Playing game, not good if too much

These days, jun play game too much ... I usually tell him directly or indirectly not to do that ...
I really want to spend more time talking to him .... Really really want to ... When I got home he always play game .. I don't have that many chance to actually talk to him .. man to man talk you know .. ^^ .. I opted not to tell him anymore .. I've told him many times already ... time for patience now I guess ...

above $100,000 salary?

I met with my uni friend yesterday. He is indian and apparently working for one of the top bank in Australia. We talked about many things including work and investment. We talked about that since he told me a story that he had lost quite a lot of money in the stock market ($65,000 out of his own pocket money) and I was interested in that since I am going to do finance this year.

Well, I was wondering where he got the money from that he could invest hundreds of thousand of dollar even though he graduated at the same year as I did. I asked him more about his work and all that. Apparently he started working since he was 2nd year at uni. It was quite extraordinary that he managed to work full time and doing computer engineering course full time. In the end he told me that his salary these days is around $105,000. It used to be $150,000 he said. And wow ... I was so ... how to describe it ... shocked ... BIG SHOCK ATTACK! It's not funny ... :)

Suddenly this jealousy entered my heart and mind. How come this guy get that much of a salary even though he graduated on the same year as I did? It's not fair ... I was jealous yesterday, REALLY JEALOUS OF HIM .. Imagine what I could do with $150,000 salary? *I will fall into greed and love of money I think*. I tried not to show that I was shock in hearing his story.

I came home .. I sat on my bed ... thinking about it ... ponder about his situation and my situation. It was not really appropriate for me to be jealous ... Now that I think about it, it was a sin to think that God's blessing in my life now as NOT ENOUGH. It is funny on how you can be thankful to God one day and the next day you just feel as though God has not blessed you with all that you need. Sinful people like me always need reminder that His grace is enough. YES, IT IS ENOUGH. He has given His Son Jesus, what more can you askkkkkk??? It is enough. I am much more luckier than him since I know the true and only God.

But the question remains, I always feel confused about the topic of contentment. I feel that to be content can bring you to a static non-progressing life. Being content may mean (not always) that you are opposed to changes in life, You always feel that you've had enough even though you can do better or should do better at work/school/business/ministry. How do you balance between the two, contentment and achieving? I am confused since I am inclined to think that content person is most likely more lazy than people who actively seeking things.

Paul in one of his letter says to slave, if you have a chance to be freed, take it. The question is should the slave feel content as a slave or should he seek actively for his freedom? If he seeks for it does it mean he is not content with his life? The bible teaches us to seek and be content. How do you balance between the two? My thinking now is that seek in the bible is related to the kingdom of God and all its righteousness. Being content is related to things of this world, the blessings that God has given us. We have to be content with God's blessing since no matter how hard you work it all comes from Him.

Any opinion?

Kenapa ya?

Feeling tired today at work .... well I don't really know why .... maybe last night did not have enough sleep .... and pressure are building up at work !! There are too many things in which I am involved at work, church and uni at the moment ....

Anyway I better manage my time more effectively .. One at a time di!!!!

Gile

I slept so early last night .. 8PM .. kecapean banget .. and now (4AM) can't sleep anymore ... hahahha ... Help!!

Happy Chinese New Year

Gong Xie Fat Chai to all that celebrate! :) .. Around my age I don't get the red envelope (ang pao) and I don't give one since I haven't got married yet .. Boring!! hehehe

Thank u God

Don't feel like posting anything, just want to say thank you to God. Thinking back on how I became a Christians, counting all his blessings, the ups and the not so up times, all the fun moments, struggle moments really overwhelms me. If not because of Jesus, I wouldn't be here and I won't be what I am now.

I want to do some fun exercise. Want to count God's blessings in my life since I am a baby. Hehehehe ... Well, of course there are too many to count, but I will try my best anyway ...
Blessings:

