Matthew 7:4
How can you say to your brother, 'Let me take the speck out of your eye,' when all the time there is a plank in your own eye?
I have been thinking about the issue between the different churches ... I was involved with a group of christians who happen to be from a charismatic churches in Rotterdam .... I did not know that at the time and when I asked about what denomination their church was, one of the guy whom I was in contact with said "We are definitely not catholics and therefore therefore that makes us charismatic and reformed then. But we are a good church, I tell you why because we always put God as priority in our life and that is a sign of a good Christian" ....
I was impressed by his answer and decided to join the cell group once .... I also saw their website and they put 1 Cor 11-12 where you don't speak in tongue at church as one of the thing that they believe in ... I felt this church was ok and we had a cell group one afternoon after having dinner ... They were very welcoming ... I was trying to find out more about their church during the cell group, coz it did not really say on the website ... But I couldn't figure out what kind of church it was ... After i visited their church the next Sunday in Delft (another city) it was clear to me that they are charismatic .... They even invited 2 prophets that week and they prophesied to the conggregations ... The prophets prophesied and said things like "I feel there is someone with bla bla bla" ... "Together you two are dynamite couple bla bla bla" .... and so on ....
I felt a bit unease within me, but there was one thing which I could not agree with him regarding the prayer that he prayed ..... From what I gathered, he prayed about the apostolic movement ... not sure what he meant by that, but I think it was related to charismatic movement .... He was preaching from the gospel and discussed about how the religious order at that time oppose the blind man who had been healed by Jesus .... The blind man was ordered to go to Siloam lake, which also means apostolic after Jesus put mud in his eyes ... He was then healed and he associated that with apostolic movement .... He then prayed for "division", asking for it in prayer ..... I thought it was very wrong to pray like that especially when you claim yourself to be a prophet .... Even Jesus prayed for unity among his disciples .... If he regards established religious order at Jesus time the same as other Christians nowadays, then he has prayed something not according to the bible ....
After that event, I decided to leave the cell group .... Being me, I felt uneasy again ... It is like I was being discriminating against charismatic churches .... If Jesus was there, or Paul was there, wouldn't they stay and try to fix things up .... But again I thought, who am I to fix this? I may be able to present my case in a cell group but that may lead to unending arguments and division among the group members ... I felt no peace during that time thinking what should I do ....
In the end I decided to leave the cell group and possibly join another one in rotterdam, but I definitely still want to keep in touch with them one way or another .... I regard the rotterdam cell group members as my bro and sis in Christ (not the church though) ... They live a different life to other dutch students here and I can see Christ in their life ....
The question remain though ... Is it a wise decision to do so? Would you do the same or differently?
Personally, I made the decision not because I am discriminating against charismatic churches or the cell groups .... There is no perfect church in this world because it consists of imperfect human beings .... I believe God uses charismatic church these days to bring his people to him too (I am one living example), so does reformed churches, and we should work together to bring the gospel to nations .... I left because I believe that some of the things they are doing is not according to the bible and I feel it would be better for me to grow with other christians from the reformed denomination .... I will not feel peace in my heart if I keep joining the cell group unless I bring forward my case on certain things .... Nonetheless, I accepted my cell group members as my brother and sister in Christ .... I wanna keep praying for them, so they grow in the true knowledge of God!!
Maybe enough sharing for now!! lol ...
Friday, September 22, 2006
Rotterdam update 2
3.5 weeks has already passed since I came to Holland, and here I am sitting down in my room working on these assignments ... lol ... I couldn't believe how much work I had to do for my courses and it probably will occupy myself for the next 1.5 months or so before it eases a bit ... There are maybe 16 assignments that I have to do in the next 1.5 months. On top of that, I still have my big business project to work on ... crazy!
Hhhhh ... But here I am, trying to survive in a new country and balance off between studying and travelling ... I was thinking of looking for a job as well, but given the uni workload, I don't think I want to work anymore ... I have been to a few places around Holland such as Hemskerk, Amsterdam, Rotterdam (of course), and Delft ... There were some nice places and sightseeing was very enjoyable ... I will show the photos later on ....
A few highlights from my trip so far:
Hhhhh ... But here I am, trying to survive in a new country and balance off between studying and travelling ... I was thinking of looking for a job as well, but given the uni workload, I don't think I want to work anymore ... I have been to a few places around Holland such as Hemskerk, Amsterdam, Rotterdam (of course), and Delft ... There were some nice places and sightseeing was very enjoyable ... I will show the photos later on ....
A few highlights from my trip so far:
- I met my exchange friends during my so-called integration trip to Hemskerk ... We stayed in "stayok" hostel in there, very cheap but nice hostel ... In Europe, backpackers usually stay in a hostel because it is cheaper and they get to know other people who are travelling at the same time .... "stayok" hostel is probaby the biggest hostels in holland as far as I know and they have many hostels around Holland .... It was a nice getting-to-know others trip but it was a pity that I did not have my camera during the trip ... My camera was being sent from Indo at that time since we forgot to put it in my bag ... lol
The trip was fun, full of activities .... The whole idea for the trip was to prepare ourselves for the business project that I am doing now ..... We learnt how to work as a team, and getting to know and trust our team members .... I learnt a few things like how to juggle three balls like clown in a circus ... hahaha ... or to paint on a canvas (van gogh style) ... I did not get anywhere with this btw ... I am bad at drawing ... - My trip to Delft was a classic .... Delft is quite small city, very dutch ... I went there with some of my exchange buddies and we basically just going around the city .... I visited this BIG BIG church and we climbed the stairs .... the people in the church told us that it was more than 350 stairs going up ... That was a lot of stairs and it felt like forever going up the church tower ... And guess what, sudah sampai atas, I was scared ... takut tinggi!! haha ... We also went on a cruise trip around delft, but it was a pity that the tour guide spoke in Dutch ...
