My mum sms(ed) me yesterday at 1 o'clock in the morning saying one of the bikkhu that she used to ask help from is in sydney now (not sure why he is here) and trying to contact me. She asked me to help him if he needs help. This morning, the bikhu sms(ed) me and ask me to call him on a certain number. I thought, I don't mind helping him as my mum's friend if he really needs help, but I don't think he needs any help at all. I don't have cars and I am working, can't spend too much time with him and I don't want to. He should have some place to sleep I guess, and my place doesn't have enough room in case he wants to spend the night at my place.
I guess he just want to meet me, and talk to me ... Honestly, at first I was worried ... A bikhhu, talking to me? hehe .. sounds a bit weird ... what should I say to him? What will he say to me? Will he stay at my place? Will he give me a jimat? hahahah .. of course bakal ditolak kalo diberi ... Should I talk about religion to him? He will be interested in talking about buddhism to me I guess , I don't really know ...
My current stance is I will regard him as my parents' friends and give him a hand if he needs help. I don't want to spend too much time with him, but I don't want to give the impression that I am impolite to both my parents and the bikhuu as well. It is just that I need the wisdom to do that. This will be interesting actually ... another God-given adventure/experience of my life ..
Well, what would you do if you are in my situation now?
Tuesday, November 30, 2004
Sunday, November 28, 2004
Hayo Jujurr
Too many of my blog entries are about my personal struggles/experiences in life ... kali ini nyantai dikit yah ... hehehehe ... main jujur2 an de .. heheh .. this is taken from friendster's bulletin board .. I thought it is fun .. :)
Jujur2an questions:
1.kamu tuh orangnya gimana?
Jujur2an questions:
1.kamu tuh orangnya gimana?
- Aku orangnya loud (dalam hal suara), n suka yg simple simple. Yg sederhana2 aja lah ... hehehehe ..
- Sering ... namanya juga anak ... masa ga pernah siiii
- Ngga banget .. buat apa bunuh diri ...
- nope .. ....
- Aduhhh .. ya jelas pernah la .. beberapa kali sejak SMP ... hahaha ... my masa puber .. jadi inget waktu2 dulu .. masa2 indah waktu SMP dan SMA .... huaaaaaaa .. I miss those happy times ..
- ga pernah ... doi aja belum pernah punya
- agak mabok sih pernah pusing2 gitu ... tapi ga terlalu gimana gitu ... langsung tidur kok abis itu di college dulu. Besoknya juga oke oke aja ga sampe muntah2 atau gimana .. Dari pengalaman itu I guess kalo gua mabok bisa jadi lebih hyper kali ya ... forget about your problems and all that ... but that's not really a good thing ... nanti kalo udah abis kan masalah ada lagi ... ^^ .. Tapi waktu itu minum alcohol abis acara bush dance di International House ... bukan gara2 ada masalah atau apa ....
- Pernah sekali waktu SMP dulu .. coba2 ama teman satu kamar kost .. langsung batuk2 .. huekkkkkkkk ... ga enak banget .. terus ga pernah lagi
- Ga penah tuh ..
- Yah .. beberapa kali lah ... namanya cowok ... nonjok jun my brother sering juga .. heheh .. di tangan tapi ... kita sering main tonjok2 an waktu kecil ... kalo udah gitu si mama langsung marah2 tangan si adik pada biru2 ... upss .. sorry jun ...
- Pernah ... kecelakaan di luar kota waktu mengunjungi one of my friend .... ga parah2 amat sih .. amit2 ... nabrak angkot ... waktu itu gemeter banget soalnya masih kecil banget umurnya ... sendirian lagi di tengah jalan di luar kota ... ada polisi lewat pula, untung ga berhenti .. hauhauhauhauha ... selamet selamett .. huhhhh
- ga pernah ni ..
- nope, kok pertanyaannya diulang2 ya?? @_@
- emmmmm ... kenapa ya? I guess cewe nya cinta Tuhan, itu yg paling pertama ... kalo dari muka/body ya of course yg gua suka la ... kalo dari sifat maybe I like someone yg simple2 and sederhana, mandiri dan punya prinsip dan pengertian ... terus yg lucu juga kalo bisa .. hahahahha ...
- Pacar ga pernah punya oiii .. apalagi mantan ...
- ga ada kok ..
- Hahahahah ..... ga tau mo jawab apa .. I guess waiting for God's time is the best ..
- Yg cinta Tuhan .. baca amsal pasal terakhir ... kayak gitu de pokoknya ... heheheh ...
- Deket sih banyak ... tapi temen doank ... Kalo for relationship, ga ada at the moment ...
