53They will be divided, father against son and son against father, mother against daughter and daughter against mother, mother-in-law against daughter-in-law and daughter-in-law against mother-in-law."

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD , "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

God God, please turn my mourning into dancing ... please turn my sorrow into joy.

Friday, September 17, 2004

intense meeting

Yesterday Inti had a meeting again .. It's budget meeting for next year which involves new-inti-to-be also ... It was a pretty intense meeting .. it started from 8PM until about 10.30PM ... Thank God that almost everything was settled at that time ..

Fiuhh .. I feel like my energy was drained out yesterday .. both emotionally and physically ... Funny though, although you are in the same boat, the people in it might want to go different ways and do different things ... The thinking could also be different .. That's when prayer comes to play an important part .. submitting ourselves under the one authority of God ..

As a team we should learn to listen before we want to be heard ... Sometimes that we sooooo want our opinion to be heard and do not listen to others ... that's maybe me (and others too, I don't know?) .. and you could also feel offended when someone give comments or not thinking the same way as you do, especially if you think that your ideas are good and will bring growth to youth .. I kept reminding myself yesterday: respect others and let your voice be heard for His glory ... This is all for Him not me ... There should be no ME in it ... Kept reminding myself again and again yesterday .. tried to be calm, prayed in my heart ... and even now ... I am having difficulty in balancing between authority (as youth leader) and humility .. heheheh if you want to put it that way ... I could be bossy sometimes .. I like my voice to be heard and obeyed ... hahahhaha ... scary rite .. ? Yup that's sinful me .. *ayo berubah*

I should follow Jesus' example of humility .. It is actually in my yesterday's morning devotion hehehe .. (*God is good* ^^') .. Even though He is in very nature of God, He humbled Himself, until death in the Cross ... So down to earth that guy, YET full of authority ... I want myself to be like that ... But it is hard (at least for me) because of my selfishness and my sinful nature ... Sometimes we want to show that how godly we are and how great are our ideas, yet we loose the focus which is Christ and we turn into something like hypocrites ... Humility is a hard thing to do when you are in a high position rite? It makes sense ... But look at Christ .. so true to Himself (being God with authority), and yet so humble ... wowwww ...

Lessons to be learnt: be humble like Christ, don't be afraid throwing out ideas, respect your bro and sis in Christ and other people and I should strive to be an example and be serious in my speech and action ...

Has anyone had a similar situation before?

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

Tax return

Hmm .. need to do tax return .. does anyone knows any good and qualified accountant (CPA preferably) near kingsford or north syd?

I found a couple ..
1. H&R (Near GPK Kingsford)
2. Tax accountant near DK Kingsford
3. Jessica (Indo) in Randwick

Friends, do you know any other which you think better or smarter? My one is a bit complicated because for my casual job, I acted as an individual contractor (with ABN and all that) ..
Huhhh .. Australian taxation system is so complicated ... Don't like it at all

Sunday, September 12, 2004

Inti meeting day

Had a meeting with Inti and new-Inti-to-be .. Inti is the indo name for our youth leaders which literally means the "core" in Indo ..

Pretty intense discussion today since we had to come up with the budget proposal for next year since our church general meeting is pretty close .. The new intis contributed a lot in the discussion today and they had some good ideas as well .. In the meeting, we looked at some of our strenghts and weaknesses today in the meeting .. It was constructive, thank God, and it was a fun meeting i guess ... hehehe .. at least for me ..

Hmm .. got homework to do now, which is to print out the budget template to be filled in this Thursday in our last meeting before the raker ...

About Youth topic for next year, we'll still be focusing on biblical theology .. like learning books from the bible .. but we'll be doing short ones maybe and more topical as well, e.g. Boy Girl Relationship, Money, etc etc ...