- Amsterdam was different ... It was bigger than rotterdam, but as a capital city, it is pretty small compared to cities in Australia or Indonesia ... Btw, cities in holland are like that ... They are small but very close to each other ... It only took us 15 minutes to go from Rotterdam to Delft ... Amsterdam was around 45 minutes by train ...
Amsterdam is full of an old architecture ... So those architects might enjoy it there ... I can't really appreciate them other than just starring at them with a fake awe ... lol ... But the thing that I enjoyed the most was when I visited van gogh museum ... The museum displays a collection of van gogh painting and it tells a story of his life since he started painting to end ... It was sad because he actually killed himself ... I sort of feel the frustation, stresses, happiness, joy, and other emotions through his strokes .... His style is impressionist if I am not wrong ... I looked at them with a big jaw-drop since I know how hard it is to paint from my integration trip and to be able to produce such an art is remarkable .... I just thoroughly enjoyed it, my first visit to museum EVER was Van gogh ... Awesome .... !!!! Next museum to visit is probably Rijke museum ... It is the biggest museum in Holland and apparently my friend said it is awesome too .... - Rotterdam: very modern city, a center of trade, a hub to europe and has an awesome ports ... Like other cities in Holland, it is not that big and it is not too hard to get familiar with the city ... Ga banyak architectural buildings around here, tapi I personally like modern city (I am not a fan of classical architecture) ... I am starting to enjoy my life here, it is not as bad as my first week I guess .... I have internet at home now and it helps a lot since I don't have to go to uni to do research or just check email ...
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Rotterdam update - 1
Helo again ... I can not believe myself kalo gua udah di rotterdam sekarang and actually di Erasmus ... It feels like a dream, soalnya mana mungkin anak master yg mestinya sekolah part-time bisa pergi exchange? Maybe it's kehendak Tuhan kalo gua do 3 subjects for 2 semesters jadi bisa dianggap full-time students, kalo ga there is no way I can be here right now ...
Well, here I am still alone without any friend ... There will be a welcoming party in 1/2 hour time and I will go on excursion tour with other exchange students for 3 days and 2 nights tomorrow, hopefully it's good time ... I was juggling a little bit with many things including residence permit, opening a bank account, paying this and that, buy stuffs that I need, etc ... Actually, these 3 days felt quite long already since I had so many new things to learn and absorb ...
My house is not nice, but my room is ... I live with a guy called P.G. Ossevoort (I hope I spell this right) in an apartment just outside the city border. I can just walk to reach the city or centraal station, so It's very nice and convinient. It's not too far to the campus as well, 15 minutes by trem. Two downsides to my accomodation is I live with a smoker and there is no internet in the house, but for now I am doing everything in my power to keep my room as enjoyable as possible for me to live. My room has got everything that I need like fridge, tv, big study table and wardrobe, nice view, and bed of course.
I missed church last sunday, coz I was late in looking for church information on the web .. but I might try scots international church this sunday, close to where I live ... When I visited that church late evening yesterday, it is actually shared between 3 church denominations ... kinda like IPC and RPC ... But it's pretty close and it was recommended by friend of Ari as far as I can remember ..
In the meantime I am struggling with money, not because I am lacking money to support myself here, but I am having difficulty transferring money from Australia to Holland ... Thankfully, I am able to open a bank account at ABN Amro today and have transferred money from Australia ... Now I just have to survive with a couple of Euros for a few days ... lol ...
Well, here I am still alone without any friend ... There will be a welcoming party in 1/2 hour time and I will go on excursion tour with other exchange students for 3 days and 2 nights tomorrow, hopefully it's good time ... I was juggling a little bit with many things including residence permit, opening a bank account, paying this and that, buy stuffs that I need, etc ... Actually, these 3 days felt quite long already since I had so many new things to learn and absorb ...
My house is not nice, but my room is ... I live with a guy called P.G. Ossevoort (I hope I spell this right) in an apartment just outside the city border. I can just walk to reach the city or centraal station, so It's very nice and convinient. It's not too far to the campus as well, 15 minutes by trem. Two downsides to my accomodation is I live with a smoker and there is no internet in the house, but for now I am doing everything in my power to keep my room as enjoyable as possible for me to live. My room has got everything that I need like fridge, tv, big study table and wardrobe, nice view, and bed of course.
I missed church last sunday, coz I was late in looking for church information on the web .. but I might try scots international church this sunday, close to where I live ... When I visited that church late evening yesterday, it is actually shared between 3 church denominations ... kinda like IPC and RPC ... But it's pretty close and it was recommended by friend of Ari as far as I can remember ..
In the meantime I am struggling with money, not because I am lacking money to support myself here, but I am having difficulty transferring money from Australia to Holland ... Thankfully, I am able to open a bank account at ABN Amro today and have transferred money from Australia ... Now I just have to survive with a couple of Euros for a few days ... lol ...
Batas waktu
Waktu itu terbatas
Tidak selamanya ku kan begini
Akhir tahun kan jadi batasannya
Ku siap tuk melupakan semua ...
Memulai sesuatu yang baru ...
Terjadi atau tidak itu keputusan Ilahi ...
KeilahianNya hamba hanya berserah
Tidak selamanya ku kan begini
Akhir tahun kan jadi batasannya
Ku siap tuk melupakan semua ...
Memulai sesuatu yang baru ...
Terjadi atau tidak itu keputusan Ilahi ...
KeilahianNya hamba hanya berserah
Sunday, August 20, 2006
Ihsan, the winner
Grrrr ... kenapa bisa menang padahal gua udah nyumbang 18 votes ... Tapi He has more power di suaranya and I guess Indonesia udah pilih dia ... Good on you man!
Indonesian Idol
And the winner is Ihsannn!!! oh nooo ... Not the one that I supported ... hehe ... I want Dirly (see picture on the LHS) to win, but I guess God (and the audience) decides the opposite
Been watching Indonesian idol and love it ... !! Check it out http://indonesianidol.boleh.com/?mn=home ...