- ngga ....hehehhehehe
- Ingin all my family members to come to know Christ .. :) .. serius amat .. but that's true though .... And I want all my friends, flatmates juga know Jesus ... orang2 di sekitar kali ya ....
- Pingin do master juga taun depan ... *so many things yg I want to do actually in my life* ... so maybe in some other blog entry de .. hehehehe ... terlalu banyak keinginan .. *Aku ingin begini, aku ingin begitu, ingin ini, ingin itu banyak sekaliiiii* (doraemon song) .. hahahah ...
dapur gereja
The title of my entry is in indonesian which means church's kitchen. Well, there is an old saying that says something like "if you go to a restaurant, don't go to its kitchen". Just enjoy the food without knowing the "inside" of how the restaurant made the meal, the meal's ingridients and so on. As long as it tastes good, that's all you care about. :)
It could be like that also with church. Many people only come to church, sit, sing, sermon, say little hi, say good bye (5 S's) .. hehehe ... It is tasty, yes .. enjoyable, yes ...
Why did I tell you this? Well, I just knew a couple of church problems recently which I can't share in this blog .... Problems that are not really something big (at least for me), but made big by circumstances and people .... Problems are always everywhere, how we handle problems are what matters I guess ... I realized now that Om Joe and Om joni are facing so many problems and dillemas in serving as pastors at our church ... I should be regularly praying for them, I guess, and thank God of what they've done for God's church and for God .. Been guilty of not doing that ... :( .. It's soooooo not easy being church pastors ...
It could be like that also with church. Many people only come to church, sit, sing, sermon, say little hi, say good bye (5 S's) .. hehehe ... It is tasty, yes .. enjoyable, yes ...
Why did I tell you this? Well, I just knew a couple of church problems recently which I can't share in this blog .... Problems that are not really something big (at least for me), but made big by circumstances and people .... Problems are always everywhere, how we handle problems are what matters I guess ... I realized now that Om Joe and Om joni are facing so many problems and dillemas in serving as pastors at our church ... I should be regularly praying for them, I guess, and thank God of what they've done for God's church and for God .. Been guilty of not doing that ... :( .. It's soooooo not easy being church pastors ...
Monday, November 22, 2004
Back to school
I am going back to school next year. Planning to do MCOM at UNSW. Currently filled out an application, waiting to be sent electronically to the uni. If God willing, I should know whether I will be accepted or not before the end of January.
Friday, November 19, 2004
coz I am not ......... perfect
What do you think is the best way to learn to be more patient? Is there any exercises that teach you how to become more patient in life?
Just to share a bit, one of my weaknesses is I am not a patient person. I like to do things fast and efficient ... I usually takes initiative (not all the time), don't mind in helping out and may expect certain things from people ... If you are a close friend of mine, you will know.
That's me and my character ... I am usually become impatient when I expect something to be done by a person (his/her responsibility) but he/she has not done it or he/she has done something far from my expectation. For example, in a group meeting, if I have asked my friend to do a particular thing, but he/she neglected it. I could have high expectations which might be a problem for some people .. :) ... but I have expectations (as most people are) .... from parents, brothers, friends, lecturers, preachers, leaders, flatmates, and so on. When everything is smooth, I can look good and smily, otherwise I become this impatient monster WHICH I REALLY HATE. I want to be more patient .. I wish I can pretend to be a patient person, but I am not ... I am who I am ... learning to be more patient, struggle with it ...
Funny enough, the bible talks about a patient God ... If you read the old testament, you will know how patient God is to His people Israel ... So many times the israelites dissapointed God, but God's mercy saved them again and again from their enemy. God was really hurt you know, no kidding ... He was hurt a lotttt ... Even Jesus cried during His walk to Jerusalem
"O Jerusalem, Jerusalem, you who kill the prophets and stone those sent to you, how often I have longed to gather your children together, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings, but you were not willing!" (Luke 13:34)
Well, that's not really the end of the story ... Even though God is patient, yet He is just. That's why He punished Jesus on the cross. That really shows how great are the consequences of my sins and your sins .. Even so, that verse really describes how God feels about Jerusalem/God's people disobeying God .. As for me, sadly that happens too .. So many times in my life that I've dissapointed God and yet He forgave all my sins ... that's why the bible says "Forgive as the Lord has forgiven you" ... not with our own strength, our own good ...
That is good news for me ... Happy news ... Why? Because everytime I get impatient with someone, I don't have to pretend that I am patient .... coz I am not .... But I can pray to God asking for His patience in me .. trying to remember His patience and try to forgive as the Lord forgave me. After all, I do make my parents, friends, brother, flatmates angry too ... It's not like I am perfect or somethin, coz I am not .... I am who I am by His grace ...