Guys (and gals of course), ada ide ga for the topic part? Ayo contribute pls! :D

Hmmm ... Outing is in 2 weeks time ... next week, the young ladies will be going up to Women's Katoomba Convention ... Have fun learning and absorbing gals, so that you can start to practice it when you go down from Katoomba later on .. ^^"

It's the time of the year where we usually have outing at pemuda .... Next 2 weeks is gonna be outing .. yayyyyy ... hope to loose some weight from walking .. I've been stagnan for the past month or so, not doing any sports except walking from Wynyard station to the bus stop at martin place from monday to friday .. hehe .. that keeps me from gaining weight I think .. Never quite make it to basketball session every saturday morning .. ga bisa bangun .. parah parah .. hehehe ..

Saturday, September 11, 2004

Circque De Sole

Wah .. at last I decided to join the show .. I was a bit reluctant the first time, because It costs a lot of money .. oh well, i always like to save up and last month I spent quite some money already on things ..

But decided on the last minute that I am not gonna miss watching it .. It might be my only chance of watching the show who knows .. hehehe .. it's gonna be on 22nd of Oct .. I asked my work mates, and friends, they all said it's excellent .. so I think it will be worthwhile...

Quidam quidammmmmm ... anyone want to come?

Friday, September 10, 2004

Women in ministry

Found an article in www.bible.com regarding women in ministry. It's a long reading, but it basically argues that women can and encouraged to preach in church if it's their calling ...

The article also argues that when Paul mentioned in his letter that women should not teach, he was referring to either church that was out of order (Corinth) or has problem in it and "women" in the letter is not addressed to all women .. It also argues that throughout history, God has used godly women to teach men and women about the bible .. (the example is in the article) ...

any thoughts? :) ...

Sunday, September 05, 2004

A question

In Titus 1:1-4, it is said that "faith" and "knowledge of the truth" will lead to eternal life. This is based on the promises of God revealed through His Word in the bible. That is why Paul is so much against false teacher, since false teachers teach something that is not the truth or slightly different to the truth ..

Nah .. the question is, how can we be sure that our current knowledge of the bible is true? Since if it is not, we are in a danger of
1. Be the false teacher
2. Not gaining the eternal life ..

Any thoughts? any comments are welcomed ..

Thursday, September 02, 2004

One of adi's top-10 hitz of all of time + some updates

A few days ago, suddenly remembered my old favorite song .. I think this song is ranked on the top-10 list of adi's hitz of all time ... hehe .. Here's the song in indo

Ada waktunya bekerja
Ada waktunya berencana
Ada waktu bersenang
Ada waktu bersedih

Tapi waktu itu singkat
dan keabadian itu panjang
waktu sekarang takkan terulang

Ada waktu untuk hidup
Ada waktunya untuk mati
Kehidupan sekarang
Akan lalu dan pergi

Tapi hidup melayani Yesus
itu berarti
Membuahkan harta abadi

Dimana saja dan kapan saja
Layanilah Yesus
Dia rela mati bagi umat manusia
Dimana dan kapan saja
ohhh layanilah Dia
Yang memberi hidup baka
Dimana dan kapan saja
ohhh layanilah Dia
Yang memberi hidup baka

This song is taken from the book of ecclesiastes .. It summarizes the meaning of the very existence of us, human ... I remembered this song while having a chit chat with "J" about the meaning of life .. hehe ..

Booked the ticket to go back home today .. I'll go back on the 5th of Dec by Garuda .. wow .. haven't touched the mother land for 3 years now .. really excited to go back .. there are many things that I want to do in indo ... like, visiting old friends in jakarta, visiting my cousins, attending ari's wedding, shopping with mum and dad, hehehe .. buying clothes, and pants (really need it), PS2 maybe? .. hehehe.. Oh well, it should be fun, but on top of that, I want to go home and become a blessing to my family .. It's been hard .. very hard .. Need ur prayer and support friends .. I'll be back on the 7th of January ... Anybody going back to indo on the same date??? I'll be transiting at denpasar though ..

Today, I will join the MASTER training program conducted by my own church .. It aims at training leaders, equip them more with the Word of God ... oh well, the curriculum looks intersting ... will surely update you on what happen today ..

Watched Bourne supremacy yesterday with David, Alastair, Sebastian, Min2, Jessica dkk ... really cool movie, recommended to watch .. :) ...