I love singing!
Thursday, August 17, 2006
One more week in indo
Indo is so nice ... I've been in indo for 2.5 weeks now and enjoy every moment of it ... Not only because I can spend time with my family and friends, but I can see that God works in my family and relatives too ...
Thank God for opportunities to speak to mum and dad about the gospel ... I've never had so many conversations with them about God ... Still praying that God may change their heart coz it's not a human work but the Spirit and NOTHING is impossible for Him ...
My auntie is now a christian ... Her husband has also believed in God .. They believed through many problems and hardships and although they are new christians, I prayed to God to bring salvation to my auntie's house, to all my cousins ... I almost cried when I heard that my uncle became a christian .. In human's view, he was probably not considered to be good people, but God works in a miraculous way and He choose whomever He choose ... I pray that through His re-born and my life that my family and relatives could see that Jesus is Lord ...
I also met a good Christian who happens to be my supir .. hehe ... We had a good discussion and I feel that he is quite genuine ... I will visit his church this Sunday which used to be my church in Sunday school before ...
Putting that aside, I've gained weight .. A LOT ... Keep eating food that mum cook for me every day ... With little exercise, I've gained a lot of weight ... hahaha ... My cheek looks like cheeze now and I hope I will lose weight later hahaha ... Well, Holland is getting closer and closer .... I feel excited now but also sad leaving my parents, but I am hopeful of the future ...
To me, whatever happen in the future, good or bad I know God works and He will accomplish what He has started ... I am hopeful and encouraged by everything that happen here in indo ...
Thank God for opportunities to speak to mum and dad about the gospel ... I've never had so many conversations with them about God ... Still praying that God may change their heart coz it's not a human work but the Spirit and NOTHING is impossible for Him ...
My auntie is now a christian ... Her husband has also believed in God .. They believed through many problems and hardships and although they are new christians, I prayed to God to bring salvation to my auntie's house, to all my cousins ... I almost cried when I heard that my uncle became a christian .. In human's view, he was probably not considered to be good people, but God works in a miraculous way and He choose whomever He choose ... I pray that through His re-born and my life that my family and relatives could see that Jesus is Lord ...
I also met a good Christian who happens to be my supir .. hehe ... We had a good discussion and I feel that he is quite genuine ... I will visit his church this Sunday which used to be my church in Sunday school before ...
Putting that aside, I've gained weight .. A LOT ... Keep eating food that mum cook for me every day ... With little exercise, I've gained a lot of weight ... hahaha ... My cheek looks like cheeze now and I hope I will lose weight later hahaha ... Well, Holland is getting closer and closer .... I feel excited now but also sad leaving my parents, but I am hopeful of the future ...
To me, whatever happen in the future, good or bad I know God works and He will accomplish what He has started ... I am hopeful and encouraged by everything that happen here in indo ...
Sunday, July 30, 2006
...
Aku siap, yah semoga saja aku siap
Tuk menatap hari esok
Siapa yang tau apa kan datang
Ku tak tau, ya tak ada yang tau selain Dia
Apa sih nilai hidupku ini
Kukendalikan saja tak mampu
Susah payah aku berusaha mengekangnya
Tapi hasilnya nil dan nihil
Bapa di surga berkata, "Nak aku memegang hidupmu"
"Tapi Tuhan, aku masih ingin ini dan itu", kataku memprotes
"Aku sudah merencanakan ini dan itu", kataku menyela
"Aku ingin pegang hidupku sendiri dong Tuhan", kataku memberontak
"Kenapa Kau tak memberikannya kepadaku?" kataku kesal, marah dan pedih
Aku sedih, marah dan memprotes Bapa
Kembali Bapa memanggil namaku, "Di, aku memegang hidupmu"
"Tanganku kuat mencengkeram engkau"
"Tanganku juga lembut untuk mengobati luka luka mu"
"Aku mengasihi sampai2 rela berikan hadiah terbesar untukmu"
"AnakKu sendiri kuberikan di masa itu, dibantai walau tiada noda tuk jadi pengganti mu"
"Ayo serahkan hidupmu padaku"
"Terus lah dan teruslah serahkan karena AKU adalah AKU"
"Terus lah dan teruslah serahkan karena Aku Allahmu"
"Terus lah serahkan di hari harimu karena Aku Bapamu"
"Terus lah dan teruslah serahkan karena Aku yang memegang hidupmu"
"Ayo serahkan"
Aku menangis .. sadar kalau aku ini cuma debu
"Tuhan, aku mau serahkan", kataku
"Aku mau belajar terus menerus serahkan"
"I know you are a patient God and will complete Your work in me"
Tuk menatap hari esok
Siapa yang tau apa kan datang
Ku tak tau, ya tak ada yang tau selain Dia
Apa sih nilai hidupku ini
Kukendalikan saja tak mampu
Susah payah aku berusaha mengekangnya
Tapi hasilnya nil dan nihil
Bapa di surga berkata, "Nak aku memegang hidupmu"
"Tapi Tuhan, aku masih ingin ini dan itu", kataku memprotes
"Aku sudah merencanakan ini dan itu", kataku menyela
"Aku ingin pegang hidupku sendiri dong Tuhan", kataku memberontak
"Kenapa Kau tak memberikannya kepadaku?" kataku kesal, marah dan pedih
Aku sedih, marah dan memprotes Bapa
Kembali Bapa memanggil namaku, "Di, aku memegang hidupmu"
"Tanganku kuat mencengkeram engkau"
"Tanganku juga lembut untuk mengobati luka luka mu"
"Aku mengasihi sampai2 rela berikan hadiah terbesar untukmu"
"AnakKu sendiri kuberikan di masa itu, dibantai walau tiada noda tuk jadi pengganti mu"
"Ayo serahkan hidupmu padaku"
"Terus lah dan teruslah serahkan karena AKU adalah AKU"
"Terus lah dan teruslah serahkan karena Aku Allahmu"
"Terus lah serahkan di hari harimu karena Aku Bapamu"
"Terus lah dan teruslah serahkan karena Aku yang memegang hidupmu"
"Ayo serahkan"
Aku menangis .. sadar kalau aku ini cuma debu
"Tuhan, aku mau serahkan", kataku
"Aku mau belajar terus menerus serahkan"
"I know you are a patient God and will complete Your work in me"
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
Erasmus is a top university? Waaa .. nice nice
According to lecturers that I've talked to regarding my exchange, all of them confirmed/said that Erasmus is a very good choice ... They said it's one of the top university and it will be a very good learning experience for me ... It makes me very proud ... hehehe ... I'll wait and see I guess
Monday, July 24, 2006
1 week to go
Here I am in the brink of leaving Sydney ... Feeling excited sih ... I had decided to go and go with a cheerful heart ... I will put my heart into this opportunity in my life ..
