Still Alive!

My blog is still alive until now. I thought they have removed it because it hasn't been active for a while. I am just glad I can still read my own thoughts in the early 2000s ...

As for me, I am still alive. Since then, God has blessed me with 3 children and they add colours to my life every day. Maybe more posts to come soon!

Help me O Lord

O Lord my God
Help me in my distress.
I call to you my Father
You who has done great things in the past

How long O Lord will you forget
How long O Lord will you look and not do anything
How long do I have to wait
Until You come and do your wondrous saving work

I am weak and anxious
My bone shrinks and my eyes are closed all day long
Nothing has changed, I said
My tears flow in vain

Yet, I will decide to remember
Remember You and all Your ways in the past
Remember Jesus who died and rose again
Remember Your saving work in my life

I remember Jesus on the cross
Jesus who has endured so much
At the cross I found forgiveness and acceptanceLove and peace from the God Most High

I was sinful and underserving
I was filthy full of garbage and tired
Yet You saved me out of my misery
And call me to a life worth living

I will remember and take heart
Be strong o my soul and fear not
Trembling no more and stand firm of my heart
Cause His faithfulness endures from eternity til eternity

O' Lord help me and prolong no longer
Do you miraculous works
Save me from this misery
So I may proclaim Your name to the generations to come.

Ruth - God's providence and nobility

I read the book of Ruth recently and I am amazeeeeddd by the story (I lovveeeeee it so much). The story revolves around Ruth, Naomi (her mother in-law) and Boaz (her second husband after the death of the first).

The story goes like this:
Naomi moved out of the Israel territory to the land of the Moab. But she experienced a lot of pains in her life by having her husband and two sons died in the foreign land. One of her sons married to a Moabite woman named Ruth. Thankfully this family still worshipped God even though they lived among the people who practiced pagan religion at the time.

After her husband and sons' death, Naomi decided to go back to Israel. Naomi asked her two daughters-in-law to return to their family, and effectively their gods (moabite gods). One of her daughter-in-law agreed to return back, but Ruth insisted not to go back to her home but instead decided to take refuge under the wing of the God of Israel no matter what hardships await her. They went back together to Israel.

Ruth is a noble woman who loved her mother in-law. She worked hard and took care of her and all the people in the town only spoke good things of her. One day she worked in the land owned by a man named Boaz. Boaz was a noble man and people also spoke good things of him. Boaz had compassion on Ruth and very generous to her and protected her. To cut the story short, he was actually one of Naomi's husband's kinsman who was able to redeem Ruth and married her in the culture at the time. After a meeting with the elders and Ruth closest kinsmen, everyone agreed that Boaz should marry Ruth. He then took Ruth as his wife and through them, the King David was born and eventually the King of kings Jesus was born.

Such a wonderful story of God's providence during the dark ages of Israel's history during the era of the judges. The bible said that during that time Israel had no king and everyone did as they pleased. They worshipped idol, gave their sons and daughters to married the pagan and practiced their religion instead of worshipping God. And then this story came out in the bible.

Two lessons:

• Insist to choose God no matter what the cost
  It wasn't easy for Ruth to choose to follow God. She just lost her husband and Naomi can't bore her another son to marry her (in the culture of Israel at the time, a brother is obliged to marry his brother's wife in the event of his death to continue his family line). Our God provides for Ruth during some difficult circumstances. She took refuge under the wing of the God of Israel and her God didn't disappoint her.
  
  Joshua 24:14-15 ¹⁴ "Now fear the LORD and serve him with all faithfulness. Throw away the gods your forefathers worshiped beyond the River and in Egypt, and serve the LORD. ¹⁵ But if serving the LORD seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your forefathers served beyond the River, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you are living. But as for me and my household, we will serve the LORD."
  
