kenapa orang dewasa susah banget put down their pride ya?

Gengsi tinggi, ga mau disalahkan, kedudukan dalam masyarakat, nama baik ... Gara-gara itu semua I learnt that masalah kecil bisa jadi gede .... masalah gede jadi tambah gede deh ....

Jun, Viki, Niki sebelum pulang indo di pantai

Cepetan balik donggg !!!!!

Warming up before the match

Yellow - Aussie all star
Red - World all star

Virgin velocity girls?

Cheerleaders

Antreeee autograph and photograph ... 1/2 jam an bo

Me and Anton

On my way to NBL All Star game

me with sunny ... ^^ .. jelek banget ... hahaha

Macquarie VIP Seats .. hehe .. not quite

Me, Fenny and Anthony

NBL Star from China - Liu

I am from China too !! ^^

CJ. Bruton and Who?

NBL All star game

Enjoy the Jervis photos deh ...

Btw, just realized I did not take photos waktu kita di beach .. Jervis bay kok ga ada photo lautnya? hahahha ... I guess most of the time di pantai I already spent it playing volley ball or swimming .. hehehe ... But thanks for the trip again .. Ayo ayo .. share dong photos2 nya .... tengkiu ... ^^

Ada cowo malu2 dibelakang 2 cewe berpose ... ^^

tuh cowo Malu2 atau stalking sih? :) ...

The food ... Itatakimasu!!!

Before lunch ... Hans, ngapain sih lu? haha

Me and Hans in the car ...

Everyone ... @ Jervis Bay - Cheers

Jervis Bay trip .... thanks for the trip everyone ... It was enjoyable bangettt ...

Nasihat2 praktis di akhir taun for myself

Hendaklah kasih itu jangan pura2. Jauhilah yang jahat dan lakukanlah yang baik

Hendaklah kamu saling mengasihi sebagai saudara dan saling mendahului dalam memberi hormat

Janganlah hendaknya kerajinanmu kendor, biarlah rohmu menyala2 dan layanilah Tuhan

Bersukacitalah dalam pengharapan, sabarlah dalam kesesakan, bertekunlah dalam doa

Bantulah dalam kekurangan orang2 kudus dan usahakanlah dirimu untuk selalu memberikan tumpangan

Berkatilah siapa yang menganiaya kamu, berkatilah dan jangan mengutuk

Bersukacitalah dengan orang yang bersukacita, dan menangislah dengan orang yang menangis

Hendaklah kamu sehati sepikir dalam hidupmu bersama; janganlah kamu memikirkan perkara2 yang tinggi, tetapi arahkanlah dirimu kepada perkara2 yang sederhana

Janganlah menganggap dirimu pandai

Janganlah membalas kejahatan dengan kejahatan, lakukanlah apa yang baik bagi semua orang

Sedapat2nya kalau hal itu bergantung padamu, hiduplah dalam perdamaian dengan semua orang

Janganlah kamu sendiri menuntut pembalasan, tetapi berilah tempat kepada murka Allah, sebab ada tertulis: Pembalasan itu adalah hakKu. Akulah yang akan menuntut pembalasan. Tetapi jika seterumu lapar, berilah dia makan; jika ia haus, berilah dia minum. Dengan demikian kamu menumpukkan bara api diatas kepalanya.

Janganlah kamu kalah terhadap kejahatan, tetapi kalahkanlah kejahatan dengan kebaikan!

Relationships! - where to go from here?

I've been enjoying myself for the past 8 months not thinking about relationship and just taking it easy ... I concentrated fully on my study, work and ministry... I had lots of fun, did lots of sports, meeting new people, building friendships, etc ... I approached people with no intention of building a relationships whatsoever ... Basically, I call these days, "Just friends period"!! ^_^

Well, of course there's pressure from all directions ... Friends started to ask me why don't I start looking? ... My pastor also asked the same thing ... He wanted to talk to me about it for so many times, but I meet him very rarely anyway and we ended up not talking about it ... I shared with my flatmate A and he understands and supports me .. My parents pressured me so many times ... But I did not move one inch from what I've already decided ... I will do what I have decided and stay true to myself without disrespecting those people who care about me ... The next time I start looking, I will give all my heart to it .. ^^

At the moment, I want to enjoy my time as single ... that's why I am not looking ... What's the point if I am not serious about it? Just for fun?? I can't do that although there is plenty of opportunities if I want to ...

The second reason is I can't have a relationships now since I am so busy with uni .. How am I suppose to have a relationships if I can't give my time to the girl that I love? Uni, work and ministry have consumed all my time .....

The third reason is I am going to EUROPE next year ... Yes, I have decided to go and will start preparing my departure ...

Last but not least, the reason of why I decided to stay single is because I still like a girl that I used to like ... I've tried so many times to get to know other girls that have the "potential" (have a heart that loves God and pengertian), but I guess love is very strange ... I don't feel the same way as I felt towards her ... I think I'll wait for her a little longer ... If it does not work out by then, it's ok because that does not mean that God hates me ... I believe God has beautiful plan for us ... and I trust that because of what I've been through these past couple of years ... No, not just these past couple of years, but throughout my life ...

I guess, I'll wait kalo Tuhan kehendaki ... Til' then ... Ja ne ..