I am praying and hoping that during my time in Holland (and Indo) I can become a blessing and grow more as a person ... I am also praying for all my christian friends in Sydney to stay strong in the faith and keep loving God and one another ....
I feel so loved lately ... I don't know why ... But maybe feel a bit emotional leaving sydney behind ... I felt the love from my work friends - all of them knew I was leaving and it felt strange having spent so many hours together at work and with activities outside work ... They are great!! Honestly, I am so glad I have work friends like them ... Grateful to God ...
Also had farewells with IH friends and uni friends .. My good buddies from computer engineering ... It would be interesting to see where everyone end up in 1/2 year time ... Will definitely send lots of email and photos to them ...
My church friends are the best ... hehe ... I am grateful for such friendships and can't thank God more ... Hoping that we can still encourage one another through prayer and MSN and emails, and blogs and forums, etc ... Will definitely miss them ... Hoping I can find a good friends like that during my time in Holland ... That would be a BIG BIG Bonus ... hehehe ...
Well, 1 week to go and still need to do tax return and subject transfer ... My boss also asked me to work next weekend which I would decline coz I want to spend time more with my bro and friends ... But it's really not long until I go ... Until then....
I am praying and hoping that during my time in Holland (and Indo) I can become a blessing and grow more as a person ... I am also praying for all my christian friends in Sydney to stay strong in the faith and keep loving God and one another ....
I feel so loved lately ... I don't know why ... But maybe feel a bit emotional leaving sydney behind ... I felt the love from my work friends - all of them knew I was leaving and it felt strange having spent so many hours together at work and with activities outside work ... They are great!! Honestly, I am so glad I have work friends like them ... Grateful to God ...
Also had farewells with IH friends and uni friends .. My good buddies from computer engineering ... It would be interesting to see where everyone end up in 1/2 year time ... Will definitely send lots of email and photos to them ...
My church friends are the best ... hehe ... I am grateful for such friendships and can't thank God more ... Hoping that we can still encourage one another through prayer and MSN and emails, and blogs and forums, etc ... Will definitely miss them ... Hoping I can find a good friends like that during my time in Holland ... That would be a BIG BIG Bonus ... hehehe ...
Well, 1 week to go and still need to do tax return and subject transfer ... My boss also asked me to work next weekend which I would decline coz I want to spend time more with my bro and friends ... But it's really not long until I go ... Until then....
Thursday, July 20, 2006
Monday, July 17, 2006
Sunday, July 09, 2006
IPC Winter retreat 2006 ...
I just went to IPC retreat 2006. Will post some pictures later on ...
IPC is my home church and this is maybe my last major gathering that I will do with my church family in 2006, I will soon fly away to Holland for exchange study ... Well, yes I said IPC is my extended family coz deep in my heart I really feel that way ... Even though I don't know everyone in the church and my church is not perfect, but this church has been nurturing me ever since I came to Australia. All my friends are there and we have shared a lot during these past years ... I can feel that I am growing as a christian and I would like to thank God and IPC for that ...
Leaving them for 1/2 year would be a bit hard kali yah ... Yesterday, during worship in one session, I was looking around and saw many people and close friends and thinking "I am soooo blessed with this big family in Australia and how can I thank God more" ... I was feeling anxious leaving IPC ... But after thinking about it more, it's just for 1/2 year ... hehe ... Maybe as time goes by I will be able to manage it ... Om Joni said that pasti ada rencana Tuhan kenapa I can go to holland .... Nanti kalo ngeliat ke belakang maybe I will know what it is ... I am keeping my option open for ministry over there as well ... Who knows what will happen .... So I have decided to go with a cheerful heart ...
I learnt so many things in the retreat ... The preacher is TOP quality .. :) ... Somehow he reminds me of my former flatmate ari, I don't know why ... Putting that aside, one important point that I learnt from retreat is God loves His Church and He is with His church ... If God is among us, first and foremost is we should ALWAYS be conscious of His presence .. It will affect how we worship at church, how we treat one another, how we treat preachings no matter how boring it is, how we should live our life outside weekends (coz we are the invisible church inside the physical church), etc ...
Overall, it was an excellent retreat, lots of fun ... hahahha .. I laughed so hard during games time at retreat ... We played so many games. One of the funniest is a game where people made circle, then taking turn and trying to make each person in the group to laugh while that person tries not to laugh ... hahaha .. It was UNBELIEVABLE ... FUN FUN FUN ... Gaya2nya gile gile ajeeeeeee .... I am definitely getting the video to Holland ... nanti diliat liat lagi kalo kangen .. hehe ...
IPC is my home church and this is maybe my last major gathering that I will do with my church family in 2006, I will soon fly away to Holland for exchange study ... Well, yes I said IPC is my extended family coz deep in my heart I really feel that way ... Even though I don't know everyone in the church and my church is not perfect, but this church has been nurturing me ever since I came to Australia. All my friends are there and we have shared a lot during these past years ... I can feel that I am growing as a christian and I would like to thank God and IPC for that ...
