Aku siap, yah semoga saja aku siap
Tuk menatap hari esok
Siapa yang tau apa kan datang
Ku tak tau, ya tak ada yang tau selain Dia
Apa sih nilai hidupku ini
Kukendalikan saja tak mampu
Susah payah aku berusaha mengekangnya
Tapi hasilnya nil dan nihil
Bapa di surga berkata, "Nak aku memegang hidupmu"
"Tapi Tuhan, aku masih ingin ini dan itu", kataku memprotes
"Aku sudah merencanakan ini dan itu", kataku menyela
"Aku ingin pegang hidupku sendiri dong Tuhan", kataku memberontak
"Kenapa Kau tak memberikannya kepadaku?" kataku kesal, marah dan pedih
Aku sedih, marah dan memprotes Bapa
Kembali Bapa memanggil namaku, "Di, aku memegang hidupmu"
"Tanganku kuat mencengkeram engkau"
"Tanganku juga lembut untuk mengobati luka luka mu"
"Aku mengasihi sampai2 rela berikan hadiah terbesar untukmu"
"AnakKu sendiri kuberikan di masa itu, dibantai walau tiada noda tuk jadi pengganti mu"
"Ayo serahkan hidupmu padaku"
"Terus lah dan teruslah serahkan karena AKU adalah AKU"
"Terus lah dan teruslah serahkan karena Aku Allahmu"
"Terus lah serahkan di hari harimu karena Aku Bapamu"
"Terus lah dan teruslah serahkan karena Aku yang memegang hidupmu"
"Ayo serahkan"
Aku menangis .. sadar kalau aku ini cuma debu
"Tuhan, aku mau serahkan", kataku
"Aku mau belajar terus menerus serahkan"
"I know you are a patient God and will complete Your work in me"
Sunday, July 30, 2006
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
Erasmus is a top university? Waaa .. nice nice
According to lecturers that I've talked to regarding my exchange, all of them confirmed/said that Erasmus is a very good choice ... They said it's one of the top university and it will be a very good learning experience for me ... It makes me very proud ... hehehe ... I'll wait and see I guess
Monday, July 24, 2006
1 week to go
Here I am in the brink of leaving Sydney ... Feeling excited sih ... I had decided to go and go with a cheerful heart ... I will put my heart into this opportunity in my life ..
I am praying and hoping that during my time in Holland (and Indo) I can become a blessing and grow more as a person ... I am also praying for all my christian friends in Sydney to stay strong in the faith and keep loving God and one another ....
I feel so loved lately ... I don't know why ... But maybe feel a bit emotional leaving sydney behind ... I felt the love from my work friends - all of them knew I was leaving and it felt strange having spent so many hours together at work and with activities outside work ... They are great!! Honestly, I am so glad I have work friends like them ... Grateful to God ...
Also had farewells with IH friends and uni friends .. My good buddies from computer engineering ... It would be interesting to see where everyone end up in 1/2 year time ... Will definitely send lots of email and photos to them ...
My church friends are the best ... hehe ... I am grateful for such friendships and can't thank God more ... Hoping that we can still encourage one another through prayer and MSN and emails, and blogs and forums, etc ... Will definitely miss them ... Hoping I can find a good friends like that during my time in Holland ... That would be a BIG BIG Bonus ... hehehe ...
Well, 1 week to go and still need to do tax return and subject transfer ... My boss also asked me to work next weekend which I would decline coz I want to spend time more with my bro and friends ... But it's really not long until I go ... Until then....
I am praying and hoping that during my time in Holland (and Indo) I can become a blessing and grow more as a person ... I am also praying for all my christian friends in Sydney to stay strong in the faith and keep loving God and one another ....
I feel so loved lately ... I don't know why ... But maybe feel a bit emotional leaving sydney behind ... I felt the love from my work friends - all of them knew I was leaving and it felt strange having spent so many hours together at work and with activities outside work ... They are great!! Honestly, I am so glad I have work friends like them ... Grateful to God ...
Also had farewells with IH friends and uni friends .. My good buddies from computer engineering ... It would be interesting to see where everyone end up in 1/2 year time ... Will definitely send lots of email and photos to them ...
My church friends are the best ... hehe ... I am grateful for such friendships and can't thank God more ... Hoping that we can still encourage one another through prayer and MSN and emails, and blogs and forums, etc ... Will definitely miss them ... Hoping I can find a good friends like that during my time in Holland ... That would be a BIG BIG Bonus ... hehehe ...