  
• Be a noble person (full of integrity) so that your people will glorify my Father in heaven.
  I really admire Ruth that even though her life is hard, she took care of Naomi really well. All the people in town spoke well of her even though she is a Moabite woman. Boaz was also recorded as a man with good standing in society. I want to be like that. I want to work, minister in such a way that is full of integrity. I want to be a good husband who takes care of my wife. I want to be a good son to my parents and parent-in-laws. I want to be a good brother. I want to be good. I am asking God's help to give me strength. I learnt one good illustration from my church leader this year. When a child wants to reach the top of the roof, he/she can't do it no matter how hard he/she tries. But at the time when he/she asks his/her dad to lift him/her up, he can reach it. It is so true with us and our Father. When we ask for help, He will help us and we can be good/noble Christians for His glory.
  
  Proverbs 11:3 The integrity of the upright guides them, but the unfaithful are destroyed by their duplicity.

God is good all the time

Hello,
I don't think I have updated this blog for a while. It has been sitting idle and I just didn't have time to update it. Lots of things have happened and I am so grateful to be where I am now.

I have been married for more than one year and oh what a privilege to be married to such a godly woman. She is fun to be with, I love all the time that we spent together. One year feels like a breeze and I thank God for the time I could spend with her. I know there will be lots of challenges in the future, but as we see God building our home, I know that we are secured in His love. No matter what happens, our God is faithful.

I am still praying for my family to get to be a Christian and to love Jesus. My mum still doesn't want to go to church, but she does not reject Christianity now. She wouldn't mind praying or reading the bible, even though she has some animosity towards church. My brother is doing well by His grace in Jakarta. God has been gracious to Him in all aspects of his life and has been answering his prayers. I need to catch up with him more. I will have my in-laws coming soon to Sydney. I am not quite sure as to where to bring them since they have been here so many times. But I guess the most important thing is to be with family.

In terms of ministry, I am still with the youth group (aka. Pemuda) in my church. Thanking God for everything that happened in Pemuda. Pemuda has now changed its format to be based on small groups. I feel that the format is very good for those people who has questions on God's Word, how to apply that Word in our daily life. I feel privileged to be entrusted with the ministry in small group bible study. Big responsibility to be the "teacher" of God's Word. I know God will hold me accountable in everything I say, don't say, do, don't do. It is a terrible sight to be judged by my God and being me, I know that I will make mistakes. I am a hot blooded guy who often say things without thinking. I got into hot water a few times already. Oh well, please pray for me.

That's all my update folks. I'll write another entry of the two books of the bible soon. Cherio!

Easter reflection for me

It's been a long time since the last time I wrote on this blog. I just wanted to share what's on my mind regarding easter 2009.

Easter has always been a time when I reflect on Jesus' suffering. I always feel deeply saddened everytime I watch Jesus' movie, especially the crucifixion. The movie was shown yesterday in my church easter service. I cry everytime I watch the crucifixion, don't know why I get so emotional about it. At that point in time, I feel like Peter that I will do everything for Jesus, for my Lord.

But yesterday while watching the movie at church I was reminded by the Holy Spirit of the sermon that I once heard. The preacher said, "being sorry and sad is one thing, but being Christlike is what matters!!" ...

How true is that for me? Many times I feel sad to see Jesus' death and resurrection, but at the same time I DON't spend time in prayer, not trusting Him fully with my life, not believing in Him, not praying regularly, didn't trust His Word and promises, feeling proud, not loving, and the list goes on. It's like wishy-washy feeling with no action. USELESS!!!!

This easter for me is a reminder to "walk the feeling" ... Feeling bad about our sin is good if it is accompanied by repentance ...

Praise be to God because our Lord Jesus has won over sin and death so everyone who believes in Him can receive God's blessing in this life and eternal life in the life to come!!

False teacher vs. True Teacher LIVE on YOUTUBE

FALSE TEACHER: Joel Osteen
http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-8999261247040259708 (Preaching)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MfwYU2pmWYQ (interview with Larry King)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vPeYUXuuRUM (interview with Larry King)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oMwW6Q1JfAA&feature=related (Analysis of his interview with Larry King)

vs.

TRUE TEACHER: Paul Washer
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uuabITeO4l8 (Preaching


Hi friends/brothers/sisters in Jesus,

My prayer by sending this email are

• (VERY IMPORTANT) ALL OF US including me who profess ourselves as Christian and have received Jesus as saviour and Lord LIVES IN SYNC with that calling. Please examine ourselves (me) most of all are we really saved. Do we live no different to the world? Otherwise maybe sadly we are deceiving ourselves and going to HELL.
  