Leaving them for 1/2 year would be a bit hard kali yah ... Yesterday, during worship in one session, I was looking around and saw many people and close friends and thinking "I am soooo blessed with this big family in Australia and how can I thank God more" ... I was feeling anxious leaving IPC ... But after thinking about it more, it's just for 1/2 year ... hehe ... Maybe as time goes by I will be able to manage it ... Om Joni said that pasti ada rencana Tuhan kenapa I can go to holland .... Nanti kalo ngeliat ke belakang maybe I will know what it is ... I am keeping my option open for ministry over there as well ... Who knows what will happen .... So I have decided to go with a cheerful heart ...
I learnt so many things in the retreat ... The preacher is TOP quality .. :) ... Somehow he reminds me of my former flatmate ari, I don't know why ... Putting that aside, one important point that I learnt from retreat is God loves His Church and He is with His church ... If God is among us, first and foremost is we should ALWAYS be conscious of His presence .. It will affect how we worship at church, how we treat one another, how we treat preachings no matter how boring it is, how we should live our life outside weekends (coz we are the invisible church inside the physical church), etc ...
Overall, it was an excellent retreat, lots of fun ... hahahha .. I laughed so hard during games time at retreat ... We played so many games. One of the funniest is a game where people made circle, then taking turn and trying to make each person in the group to laugh while that person tries not to laugh ... hahaha .. It was UNBELIEVABLE ... FUN FUN FUN ... Gaya2nya gile gile ajeeeeeee .... I am definitely getting the video to Holland ... nanti diliat liat lagi kalo kangen .. hehe ...
Sunday, June 25, 2006
Love
Love is practical .. I love the fact that love is something practical ... Not about theory or looking good in front of others but it is something that come out of your heart and manifested in practical deeds ...
Hari ini kotbah pemuda bagus banget ... reminds me of loving others tuh is a MUST ... Sometimes I have to admit that I try to avoid some people because they annoy me, or I don't like their attitude ... I deliberately choose not to love them, even though I still do the right thing to them like not talking behind their back, or gossiping but still I know my heart is not right with them ...
Love is not easy especially if a person has hurt me ... But through God's Word I believe that if you do that, if you love others that hurt you, if you forgive them, if you be patient with them, if you persevere in love, GOD's blessing is there ... hehe ... I've actually experienced it myself in different occassions ...
Love others because God has first loved us ... Grasp it and practice love and hospitality towards others ...
Hari ini kotbah pemuda bagus banget ... reminds me of loving others tuh is a MUST ... Sometimes I have to admit that I try to avoid some people because they annoy me, or I don't like their attitude ... I deliberately choose not to love them, even though I still do the right thing to them like not talking behind their back, or gossiping but still I know my heart is not right with them ...
Love is not easy especially if a person has hurt me ... But through God's Word I believe that if you do that, if you love others that hurt you, if you forgive them, if you be patient with them, if you persevere in love, GOD's blessing is there ... hehe ... I've actually experienced it myself in different occassions ...
Love others because God has first loved us ... Grasp it and practice love and hospitality towards others ...
Sunday, June 04, 2006
What a great song
Ku tau siapa yg pimpin
Hari depan hidupku
Semuanya oleh Tuhan
Tlah diatur sempurna
Menghadapi gelombang
Hari depan hidupku
Ku berseru pada Tuhan
Ku srah kan semua
Tiap kali nyanyi lagu ini, always inget akan kebaikan Tuhan di masa2 lalu and kepastian hidup dalam Tuhan ... Seneng banget bisa kenal Tuhan sebagai Lord and Father .... Tiap saat bisa berseru ... and smuanya diserahkan .... ke tangan Tuhan yg able dan always mengasihi ...
Hari depan hidupku
Semuanya oleh Tuhan
Tlah diatur sempurna
Menghadapi gelombang
Hari depan hidupku
Ku berseru pada Tuhan
Ku srah kan semua
Tiap kali nyanyi lagu ini, always inget akan kebaikan Tuhan di masa2 lalu and kepastian hidup dalam Tuhan ... Seneng banget bisa kenal Tuhan sebagai Lord and Father .... Tiap saat bisa berseru ... and smuanya diserahkan .... ke tangan Tuhan yg able dan always mengasihi ...
Sunday, May 28, 2006
Christianity makes sense!!
Imagine yourself as a loving parent .. You love your children very much ... Everyday, you take care of them, you feed them, give them advice, be there for them, and so on. When they are sick, you do not sleep the whole night, even the following days after that. You love your children so much and you want them to see that you love them.
Time goes by, and your children grew up to become rebel teenagers. Suddenly they never listen to you. They don't feel like spending time with you anymore. Even though you as their parents still feed them everyday, give them the same love that you gave when they were little, but they just ignore you. To them, your advice has now become a burden. "Do not do this", "Do that" - They just won't listen.
You try to be patient, but rage starts to build up within you. You are angry because you love them and do not want them to drift away. Your rage comes from the fact that you love them. The children themselves are doing pretty badly. They never study, they watch porn, using drugs, and even selling them on the street. They become violent beasts, getting into fights on the street. They even despise their parents.
You are angry and you have to do something. What would you do as a parent? Punishment won't work and they have received those many times ... As a parent, you punish them when they are wrong, but deep down you just want them to love you. That's all it is, that's the bottom line. Punishment is just a means to get there. What would you do? You feel powerless as a parent? You are starting feel like "who are you to punish them?" But at the same time you also feel angry and love is the strongest feeling that you have within you.. Again, the bottom line is you love your children and want them to love you back .
I think that's how God feel now. As the parent in the illustration above, He is angry because we HUMAN have turned away against Him. We don't care about God even though He take care of us. As a result, we drift away downwards into our sin and degradation in every area of our lives - work, sex, relationships, money, worshipping other gods, etc. And yes, God is ANGRY, but anger that comes from the fact that He LOVES us. The bottom line is, He just wants us to love Him back. What would God do? God is not powerless like the parent above, and He can choose to wipe us out. Afterall He is GOD.