Bleach theme song <--- sugoi

Sugitekita hibi zenbu de
ima no atashi nan da yo
kantan ni ikanai kara ikiteyukeru

Verse:
Isogiashi de surechigau hitotachi
yume wa kanaimashta ka
atashi mada mogaiteru

kodomo no koro ni modoru yori mo
ima o umaku ikitemitai yo
kowagari wa umaretsuki

Chorus:
hi no ataru basho ni dete
kono te o tsuyoku nigitte mita
ano basho ano toki wo kowashite
I can change my life

demo kokoro no nak subete o
totemo tsutaekirenai
kantan ni ikanai kara ikiteyukeru

Macquarie Xmas Party 2005

Susanto, Anton, Me, Maureen, Yang, Erik, Farris, Edward, Ritta

X'mas party 2005

Edward, me and Anton

Lawenbrau ... Mango Beer + pork knuckles

Peter, Susanto, Hilton, Bryan, Anton, Eric, Piew, Ritta, Anthony, Edward, Irene and me

With work mates at luna park .. Spinning machine ... That was cooll!

Hilton, me, Pene, Ahn, Hua, Yang, Ian, and Ritta

Should I go?

I've just been nominated by UNSW to go to Erasmus university next year ... I am inclined to go, after all it EUROPE man ... I want to see what it's like .. hehe .. but at the same time, it's hard to leave some things in Sydney ... My heart is probably still in Sydney and I don't want to leave it just like that ... There are many unfinished businesses here and It just doesn't feel good leaving it like that ...

2 of my friends have advised me to go ... my mum probably does not want me to go ... "it's a bit too far" she said among other reasons ... Not sure what my brother thinks ... Does he want me to go? What about my church friends? What about my work mates? we are getting closer and closer these days ... do lots of activities and sports together, etc ... More importantly, does God want me to go?

I need to find reasons why I am going ... "fun" is certainly not good enough ... Will I come back to Sydney once I finish? or should I go straight to indo? What will happen to me in Holland? Will I be ok?

Random Update!

Yuhuuu .. Got my uni results yesterday .. It's a lot better than what I expected ... much better than last session and I've got nothing to complain considering all the stresses that I've been through ... Thank God ..

Yesterday I had xmas party with FSG Macquarie .. The food was good, Enjoyed it thoroughly .. Did a bit of dancing on the floor as well, but not too much ... hehehhehe ... The party has got a theme .. JUNGLE theme ... I heard they spent about $100,000+ for about 500 people . Rumour says it could be more .. :) .. It was nice and enjoyable time ... Can't wait for the photos on Monday .... We took hips of photos ... hueheuhue

Amazing race at pemuda is today ... But I don't think I can play the whole game ... Must help sunday school with music ..

I am suppose to go scuba diving today, but the medical came too late ... So I decided not to go ... But I got the medical now, I think I might go whenever I have time ..

Memang enak jadi anak remaja (This song rocksss!!)

memang enak jadi anak remaja
tak ada masalah yang memberat
semuanya utuh penuh dengan tawa
setiap hasrat jiwa menggelora

*
tak akan kulupakan masa-masa ini
kan jadi awal kisah percintaan ini kan kumulai...

reff:
bebaskan aku oh mama
kuingin coba semua
hidupku tak berarti tanpa mencoba semua
benar salah takkan tertukar
kan kubuat dunia bangga
jadikan hidupku senang tanpa kekecewaan

memang aku masih mencari-cari
setiap titik pasti kuteliti

back to: * , reff

Meeting strangers!

I have met strangers who ask for my help during these past few weeks ... One of them was a young person who wanted to use my phone to message his boss to get paid ... He claimed that he did not have any money to recharge ... I was about to help him out, but after thinking more I was suspicious and asked him a couple of questions ... He was quite desparate .. I don't think I was in danger at all, but I just didn't want to get involved ... I thought "what if the boss message me back" ... "what if the boss is someone from mafia?" ... Then I refused to help him out coldly ...

I can be very COLD and CRUEL sometimes if I don't trust a person ... Trust is very expensive for me ... But after that, usually another part of me feel bad about it .. I thought: "What if that person really need the money?" "Has he eaten for the past couple of days" .. haha ... Anyway ...

I am just confused about what should I do when I meet a stranger asking for help ... I am no fool to know that some of them ask not because they are in need .. some of them ask for help to buy cigarette or drugs ... Being raised in country like Indonesia, I am also aware of crime triggerred by these sort of actions .... Sometimes I am just in a hurry and do not have time to help (like going to uni to study for exam).. ... But some of them DO genuinely ask for help

Another experience that I had happened today on my way to a salon ... I met someone who distributed a pamphlet about Jesus ... At first, I refused coldly again ... Meeting stranger sometimes scared me ... But after looking at what he did, I felt that I shouldn't do that .. He was a christian like me .. He sat in disabled chair distributing pamphlet about the gospel in front of so many people ... I felt moved and I spoke to him for a while ... He was a nice guy, maybe a good christian too ...

The point is, I want to be a blessing to strangers as well ... I remember there is a story in my church's bulletin about a program in television testing people's generosity and humanity ... The program tried to test people's humanity by using someone who pretend not to have money to go back home ... That someone then began asking money desparately ... The amount is not big at all, just enough to get back to his town with public transport, but no one was willing to give the money ... In the end, it was a beggar, old lady that gave him the money and she won the prize eventually ... She said something like this: "I am used to live in poverty and to be able to help out another human being who is in need is a priviledge .. " ... Mannn, when I read it I compared her to myself straight away ... Jauh bangett!!

Kepolosan dia dan ketulusan hatinya emang patut diacungi jempol ... I want to be someone yg polos like that .. I like people with a polos heart ... But at the same time I want to be smart as well ... or should I say wise ... Being loving and wise is the goal ... Afterall, I am still learning but I thought i might share my experience here ...