1. Thank God that I was born .. yuhuu .. Hello world!!
2. Thank God for mum and dad who raised me with all love and care. They are not perfect parents, but I know that they love me soooo much.
3. Thank God that I was not so healthy when I was a kid. That way my parents had a chance to show their love for me and I can get really close to them too.
4. Thank God for all the fun holidays that we had together as a family
5. Thank God that I have a lovely brother, Jun. He has always been the one that understand me better than my parents or friends.
6. Thank God for my mum who is always there when I needed help in anything.
7. Thank God for papa yg sabarrrr dan teliti bangettt ... a calm factor in my life.
8. Thank God for mama and papa yg always work so hard just to provide me with the necessities in life. All the tears that they shed, all the sweats and hard work, really appreciate it. They are very brave parents and ulettt banget .. Kagum kagum ..
9. Thank God that I had lots of fun when I was a kid. Watched cartoon, played video games, played with friends and many things ... wow .. PUASSS BANGET POKOKNYA !!! hehehe ...
10. Thank God for my sunday school teacher .. what a great work that you did for God!
11. Thank God that I had a chance to get "0 DUCK" in one of my test during primary school. Once in a lifetime experience .. hehehe ... I cried a lot at that time since I am not used to that. Masih inget booo sampe sekarang!
12. Thank God for all my friends in Bondowoso!! Made some really2 close friends whom I still keep in contact until now.
13. Thank God that I had a chance to go to malang for junior high.
14. Thank God that I was becoming somewhat naughty on my first year of junior high, so that God's grace were shown more abundantly when I got to know Him the following year.
15. Thank God that I move place the following year and met my friends who introduced me to Christianity.
16. Thank God that I believed in Jesus on my second year of Junior High .. YUHUUU!!
17. Thank God that I experienced a lot of opposition from my family after that. It made me stronger and long for Jesus' return even more.
18. Thank God for all the struggles that I had to bear on that year and the following year. Fights with parents, all the tensions, and tears .. It was so hardddd!!!!! still is !
19. Thank God for all my friends in Malang ... I really enjoyed being with them and cherished the fun moments that we had together ...
20. Thank God for all the fun times at school in malang .. Hahahha .. so many memories ... From studying, makan rame2, makan bakso, nasi duk2, all the restaurants, pinjem2 buku kalo lagi mau ujian, visiting kost cewe rame2, jalan2 sore naik sepeda/sepeda motor, ngejahilin guru, funny friends/teachers, belajar bersama, POR (Pekan Olah Raga)-> juara tarik tambang, and so on !! Seru deh !!
21. Thank God for my church in Malang (GPdI Hebron) .. It started with a small church but it has people with a full dedication to God. The people really loved God with all their hearts, always friendly and warm. The church now grows and became a big church though.
22. Thank God for giving me talent to play music (guitar). It grows since I played for remaja at Hebron church. Music is the only art that I am good at apparently .. hahahaha ... I am hopeless in doing ketrampilan ama menggambar ..
23. Thank God for giving me a chance to share the gospel with my friends and ended up loosing my face by not being able to answer my friend's questions about christianity. I was really down at first but after a couple of weeks I was even more motivated to learn about the bible more.
24. Thank God for all the care and attentions that my parents gave me even though I did not live at the same city as them. It's unbelievable really!!! I remember one night that I was sick and asked them to come to malang and they did!! I couldn't believe it myself at that time!
25. Thank God for making me decide to go to Australia after finishing first year High school.
26. Thank God for bringing me to IPCYF through one of my language indo friend (Mike boris bro) at Sydney English Language Center.
27. Thank God for giving me a chance to serve Him in music ministry at IPCYF too.
28. Thank God for my uni friends. None of my close friends are christians. Thank God, because of that, I learnt how to live consciously as a christian. Tried to share, but never succeed though ...
29. Thank God for all the fun times that I had at uni, belajar bareng, di lab, played around with computer chips, played games together, renang bareng, masak2, gathering .. hahaha .. gosh it was fun!!
30. Thank God for giving me a chance to live in International house. Met so many people and broaden my point of view.
31. Thank God that Jun came to Australia - for all the sharing time together - this sort of chances don't come twice in my life - I really cherish having an argument, fight, laughs, and some fun moments together with him in Aussie. Thank God because He gave me a chance to witness through words and deeds about Jesus.
32. Thank God for finishing my school and being able to graduate!! It's a proof of God's providence in my life!
33. Thank God for romantic feelings that I had to some people even though it did not work out for now .. hahaha ... Learnt a lot from those experiences, and really opened my eyes to certain things in life.
34. Thank God for IPCers - you guys helped me grow in my understanding of God. I learnt a lot during fellowship with all of you.
35. Thank God for pemuda, whereby I can learn to encourage and serve one another in Christ.
36. Thank God for all of my bible study groups that I had in the past, for all the leaders (awa, Jimmy Liang, Darwin) and the members. Bible study really made me think seriously about who God is and purpose in life.
37. Thank God for my former flatmates (senior), e.g. vic bas, arie, jeffrey, aliong, for all the sharing time that we had together, about life, God, cewe, ... You guys are awesome!
38. Thank God for all the failures that I had in the past. Through those failures I learn more about life and how I should live as christian better.
39. Thank God for all the successes in my life as well. Through those things I learnt that all things come from God and He alone deserved to be praised.
40. Thank God for today! coz He reminded me about all His goodness in my life.
41. Thank God because He made me stronger day by day. I trust that He will finish His good work in me, making me more like Jesus.
42. Thank God ......... -----------------..........

Banyak bener kannnn!! Ga abis abis dehhhh .. Amin! =)

Beautiful psalm

1 O LORD , you have searched me
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD .

5 You hem me in-behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.

7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.

11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.

19 If only you would slay the wicked, O God!
Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!
20 They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.
21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD ,
and abhor those who rise up against you?
22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.

23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.