Funny enough, the bible said that God punish His own Son Jesus who is without sin. Instead of us who have drifted away from Him. WHY? Because through that, everyone who believe in Jesus will be forgiven of their sin. They will be given a new heart, a heart that loves God. Jesus had to be punished on our behalf, because God is just and He has to punish sins. We will never escape God's punishment without Jesus' sacrifice.
Through the story above I urge you to know God through Jesus. As parents you would've understand what I said above. I feel it too sometimes. As non-parents, you will become a parent someday and will understand the pain of a parent who is going through situation like above, maybe not to that extreme. That's why Christianity makes sense!
Lastly, there are other choice which the parent can do. The parent can choose to IGNORE the children and do not care about them anymore. Some parents may be able to do that, but I think that is NOT LOVE. Loving parents would never do something like that. They will never give up until they breathe their last breath. God can not ignore what we have done. He has to do something and He has done something, which is sending His own Son, dying on the cross, representing the greatest love.
"So what?", you may ask. Now, God demands us to love Him by trusting Jesus' work on the cross. Coz, the bottom line is He just wants us to love Him back. Will you do just that? I pray that you will ....
John 3:16: For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
Time goes by, and your children grew up to become rebel teenagers. Suddenly they never listen to you. They don't feel like spending time with you anymore. Even though you as their parents still feed them everyday, give them the same love that you gave when they were little, but they just ignore you. To them, your advice has now become a burden. "Do not do this", "Do that" - They just won't listen.
You try to be patient, but rage starts to build up within you. You are angry because you love them and do not want them to drift away. Your rage comes from the fact that you love them. The children themselves are doing pretty badly. They never study, they watch porn, using drugs, and even selling them on the street. They become violent beasts, getting into fights on the street. They even despise their parents.
You are angry and you have to do something. What would you do as a parent? Punishment won't work and they have received those many times ... As a parent, you punish them when they are wrong, but deep down you just want them to love you. That's all it is, that's the bottom line. Punishment is just a means to get there. What would you do? You feel powerless as a parent? You are starting feel like "who are you to punish them?" But at the same time you also feel angry and love is the strongest feeling that you have within you.. Again, the bottom line is you love your children and want them to love you back .
I think that's how God feel now. As the parent in the illustration above, He is angry because we HUMAN have turned away against Him. We don't care about God even though He take care of us. As a result, we drift away downwards into our sin and degradation in every area of our lives - work, sex, relationships, money, worshipping other gods, etc. And yes, God is ANGRY, but anger that comes from the fact that He LOVES us. The bottom line is, He just wants us to love Him back. What would God do? God is not powerless like the parent above, and He can choose to wipe us out. Afterall He is GOD.
Funny enough, the bible said that God punish His own Son Jesus who is without sin. Instead of us who have drifted away from Him. WHY? Because through that, everyone who believe in Jesus will be forgiven of their sin. They will be given a new heart, a heart that loves God. Jesus had to be punished on our behalf, because God is just and He has to punish sins. We will never escape God's punishment without Jesus' sacrifice.
Through the story above I urge you to know God through Jesus. As parents you would've understand what I said above. I feel it too sometimes. As non-parents, you will become a parent someday and will understand the pain of a parent who is going through situation like above, maybe not to that extreme. That's why Christianity makes sense!
Lastly, there are other choice which the parent can do. The parent can choose to IGNORE the children and do not care about them anymore. Some parents may be able to do that, but I think that is NOT LOVE. Loving parents would never do something like that. They will never give up until they breathe their last breath. God can not ignore what we have done. He has to do something and He has done something, which is sending His own Son, dying on the cross, representing the greatest love.
"So what?", you may ask. Now, God demands us to love Him by trusting Jesus' work on the cross. Coz, the bottom line is He just wants us to love Him back. Will you do just that? I pray that you will ....
John 3:16: For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
Hidup tuh singkat banget
Things that happen in my life lately tiba2 make me ngerasa hidup tuh singkat banget ... Baru aja lahir, bandel2 nya waktu kecil, jadi remaja ... Belum puas masa2 remaja diisi dengan hal2 yg indah, eh udah pemuda ... Baru jadi pemuda, tiba2 udah married ... Baru married udah ada anak and kewajiban2 yg lain ... In no time bakal jadi kakek2 dan ...... mati balik ke Tuhan lg ...
Apa toh arti hidup? Kadang ada sedih, ada senang ... ada tertawa ada kekecewaan ... semua itu hal biasa dan Tuhan is in control of everything ... Ada sukses, ada juga kegagalan .... Ga ada sesuatu yg bisa dibanggain gitu loo .. Manusia sibuk2 mencari sesuatu yg suatu hari bakal lenyap ... ga bakal dibawa mati ...
Kenapa kita hidup? Bener, kita emang bisa enjoy waktu2 di dunia .. tapi itu pun singkat banget dan seems sia2 ... I am about to travel to europe .. excited sih excited banget, cuman setelah dipikir lagi itu juga adalah sesuatu yg biasa dalam hidup ini ....
Luckily for me, alkitab adalah satu2nya yg menjawab apa arti hidup ini .... Hidup adalah untuk memuliakan Tuhan dan enjoy Him forever ... Sisanya adalah bonus ... whether it's teman2 baik, kekayaan, berkat, keluarga, pacar atau kesedihan, masalah, problems, penyakit, etc ... Kita manusia datang dari Tuhan, hidup harus memuliakan Tuhan dan kembali lagi nanti kepada Dia mempertanggung jawabkan semua perbuatan kita di bumi ....
