I know

Now I know
the pain of caring for someone but cannot express it in words
Now I know
the pain of wanting to see an important person saved
Now I know
the pain of being patient in the midst of storm
Now I know
the anguish that comes with a heavy heart

But more than that I know
that my God is greater than anything
Oo I know
that in my weakness I am made strong
Yes I know
that I am powerless but God is powerful
Most importantly I know
that He cares

Yes, I know.....

First Experience buying share

I just bought a share and made $560.82 in one day ..... Good first impression of the stock market, but I was ready to loose the money anyway!!! (wait until the market crash di, and u won't be so excited anymore)!!Sold the share already and take the money out! :)

MAS - FSG Conference

Well, maybe you wonder what MAS-FSG really mean? It is basically one division in Macquarie bank where I work for ... emm ...

MAS was held for two days, one night in Novotel Hotel, Wollonggong ... It was the whole MAS (one of Macquarie division) gathered and I met lots of people on that day .... Enjoyed the meal, the friendship and the whole experience ... But I found the talk was a bit dull ... I really like the gathering part and meeting up with new people (and of course my friends) and talking to them ...

The novotel was located near the beach.. I loovvvvee beach ... so I enjoyed it a lot ... Overall a fun experience and if I wished I could stay there a bit longer !!!

Today is saturday!

Horee ... Saturday is here after all hard work in the past week ... Thank God for weekends haha ...

Well well ... I guess I have to start studying now !! Can't be relaxing all day !!

Cayo to myself!!! and all my seperjuangan friends !!! We can do IT! .. emm ... with God and hard works!

Update from my *so called busy* life

1. Hmm ... I just got two results from one assignment and exam and I am quite dissapointed ... I was expecting them to be a higher than that .... But that's not what I want to share here ... On my way home today, I realized that I should give thanks in whatever situation it may occur ... I had gone through worse situations in the past and this is just little things in my way ... Just learnt from Romans, in the end it will work for good to those who love God, making more like Jesus, maybe more patient, generous, joyful and so on ... Now, I just have to pick myself up again and work little by little in this 4 weeks time ...

2. I guess I am a little tired of studying ... I can't really study much at home ... so many distractions ... by the time I got home, I am dead tired ... my body just won't function anymore ... :) ...

3. Just submitted exchange application form today ... next step is interview with the exchange officer ... Maybe I will do it over the phone .. It saves me from going back to uni during lunch time :)

4. Had a discussion about religion with work mates but it was going no where ... It was about why Christian was so strict about going out only with other christian .... Why can't we just respect others without trying to change the other partner to follow the same beliefs?*I don;t think christians forced the other party to become christian, God doesn't force us either* Tried to give an argument but I don't think it worked ... haha ... **I think arguing never works in the first place anyway when the two parties hold to their beliefs firmly**

5. I've Been going to work early these days ... so much work to do in the office ... it seems like I am burning out ... can't wait for the next 4 weeks to pass and I am free from UNI .. yippieeee ...

6. I learnt about company mergers and acquisitions in the lecture today ..... Funny enough, it is currently happening to one my uncle ... Someone is going to take over their shop forcefully ... I learnt some defense mechanism to prevent takeovers, but I don't think it will apply since they don't own the shop on paper ... It seems that they will have to leave the shop and let the other people takeover it ... what a sad story ..

7. I went through reading my blogs ... and yes .. it sounds depressing unlike me in real life :P ... haha ... I don't think I am depressed, but maybe I am a little without realizing it ... I will put some happy story later on ... I guess I should be joyful in whatever situation .. heuheuheuehueh ...

8. Tomorrow I am going for a 2 days company conference .. MAS (Macquarie something something) .. it should be fun .. we've planned so many things to do like playing board game ... I might bring some lecture note to read anyway ... I need to .. It's almost exam time ...

That's it from me ... Ciao!

Anxious about things

I am so anxious these days ... So many deadlines ... argh .. Feel like not in control with my situation ... But when you think about it, we are never in control anyway from the beginning ...

Just have to do it slowly and carefully ... Leave the rest to God ...
1. STUDY - I am a bit behind now .
2. Personal finance assignment
3. Exam on wk 14
4. Exchange application - so hard to arrange when I am working and studying ... not easy to find the lecturers and coordinators

Earn your respect!

I wish I could respect "B" like before, but I just can't .. I used to respect him a lot .. He seems nice, very knowledgable about God, mature and so on ... But after knowing this person I can't help it but dissapointed with the way he live ...

He does not live like other people think ... I guess, respect is earned by living ur life with integrity, keeping what you say and promise ... Earn it or u won't own it!

Share

Share - it is such a simple word ... but I think it has got a deep meaning ... It makes me want to share what I learnt these past months ... hehehhehe ...

These days I feel like people view me as a loner ... I don't talk as much as before, I don't gather with friends as much as before ... not because I can't but because these days I am really really busy ... I can still be someone yang heboh like before, hehe, I can even be more heboh than before .. hahahaha ... tapi sekarang I feel like talking only when it is needed ... Often I restrain myself from talking ... I feel like this is part of the process of growing ^^ ... I guess busyness makes me like this ....

Balancing between work, church, study, brother and friends and other things can be quite challenging ... fiuhh ... I sometimes feel guilty of not giving the best or when I don't divide up my time wisely, for friends, brother, and so on ... But I know God is good and He is always there whenever I call on Him ..

When I am alone or down (like doing assignment in commerce lab, haha), the only thing that keeps me going is the fact that God is good and He has shared his life with me ... I realize that in this life hate, bitterness, anger, joy, love must be shared with other people .... Sharing means active, not waiting /passive ... We might get no response, but keep trying ... All one can do is create his own path through hard work without being a loner and taking the easy route ... I wish that as the day unfold, in all things that I do, I will be able to share more and more ...

What good is it

for a MAN if he gains the whole world and yet ...
1. loses his soul
2. loses his family
3. loses all his friends
4. lives in bitterness and worry everyday
5. loses his God

What can the MAN give in exchange for those things? That would be a really sad story ... :(

First day back to uni - cape

Yesterday was the first time i was back to lecture in a while ... Mann, it was tiring ... I had to put heaps of effort just to stay awake *didn't understand most of what the lecturer said - haha - need to study* ... But it was good ... coz it reminded me to change my mood, after such a nice long break ...

These things awaits me in the next 7 weeks:
1. Personal Finance assignment
2. Capital Budgeting exam
3. Weekly online quizes for Investment Portfolio
4. Case studies for Investment Portfolio and Capital Budgeting
5. Final exams for those three subjects

Non-uni related thingy:
6. Meet Exchange officer and the faculty to submit the application form
7. Pay airfares to go back to indo
8. Bible study related stuffs
9. Buy mincer for mum
10. Apply for credit card
11. Buy ink for my printer
12. Change the electricity provider to AGL
13. etc ...