Just to share a bit, one of my weaknesses is I am not a patient person. I like to do things fast and efficient ... I usually takes initiative (not all the time), don't mind in helping out and may expect certain things from people ... If you are a close friend of mine, you will know.
That's me and my character ... I am usually become impatient when I expect something to be done by a person (his/her responsibility) but he/she has not done it or he/she has done something far from my expectation. For example, in a group meeting, if I have asked my friend to do a particular thing, but he/she neglected it. I could have high expectations which might be a problem for some people .. :) ... but I have expectations (as most people are) .... from parents, brothers, friends, lecturers, preachers, leaders, flatmates, and so on. When everything is smooth, I can look good and smily, otherwise I become this impatient monster WHICH I REALLY HATE. I want to be more patient .. I wish I can pretend to be a patient person, but I am not ... I am who I am ... learning to be more patient, struggle with it ...
Funny enough, the bible talks about a patient God ... If you read the old testament, you will know how patient God is to His people Israel ... So many times the israelites dissapointed God, but God's mercy saved them again and again from their enemy. God was really hurt you know, no kidding ... He was hurt a lotttt ... Even Jesus cried during His walk to Jerusalem
"O Jerusalem, Jerusalem, you who kill the prophets and stone those sent to you, how often I have longed to gather your children together, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings, but you were not willing!" (Luke 13:34)
Well, that's not really the end of the story ... Even though God is patient, yet He is just. That's why He punished Jesus on the cross. That really shows how great are the consequences of my sins and your sins .. Even so, that verse really describes how God feels about Jerusalem/God's people disobeying God .. As for me, sadly that happens too .. So many times in my life that I've dissapointed God and yet He forgave all my sins ... that's why the bible says "Forgive as the Lord has forgiven you" ... not with our own strength, our own good ...
That is good news for me ... Happy news ... Why? Because everytime I get impatient with someone, I don't have to pretend that I am patient .... coz I am not .... But I can pray to God asking for His patience in me .. trying to remember His patience and try to forgive as the Lord forgave me. After all, I do make my parents, friends, brother, flatmates angry too ... It's not like I am perfect or somethin, coz I am not .... I am who I am by His grace ...
Friday, November 12, 2004
what a year this has been
Year 2004 - hmm ... so many things happen in my life .. It will end soon though .. Come to think of it, I am thankful that I can live this year as it is. There were many struggles, many temptations, many experiences, many victories, many failures, many sins that I've done/experienced during the year. As a matter of fact, this year I lost two of my jempol kuku di kaki ... hahaha .. something to remember ... definitely don't want to repeat it again .. :) ... Really need to start doing some reflection though ....
Btw, found triana's blog ..welcome tri to blog community .. hehehe ... sering2 diupdate ya ..
Psalm 90:12: Teach us to number our days aright, that we may gain a heart of wisdom.
*dah 25 nih taun depan* .. diitung diitung diitungg .. hahahahhahahah .... I'll share some of my thoughts later on .. maybe when I am in indo, enjoying and struggling with my holiday ...
Btw, found triana's blog ..welcome tri to blog community .. hehehe ... sering2 diupdate ya ..
Psalm 90:12: Teach us to number our days aright, that we may gain a heart of wisdom.
*dah 25 nih taun depan* .. diitung diitung diitungg .. hahahahhahahah .... I'll share some of my thoughts later on .. maybe when I am in indo, enjoying and struggling with my holiday ...
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
Triana's blog
I heard that Triana has made a blog too .. Does anyone know what the URL address is? :] .. Tri, if you are reading, tell me ok .. forgot to ask u last saturday ..
Saturday, November 06, 2004
Itu
Suddenly want to make poem ... don't even know what it means :]
"Itu" datang itu pergi
Seperti angin sepoi sepoi,
Sebentar kerasa lalu habis entah kemana pergi
Darahku bergelora panik
Ku mulai mencari dan mencari
Dengan berpeluh dibawah matahari
Keringat salju menetes di dahi
Takut gemetar melanda hati
Akankah selamanya hilang, tanya hati
Akankah kutemukan lagi
Akankah kuterus mencari
Akankah datang dan pergi lagi
"Itu" datang itu pergi
Seperti angin sepoi sepoi,
Sebentar kerasa lalu habis entah kemana pergi
Darahku bergelora panik
Ku mulai mencari dan mencari
Dengan berpeluh dibawah matahari
Keringat salju menetes di dahi
Takut gemetar melanda hati
Akankah selamanya hilang, tanya hati
Akankah kutemukan lagi
Akankah kuterus mencari
Akankah datang dan pergi lagi
Thursday, November 04, 2004
Today!