This perspective does not make us santai2 dalam hidup ... malah sebaliknya, we should do our best untuk memuliakan Tuhan ... dalam kerja, keluarga, relasi ama teman2, penginjilan, etc ... Mumpung masih hidup, enjoy dah semua masalah, problems, berkat Tuhan, pacaran, keluarga, etc ... hehe ... soalnya nanti kalo udah mati ga bisa lagi dah ... :)
Apa toh arti hidup? Kadang ada sedih, ada senang ... ada tertawa ada kekecewaan ... semua itu hal biasa dan Tuhan is in control of everything ... Ada sukses, ada juga kegagalan .... Ga ada sesuatu yg bisa dibanggain gitu loo .. Manusia sibuk2 mencari sesuatu yg suatu hari bakal lenyap ... ga bakal dibawa mati ...
Kenapa kita hidup? Bener, kita emang bisa enjoy waktu2 di dunia .. tapi itu pun singkat banget dan seems sia2 ... I am about to travel to europe .. excited sih excited banget, cuman setelah dipikir lagi itu juga adalah sesuatu yg biasa dalam hidup ini ....
Luckily for me, alkitab adalah satu2nya yg menjawab apa arti hidup ini .... Hidup adalah untuk memuliakan Tuhan dan enjoy Him forever ... Sisanya adalah bonus ... whether it's teman2 baik, kekayaan, berkat, keluarga, pacar atau kesedihan, masalah, problems, penyakit, etc ... Kita manusia datang dari Tuhan, hidup harus memuliakan Tuhan dan kembali lagi nanti kepada Dia mempertanggung jawabkan semua perbuatan kita di bumi ....
This perspective does not make us santai2 dalam hidup ... malah sebaliknya, we should do our best untuk memuliakan Tuhan ... dalam kerja, keluarga, relasi ama teman2, penginjilan, etc ... Mumpung masih hidup, enjoy dah semua masalah, problems, berkat Tuhan, pacaran, keluarga, etc ... hehe ... soalnya nanti kalo udah mati ga bisa lagi dah ... :)
Saturday, May 13, 2006
My Personality
What is my personality? Some people say it's melancholy-sanguin ... Some say that I am melancholy-choleric ... Is it important to know? Is it just to know yourself better and to suppress the bad side of my personality when they come up? or is it just to understand other people with different types of personality? (for reference see
Well, here is a self assessment of myself .. hehehe .. pls let me know if it is wrong!
I think I learn to understand myself these past couple of years ... Basically, I have a strong emotional side in me even though I do not show them sometimes ... But because of that I learn to appreciate other people and understand them better ... I also have some leadership dominance in me ... It comes up when needed and I can become really efficient in what I do ... I can achieve what I put my mind into and I feel like conquering the world .. hehe .. Don't even try to fight against me when I am in this state (rarely come out though) ... :) ... But usually my melancholy side prevents me of doing bad things to other people .... I am also naturally the center of attention when I am in the crowd unless there is someone who is more sanguin than me and the crowd must be a group that I am comfortable with ... I like to joke around with the people that I trust and people might view me of being not so serious ... That's probably the sanguin part of me .... But some matters I consider as dead serious and I will not be a sanguin when dealing with those matters ...
Overall, maybe I am melancholy-choleric-sanguin type ... Does it matter though? I am glad that God has accepted me as I am and I can feel Him working in me nowadays to make me more like Him ... As I said in prev entry that He is with me and that's the most important thing ... So whatever personality that we have God is changing His child to become perfect like Him and that is the HOPE that we have .... Now, I really long for that day to come, just like when I first became a christian ... hehehe ..
Well, here is a self assessment of myself .. hehehe .. pls let me know if it is wrong!
I think I learn to understand myself these past couple of years ... Basically, I have a strong emotional side in me even though I do not show them sometimes ... But because of that I learn to appreciate other people and understand them better ... I also have some leadership dominance in me ... It comes up when needed and I can become really efficient in what I do ... I can achieve what I put my mind into and I feel like conquering the world .. hehe .. Don't even try to fight against me when I am in this state (rarely come out though) ... :) ... But usually my melancholy side prevents me of doing bad things to other people .... I am also naturally the center of attention when I am in the crowd unless there is someone who is more sanguin than me and the crowd must be a group that I am comfortable with ... I like to joke around with the people that I trust and people might view me of being not so serious ... That's probably the sanguin part of me .... But some matters I consider as dead serious and I will not be a sanguin when dealing with those matters ...
Overall, maybe I am melancholy-choleric-sanguin type ... Does it matter though? I am glad that God has accepted me as I am and I can feel Him working in me nowadays to make me more like Him ... As I said in prev entry that He is with me and that's the most important thing ... So whatever personality that we have God is changing His child to become perfect like Him and that is the HOPE that we have .... Now, I really long for that day to come, just like when I first became a christian ... hehehe ..
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
First scholarship + bonuses
Yippie, thank God I got the first scholarship to go to Holland ... Walaupun ga banyak, but ok la buat tiket pesawat and travelling ... Ngerasa thankful banget nget nget, soalnya I did not expect this. They said earlier that the scholarship was not even opened for postgrad ...
Got some bonuses as well from work which is more more more than enough to support me while I am away ... Waktu itu sempat kuatir about biaya and all that, but God provides somehow ... With God, sometimes he gives, sometimes he does not ... Even when he does not, I want to learn to trust Him ...
I guess this is a little nice surprise in my life!
Got some bonuses as well from work which is more more more than enough to support me while I am away ... Waktu itu sempat kuatir about biaya and all that, but God provides somehow ... With God, sometimes he gives, sometimes he does not ... Even when he does not, I want to learn to trust Him ...
I guess this is a little nice surprise in my life!
Sunday, April 30, 2006
Write about His love
As I saw my previous blog entries, I felt that I only write if I feel sad, discontent, worried, unhappy and so on ... I guess that was a part of me being emotional and I tried to express them that way ... I rarely write about the good thing that God has done in my life ... The wonderful, unthinkable grace that I received this past year or so ... The bible says: Think about His love .. hehehe ... I do think about it, but rarely write about it ... So here it is, Write about His love ...
