Christianity makes sense!!

Imagine yourself as a loving parent .. You love your children very much ... Everyday, you take care of them, you feed them, give them advice, be there for them, and so on. When they are sick, you do not sleep the whole night, even the following days after that. You love your children so much and you want them to see that you love them.

Time goes by, and your children grew up to become rebel teenagers. Suddenly they never listen to you. They don't feel like spending time with you anymore. Even though you as their parents still feed them everyday, give them the same love that you gave when they were little, but they just ignore you. To them, your advice has now become a burden. "Do not do this", "Do that" - They just won't listen.

You try to be patient, but rage starts to build up within you. You are angry because you love them and do not want them to drift away. Your rage comes from the fact that you love them. The children themselves are doing pretty badly. They never study, they watch porn, using drugs, and even selling them on the street. They become violent beasts, getting into fights on the street. They even despise their parents.

You are angry and you have to do something. What would you do as a parent? Punishment won't work and they have received those many times ... As a parent, you punish them when they are wrong, but deep down you just want them to love you. That's all it is, that's the bottom line. Punishment is just a means to get there. What would you do? You feel powerless as a parent? You are starting feel like "who are you to punish them?" But at the same time you also feel angry and love is the strongest feeling that you have within you.. Again, the bottom line is you love your children and want them to love you back .

I think that's how God feel now. As the parent in the illustration above, He is angry because we HUMAN have turned away against Him. We don't care about God even though He take care of us. As a result, we drift away downwards into our sin and degradation in every area of our lives - work, sex, relationships, money, worshipping other gods, etc. And yes, God is ANGRY, but anger that comes from the fact that He LOVES us. The bottom line is, He just wants us to love Him back. What would God do? God is not powerless like the parent above, and He can choose to wipe us out. Afterall He is GOD.

Funny enough, the bible said that God punish His own Son Jesus who is without sin. Instead of us who have drifted away from Him. WHY? Because through that, everyone who believe in Jesus will be forgiven of their sin. They will be given a new heart, a heart that loves God. Jesus had to be punished on our behalf, because God is just and He has to punish sins. We will never escape God's punishment without Jesus' sacrifice.

Through the story above I urge you to know God through Jesus. As parents you would've understand what I said above. I feel it too sometimes. As non-parents, you will become a parent someday and will understand the pain of a parent who is going through situation like above, maybe not to that extreme. That's why Christianity makes sense!

Lastly, there are other choice which the parent can do. The parent can choose to IGNORE the children and do not care about them anymore. Some parents may be able to do that, but I think that is NOT LOVE. Loving parents would never do something like that. They will never give up until they breathe their last breath. God can not ignore what we have done. He has to do something and He has done something, which is sending His own Son, dying on the cross, representing the greatest love.

"So what?", you may ask. Now, God demands us to love Him by trusting Jesus' work on the cross. Coz, the bottom line is He just wants us to love Him back. Will you do just that? I pray that you will ....

John 3:16: For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

Hidup tuh singkat banget

Things that happen in my life lately tiba2 make me ngerasa hidup tuh singkat banget ... Baru aja lahir, bandel2 nya waktu kecil, jadi remaja ... Belum puas masa2 remaja diisi dengan hal2 yg indah, eh udah pemuda ... Baru jadi pemuda, tiba2 udah married ... Baru married udah ada anak and kewajiban2 yg lain ... In no time bakal jadi kakek2 dan ...... mati balik ke Tuhan lg ...

Apa toh arti hidup? Kadang ada sedih, ada senang ... ada tertawa ada kekecewaan ... semua itu hal biasa dan Tuhan is in control of everything ... Ada sukses, ada juga kegagalan .... Ga ada sesuatu yg bisa dibanggain gitu loo .. Manusia sibuk2 mencari sesuatu yg suatu hari bakal lenyap ... ga bakal dibawa mati ...

Kenapa kita hidup? Bener, kita emang bisa enjoy waktu2 di dunia .. tapi itu pun singkat banget dan seems sia2 ... I am about to travel to europe .. excited sih excited banget, cuman setelah dipikir lagi itu juga adalah sesuatu yg biasa dalam hidup ini ....

Luckily for me, alkitab adalah satu2nya yg menjawab apa arti hidup ini .... Hidup adalah untuk memuliakan Tuhan dan enjoy Him forever ... Sisanya adalah bonus ... whether it's teman2 baik, kekayaan, berkat, keluarga, pacar atau kesedihan, masalah, problems, penyakit, etc ... Kita manusia datang dari Tuhan, hidup harus memuliakan Tuhan dan kembali lagi nanti kepada Dia mempertanggung jawabkan semua perbuatan kita di bumi ....

This perspective does not make us santai2 dalam hidup ... malah sebaliknya, we should do our best untuk memuliakan Tuhan ... dalam kerja, keluarga, relasi ama teman2, penginjilan, etc ... Mumpung masih hidup, enjoy dah semua masalah, problems, berkat Tuhan, pacaran, keluarga, etc ... hehe ... soalnya nanti kalo udah mati ga bisa lagi dah ... :)

My Personality

What is my personality? Some people say it's melancholy-sanguin ... Some say that I am melancholy-choleric ... Is it important to know? Is it just to know yourself better and to suppress the bad side of my personality when they come up? or is it just to understand other people with different types of personality? (for reference see

Well, here is a self assessment of myself .. hehehe .. pls let me know if it is wrong!

I think I learn to understand myself these past couple of years ... Basically, I have a strong emotional side in me even though I do not show them sometimes ... But because of that I learn to appreciate other people and understand them better ... I also have some leadership dominance in me ... It comes up when needed and I can become really efficient in what I do ... I can achieve what I put my mind into and I feel like conquering the world .. hehe .. Don't even try to fight against me when I am in this state (rarely come out though) ... :) ... But usually my melancholy side prevents me of doing bad things to other people .... I am also naturally the center of attention when I am in the crowd unless there is someone who is more sanguin than me and the crowd must be a group that I am comfortable with ... I like to joke around with the people that I trust and people might view me of being not so serious ... That's probably the sanguin part of me .... But some matters I consider as dead serious and I will not be a sanguin when dealing with those matters ...

Overall, maybe I am melancholy-choleric-sanguin type ... Does it matter though? I am glad that God has accepted me as I am and I can feel Him working in me nowadays to make me more like Him ... As I said in prev entry that He is with me and that's the most important thing ... So whatever personality that we have God is changing His child to become perfect like Him and that is the HOPE that we have .... Now, I really long for that day to come, just like when I first became a christian ... hehehe ..

First scholarship + bonuses

Yippie, thank God I got the first scholarship to go to Holland ... Walaupun ga banyak, but ok la buat tiket pesawat and travelling ... Ngerasa thankful banget nget nget, soalnya I did not expect this. They said earlier that the scholarship was not even opened for postgrad ...

Got some bonuses as well from work which is more more more than enough to support me while I am away ... Waktu itu sempat kuatir about biaya and all that, but God provides somehow ... With God, sometimes he gives, sometimes he does not ... Even when he does not, I want to learn to trust Him ...

I guess this is a little nice surprise in my life!