• Recognize false teachers from their fruits. I am so angry at Joel Osteen my heart wants to burst out. The bible says don't judge your brothers, but Paul was also very strong towards false teachers. I hope we can recognize them from their fruits and the message that they bring. Please compare the two preaching and let me know your thoughts. Please don't be deceived by them.

Humbly In Christ,
Adi


Matthew 7

The Narrow and Wide Gates

¹³"Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. ¹⁴But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.

A Tree and Its Fruit

¹⁵"Watch out for false prophets. They come to you in sheep's clothing, but inwardly they are ferocious wolves. ¹⁶By their fruit you will recognize them. Do people pick grapes from thornbushes, or figs from thistles? ¹⁷Likewise every good tree bears good fruit, but a bad tree bears bad fruit. ¹⁸A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, and a bad tree cannot bear good fruit. ¹⁹Every tree that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire. ²⁰Thus, by their fruit you will recognize them.

²¹"Not everyone who says to me, 'Lord, Lord,' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only he who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. ²²Many will say to me on that day, 'Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and in your name drive out demons and perform many miracles?' ²³Then I will tell them plainly, 'I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!'

The Wise and Foolish Builders

²⁴"Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock. ²⁵The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock. ²⁶But everyone who hears these words of mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man who built his house on sand. ²⁷The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell with a great crash."

²⁸When Jesus had finished saying these things, the crowds were amazed at his teaching, ²⁹because he taught as one who had authority, and not as their teachers of the law.

Humility

Humility is something that we should aspire to. People has a positive image of someone who is humble in comparison to an arrogant person. But what is humility really? I have been thinking and struggling with this myself lately, as I fall a lot in the sin of pride and arrogance. The bible says that God opposes the proud, but gives grace to the humble (James 4:6b). The first sin and the fall of satan were primarily because of pride, wanted to be equal with God. One preacher even said that pride is demonic and it must not reside in the heart of God's children.

In the course of human history, we often heard people say that someone is humble. Many world leaders are great because even though they are capable of doing something great and full of talents such as leading a nation or military soldiers, but they are also humble and considerate of others at the same time.

First of all, I want to think from human point of view of what humility is. Human can lower himself/herself because of the following reasons:

1. Self-pity: the person has no talent, so there is nothing to boast about in his/her life. No matter what circumstances he/she is in, this person is "Minder"towards others. (self-pitying himself)
2. Circumstances: the circumstances do not allow the person to think highly of himself. For example, the person may be among a group of people who are way above him/her in terms of social status, economic condition, expertise, educational background, experiences, etc. Another case is the person is forced to humble himself by law/circumstances.
3. Self-willing because of his/her love and respect for other human being. An example of this is that a father is willing to beg just for the family to have food on the table
4. Self-willing because of his/her love and respect for God. An example of this is Jesus and the prophets in the Old Testament who are willing to give everything to do God's will.

A person who does (1), (2) cannot be considered humble at all. (3) has merit because the person did it for other people and not himself/forced to do so. (4) has the highest merit because it is not for self-gain and it is done because of his/her love for her Creator, who is the very reason of why he/she lives.

Looking at the bible, I can't help to acknowledge that Jesus is our most humble God and human being at the same time. Jesus teaches about humility in (Luke 14:7-14). He gave an example on how a person who exalts himself will be humbled, yet a person who humbles himself will be exalted. Funny enough, Jesus did not just teach, but with integrity Jesus also did the same thing. The verse in Philippians struck me hard on how Jesus actually humbled Himself so much that God exalted Him above all names in heaven and under the earth. (Philippians 2:5-11). To me this is the fulfillment of what He taught earlier in Luke 14.

So going back to the definition of humility, is humility equal to

1. Not acknowledging what we have in life and always look at others as more highly than ourselves or
2. Acknowledging that God is the giver of what we have in life?