Well, 1 week to go and still need to do tax return and subject transfer ... My boss also asked me to work next weekend which I would decline coz I want to spend time more with my bro and friends ... But it's really not long until I go ... Until then....
Thursday, July 20, 2006
Monday, July 17, 2006
Sunday, July 09, 2006
IPC Winter retreat 2006 ...
I just went to IPC retreat 2006. Will post some pictures later on ...
IPC is my home church and this is maybe my last major gathering that I will do with my church family in 2006, I will soon fly away to Holland for exchange study ... Well, yes I said IPC is my extended family coz deep in my heart I really feel that way ... Even though I don't know everyone in the church and my church is not perfect, but this church has been nurturing me ever since I came to Australia. All my friends are there and we have shared a lot during these past years ... I can feel that I am growing as a christian and I would like to thank God and IPC for that ...
Leaving them for 1/2 year would be a bit hard kali yah ... Yesterday, during worship in one session, I was looking around and saw many people and close friends and thinking "I am soooo blessed with this big family in Australia and how can I thank God more" ... I was feeling anxious leaving IPC ... But after thinking about it more, it's just for 1/2 year ... hehe ... Maybe as time goes by I will be able to manage it ... Om Joni said that pasti ada rencana Tuhan kenapa I can go to holland .... Nanti kalo ngeliat ke belakang maybe I will know what it is ... I am keeping my option open for ministry over there as well ... Who knows what will happen .... So I have decided to go with a cheerful heart ...
I learnt so many things in the retreat ... The preacher is TOP quality .. :) ... Somehow he reminds me of my former flatmate ari, I don't know why ... Putting that aside, one important point that I learnt from retreat is God loves His Church and He is with His church ... If God is among us, first and foremost is we should ALWAYS be conscious of His presence .. It will affect how we worship at church, how we treat one another, how we treat preachings no matter how boring it is, how we should live our life outside weekends (coz we are the invisible church inside the physical church), etc ...
Overall, it was an excellent retreat, lots of fun ... hahahha .. I laughed so hard during games time at retreat ... We played so many games. One of the funniest is a game where people made circle, then taking turn and trying to make each person in the group to laugh while that person tries not to laugh ... hahaha .. It was UNBELIEVABLE ... FUN FUN FUN ... Gaya2nya gile gile ajeeeeeee .... I am definitely getting the video to Holland ... nanti diliat liat lagi kalo kangen .. hehe ...
IPC is my home church and this is maybe my last major gathering that I will do with my church family in 2006, I will soon fly away to Holland for exchange study ... Well, yes I said IPC is my extended family coz deep in my heart I really feel that way ... Even though I don't know everyone in the church and my church is not perfect, but this church has been nurturing me ever since I came to Australia. All my friends are there and we have shared a lot during these past years ... I can feel that I am growing as a christian and I would like to thank God and IPC for that ...
Leaving them for 1/2 year would be a bit hard kali yah ... Yesterday, during worship in one session, I was looking around and saw many people and close friends and thinking "I am soooo blessed with this big family in Australia and how can I thank God more" ... I was feeling anxious leaving IPC ... But after thinking about it more, it's just for 1/2 year ... hehe ... Maybe as time goes by I will be able to manage it ... Om Joni said that pasti ada rencana Tuhan kenapa I can go to holland .... Nanti kalo ngeliat ke belakang maybe I will know what it is ... I am keeping my option open for ministry over there as well ... Who knows what will happen .... So I have decided to go with a cheerful heart ...
I learnt so many things in the retreat ... The preacher is TOP quality .. :) ... Somehow he reminds me of my former flatmate ari, I don't know why ... Putting that aside, one important point that I learnt from retreat is God loves His Church and He is with His church ... If God is among us, first and foremost is we should ALWAYS be conscious of His presence .. It will affect how we worship at church, how we treat one another, how we treat preachings no matter how boring it is, how we should live our life outside weekends (coz we are the invisible church inside the physical church), etc ...
Overall, it was an excellent retreat, lots of fun ... hahahha .. I laughed so hard during games time at retreat ... We played so many games. One of the funniest is a game where people made circle, then taking turn and trying to make each person in the group to laugh while that person tries not to laugh ... hahaha .. It was UNBELIEVABLE ... FUN FUN FUN ... Gaya2nya gile gile ajeeeeeee .... I am definitely getting the video to Holland ... nanti diliat liat lagi kalo kangen .. hehe ...
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