Nothing much happened today. It is just another day. Another day of work and rest. Another day of my life. Came to the office at around 9.30, did some work straight away. I have a website project for one of our client due this Friday. I was trying to fix some bugs in the web application today, and was caught up in my work until lunch time. Managed to solve some difficult problems during that time ... I was singing "We are the champion" spontatenously because of that and kept singing the song for quite some time with a pretty loud voice .. *not that loud rite hans?* .. :) .. Everyone near me was sort of looking/listening at me, maybe thinking what is this guy so happy about? :) ... well, .... :) ...
Did not have rice for lunch today, just the cooked dishes from catering. That is because I could not find rice in my rice cooker this morning, so I ended up just bringing the dishes without the rice :( .. I thought it should be enough since I had coffee with lots of sugar just half-hour before lunch.
After lunch, me and hans went to bible means business (BMB) in the greenwood bar. The topic today was about the Stepford wifes. Learnt a lot today from what the speakers said, what God really design a marriage for. Still trying to digest his points as there were quite a number of them. Last week's topic was specifically directed towards the husband and this week the wife. Next week will be about parenting, how to become parents that God wants you to be. I can sense today that the speaker was a bit cautious about the whole issue since the idea of a wife submitting to husband in the context of marriage is highly unpopular these days ...
Quoting one thing that the speaker say: "a woman is to submit to a man in the context of marriage. Notice that it does not mean that women should submit to all men in other circumstances, not in workplace, not in the office, not in general sense." This brings back memory of my last bible study preparation with IPCYF bible study leaders about this topic. It is still not resolved yet though ...
After BMS, went back straight to the office .. still singing the song we are the champion .. It stucked on my head for some reason ... It stopped though, not long after that ... I continued the work until one of my work mate told me there is a problem with ACS system. One of our colleague changed something in the source code. It was a couple of line changes only, but the effect was huge. The letters generated by the system since 1/11/2004 are all corrupted .. woww!!!! My friend and I had to spend time to fix it ... It was around 4.30PM when he told me about the problem. We tried all we can to restore the corrupted documents. After long and hard hours (of debugging, coding, updating the exes, repositories, databases extraction), I thought we managed to fix the problem .. but after doing a couple of testing, it was obvious that the problem was only half-fixed ... It was 8PM already.. I was so hungry .. I didn't have rice for lunch .. I wanted to leave the office to get some snack, but the closest shop is not that close at all, and I was so eager to fix the problem ASAP. Everytime we thought we fixed it, there was still something left un-fixed ...
Fiuhh ... I tried to be patient ... and thank God I did ... Tried to calm my friend as he was pretty tired and nervous at that time .. I thought it's good that we are doing this together .. I wouldn't have stayed alone until 10PM with my stomach craving for food ... This friend of mine is a very persistent, hard-working guy ... I almost gave up when the clock reached 9.30PM ... But he just wanted to finish it tonight ... Well, I did not feeling good of leaving him with the problem alone .. So I stayed .. It was a good thing that I stayed ... In the end, we managed to fix the problem ... we tried all possible test cases to break it, but it seemed to work alright ... fiuuhhh .. at last ...
It was 10.05PM when I left the office, my stomach was really hurt ... I decided to stop at town hall and bought a KFC ... enjoyed it (as usual :)).. had 3 piece feed meal today .. I thought I deserved a good meal after all that .. hahahahahahha ....
Well that was pretty much my day in detail, how's yours?
**Every day is a good day because God is present no matter how bad your situation is, G'DAY**
Did not have rice for lunch today, just the cooked dishes from catering. That is because I could not find rice in my rice cooker this morning, so I ended up just bringing the dishes without the rice :( .. I thought it should be enough since I had coffee with lots of sugar just half-hour before lunch.
After lunch, me and hans went to bible means business (BMB) in the greenwood bar. The topic today was about the Stepford wifes. Learnt a lot today from what the speakers said, what God really design a marriage for. Still trying to digest his points as there were quite a number of them. Last week's topic was specifically directed towards the husband and this week the wife. Next week will be about parenting, how to become parents that God wants you to be. I can sense today that the speaker was a bit cautious about the whole issue since the idea of a wife submitting to husband in the context of marriage is highly unpopular these days ...
Quoting one thing that the speaker say: "a woman is to submit to a man in the context of marriage. Notice that it does not mean that women should submit to all men in other circumstances, not in workplace, not in the office, not in general sense." This brings back memory of my last bible study preparation with IPCYF bible study leaders about this topic. It is still not resolved yet though ...