I supposed it is very clear that normal people will choose the later. After all, Jesus acknowledged Himself as God in front of His disciples and Pontius Pilate, Cayaphas, etc. He did not hide the fact that He was God plus the first seemed like self-pity if we look at it closely.

But I just can't help to think of the Word in Philipians which says that Jesus emptied Himself. According to the bible, it means that Jesus, being in the very nature God, did not consider equality with God something to be grasped, but emptied Himself and take form of a servant (which is the total opposite of God), humbled Himself until He died on the cross. And that's why God the Father exalts Him so much and He is forever to be praised, Amen. So in this case, Jesus because of His obedience to God, did all of that. It's amazing. So to me, humility may mean that times that because of our obedience to God, God wants us to lower ourselves, social status, and doing God's Will. Even though we are great and able to do lots of things, sometimes because of God's will, we need to humble ourselves and let go of all those self-attributes, self-righteousness to do His will.

Letting go of what we are/have at times because of our love for God is not equal to self-pity. I believe that's true humility!!!

In less than 6 months, God-willing I'll be married. I humbly ask God that Me and nonik will grow in humility towards each other.

Youth vs. Oldies

Hello, haven't updated this blog for a while. But glad to finally have the time to do so... :)

I accidentally thought about the above topic through the circumstances that I am in at the moment. I guess my Lord Jesus has been gracious to me ... Always at the right time he gave His Word when I need it ...

This topic (as most topic) has two sides of the coin.
- Young people thinks that they know better and thinks their older parents as old-fashioned
- Older generation don't want to listen to anybody even though they are clearly wrong

I always struggle about this myself. Just to give an example, my parents are not Christian and me being still relatively young (and dangerous ^o^) and claiming to 'know' the Word of God (even though I don't really know that much either) makes me reluctant to respect their advices and opinions. To be fair to myself, some of their advices really don't fit into what the bible says. Well, how did (should) I deal with the situation?

This is not just about my relationship with my parents. Sometimes at church I feel that I know better in terms of how to act, what to say than some of my older brothers/sisters in Christ. I don't deny that older men/women have a lot more experiences than me in life, but I can't help to feel that they need to behave to a higher level of Christian behaviors to gain respect from me ... Sinful am I not?

Recently I prayed about it while feeling pain and struggle inside me. My gracious God reminded me of
1 Timothy 4:12
12Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.
And then Paul continued with how Timothy should treat older generation
1 Timothy 5:1
1Do not rebuke an older man harshly, but exhort him as if he were your father. Treat younger men as brothers, 2older women as mothers, and younger women as sisters, with absolute purity

Thank God for His Word. I believe it is the Holy Spirit that reminded me how I should behave as young people. The Word of God commands again and again to respect our parents, even if they are in the wrong. There must be a reason for it and we young people need to trust that!!!

Rather than judging on how our parents/older generation should behave, we (young people) should SET AN EXAMPLE WHILE GIVING THEM RESPECT THAT THEY DESERVE. Easy? not really ... My human inclination is always to judge, fight back when I see something wrong ... Once or twice I can still accept it, but if I 'judge' that he/she doesn't repent from it and his/her heart is not aware that (s)he is wrong, I'll start thinking how and what to say if that person is doing it again (especially if (s)he is doing it to me). I am thinking to even use the Word of God to counter him/her if (s)he is a christian.... very ashamed of myself.

Here are some practical advise if such situation arise:
1. Pray to God and ask him for patience ... *Looking at Jesus usually helps*
2. NEVER talk back impolitely or losing yourself in front of them. *Shut our mouth (even though it hurts a lot) usually helps*
3. SET our hearts to be committed to be more godly and set good examples to them.
4. Talk to them at the later times about our feelings. *This is very important as I find it very useful to do this with my parents lately. It feels good when they finally understand how you feel. I find it useful for them to know my heart as a Christian, what my priorities are, how I treat God, how I treat them, my difficulties in communicating with my parents, my hope for our family, my prayer for them, etc. Sharing my feelings with parents (even though just for a few hours) has much much much larger impact rather than spending time with them without this quality time and sometimes this is not easy for guys*

I hope this entry can be a blessing to us all ... Until then!!