After BMS, went back straight to the office .. still singing the song we are the champion .. It stucked on my head for some reason ... It stopped though, not long after that ... I continued the work until one of my work mate told me there is a problem with ACS system. One of our colleague changed something in the source code. It was a couple of line changes only, but the effect was huge. The letters generated by the system since 1/11/2004 are all corrupted .. woww!!!! My friend and I had to spend time to fix it ... It was around 4.30PM when he told me about the problem. We tried all we can to restore the corrupted documents. After long and hard hours (of debugging, coding, updating the exes, repositories, databases extraction), I thought we managed to fix the problem .. but after doing a couple of testing, it was obvious that the problem was only half-fixed ... It was 8PM already.. I was so hungry .. I didn't have rice for lunch .. I wanted to leave the office to get some snack, but the closest shop is not that close at all, and I was so eager to fix the problem ASAP. Everytime we thought we fixed it, there was still something left un-fixed ...
Fiuhh ... I tried to be patient ... and thank God I did ... Tried to calm my friend as he was pretty tired and nervous at that time .. I thought it's good that we are doing this together .. I wouldn't have stayed alone until 10PM with my stomach craving for food ... This friend of mine is a very persistent, hard-working guy ... I almost gave up when the clock reached 9.30PM ... But he just wanted to finish it tonight ... Well, I did not feeling good of leaving him with the problem alone .. So I stayed .. It was a good thing that I stayed ... In the end, we managed to fix the problem ... we tried all possible test cases to break it, but it seemed to work alright ... fiuuhhh .. at last ...
It was 10.05PM when I left the office, my stomach was really hurt ... I decided to stop at town hall and bought a KFC ... enjoyed it (as usual :)).. had 3 piece feed meal today .. I thought I deserved a good meal after all that .. hahahahahahha ....
Well that was pretty much my day in detail, how's yours?
**Every day is a good day because God is present no matter how bad your situation is, G'DAY**
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
Lays, Kettle, Smiths, Doritos
Feel dizzy after eating one pack of Doritos today ... Aussie chips/snakcs are very tasty ... My favorite is definitely Kettle but I rarely eats it since it's quite expensive ... Do u think chips are good for ur body?
Monday, November 01, 2004
New bloggers!!
Welcome to Kenny and Vic Lay to the blogger community!!! hehe .. sering update2 yo .. maybe triana will also make one soon! heheh ...
As for my day today, ............. zzz ... zzz... zzzz... zzzz ... I slept and had a rest almost whole day .. hahahha .. sleep sleep sleep to make up for my lost sleep during the week and on the weekend ... Just got up now and couldn't sleep anymore .. had too much sleep hahahah a..
Oh ... Muri and Kevin from my bible study just had birthday .. congrats to them!! Their bday is so close together .. hehe .. makes it easier to celebrate .. Kevin (and Muri I suppose) treated us to an italian rest in bondi last week ... The food that I had was spagheti somethin .. (prawny/seafood spaghetti maybe) it was really really really good and tasty ... italiano .. no surprise .. hahahahhaha .. thanks kev ... One not-so-good thing that happened on the day was the cake that I brought .. it was a munge cake ... I don't know whether all munge cakes melt easily or is it just michelle's munge cake .. hahah .. so disappointed ... The look of the cake was excellent .. well, look can be deceiving rite .. hauhauhauhauha .... I don't think I'll be buying munge cake for a while now ... As for Muri, she "ran" away on Saturday so we couldn't celebrate it together at church ... haha .. I'll meet up with kev and mur this coming Friday in BS anyway ...
As for my day today, ............. zzz ... zzz... zzzz... zzzz ... I slept and had a rest almost whole day .. hahahha .. sleep sleep sleep to make up for my lost sleep during the week and on the weekend ... Just got up now and couldn't sleep anymore .. had too much sleep hahahah a..
Oh ... Muri and Kevin from my bible study just had birthday .. congrats to them!! Their bday is so close together .. hehe .. makes it easier to celebrate .. Kevin (and Muri I suppose) treated us to an italian rest in bondi last week ... The food that I had was spagheti somethin .. (prawny/seafood spaghetti maybe) it was really really really good and tasty ... italiano .. no surprise .. hahahahhaha .. thanks kev ... One not-so-good thing that happened on the day was the cake that I brought .. it was a munge cake ... I don't know whether all munge cakes melt easily or is it just michelle's munge cake .. hahah .. so disappointed ... The look of the cake was excellent .. well, look can be deceiving rite .. hauhauhauhauha .... I don't think I'll be buying munge cake for a while now ... As for Muri, she "ran" away on Saturday so we couldn't celebrate it together at church ... haha .. I'll meet up with kev and mur this coming Friday in BS anyway ...
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