Thank God about his faithfulness in my life ... His guidance and His presence is the most important thing in my life right now ... To be with God, to walk with God and to enjoy Him everyday is so wonderful ... I learnt so much this past year from experiencing different things in my life and to learn trusting God along the way ... I stumbled, Yes, I fell, Yes, I sinned, Yes, but God from time to time never reject me everytime I come back ... His Words always remind me all the time and I am grateful for that ... When I asked for wisdom, He did give it to me from time to time ...
It was 26 years ago when I was born in Bondowoso, a small town in Java ... Hehe ... Yes, I just had a birthday on April 28 ... Had a wonderful birthday, small and sweet, surrounded by friends and family ... Got a pressie, 4 birthday cards, 3 birthday cakes and lots and lots and lots of messages from friends, flatmate and parents .. Thanks for many wishes and thoughts friends ... *terharu* ... *sob* *sob* ... But I am really glad to have known you all, seriously... You guys are part of God's blessing in my life ... it's like an extended family. I will cherish it forever ... sampe tua ingettttt ... seneng banget to have such good friends and parents and families ..
Regarding the exchange, I am still preparing a lot of things, but everything is starting to fall in place and I will definitely come back to Sydney if God willing ... Work has been busy, but things are starting to cool down a bit ... School is rather easy this semester, and I had no problem whatsoever with that .. one subject is a bit too easy for me ... Bible study is still unclear to me which group I will be leading for next semester ... Still praying about it and don't really know about what is going to happen ..
Fiuhh ... So lastly, Pujilah Tuhan, sebab kasih setiaNya, DARI SELAMA-LAMANYA sampe SELAMA-LAMANYA kepada orang yg takut akan Dia (Mzm ?) ...
Thank God about his faithfulness in my life ... His guidance and His presence is the most important thing in my life right now ... To be with God, to walk with God and to enjoy Him everyday is so wonderful ... I learnt so much this past year from experiencing different things in my life and to learn trusting God along the way ... I stumbled, Yes, I fell, Yes, I sinned, Yes, but God from time to time never reject me everytime I come back ... His Words always remind me all the time and I am grateful for that ... When I asked for wisdom, He did give it to me from time to time ...
It was 26 years ago when I was born in Bondowoso, a small town in Java ... Hehe ... Yes, I just had a birthday on April 28 ... Had a wonderful birthday, small and sweet, surrounded by friends and family ... Got a pressie, 4 birthday cards, 3 birthday cakes and lots and lots and lots of messages from friends, flatmate and parents .. Thanks for many wishes and thoughts friends ... *terharu* ... *sob* *sob* ... But I am really glad to have known you all, seriously... You guys are part of God's blessing in my life ... it's like an extended family. I will cherish it forever ... sampe tua ingettttt ... seneng banget to have such good friends and parents and families ..
Regarding the exchange, I am still preparing a lot of things, but everything is starting to fall in place and I will definitely come back to Sydney if God willing ... Work has been busy, but things are starting to cool down a bit ... School is rather easy this semester, and I had no problem whatsoever with that .. one subject is a bit too easy for me ... Bible study is still unclear to me which group I will be leading for next semester ... Still praying about it and don't really know about what is going to happen ..
Fiuhh ... So lastly, Pujilah Tuhan, sebab kasih setiaNya, DARI SELAMA-LAMANYA sampe SELAMA-LAMANYA kepada orang yg takut akan Dia (Mzm ?) ...
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
stress banget
Mann, I feel like crying ... so many problems and tugas2 menanti di depan ... I don't feel like working, studying, pelayanan, or doing anything at all ... Just wanna sleep in my bed kalo bisa ...
But tugas still is tugas and masalah harus dihadapi .... so until then I wanna learn to persevere and ask for God's wisdom ...
But tugas still is tugas and masalah harus dihadapi .... so until then I wanna learn to persevere and ask for God's wisdom ...
Thursday, March 23, 2006
Lord, I am scared
Lord, I am scared ...
I am scared of many things around me ...
It's like being in the middle of the cross roads ... not knowing where to turn ...
Not knowing where to go and what to do ...
I am afraid of teaching and speaking Your Word but not putting it into practice myself ...
I am scared of becoming a hypocrite and putting your Name into shame ....
So many things I've said about You in front of other people .....
Only You and You Alone know my heart .....
You alone know me because You made me .....
You look into the deepest heart of men ....
Keep my heart O Lord
Keep it true and true
I know Your Word is true
Sanctify me in Your truth ....
Make me brave and strong like a warrior ....
Please give me strength when I am weak .....
Make me committed to live Your way ...
So I might declare Your name among my love ones and my enemies ....
Joshua 1:9 - Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."
I am scared of many things around me ...
It's like being in the middle of the cross roads ... not knowing where to turn ...
Not knowing where to go and what to do ...
I am afraid of teaching and speaking Your Word but not putting it into practice myself ...
I am scared of becoming a hypocrite and putting your Name into shame ....
So many things I've said about You in front of other people .....
Only You and You Alone know my heart .....
You alone know me because You made me .....
You look into the deepest heart of men ....
Keep my heart O Lord
Keep it true and true
I know Your Word is true
Sanctify me in Your truth ....
Make me brave and strong like a warrior ....
Please give me strength when I am weak .....
Make me committed to live Your way ...
So I might declare Your name among my love ones and my enemies ....
Joshua 1:9 - Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."
Thursday, March 09, 2006
Hope
Hari hari ku penuh dengan ini dan itu
Banyaaakkkk banget
Buatku tenggelam ke dalam lumpur kehidupan
Kehilangan arah mata angin menderu
Mau kemana aku ini pikirku
Hal hal kecil sepele pun ku tak sanggup hadapi
Kapankah ini berakhir
Dimanakah aku kan berakhir
Kucoba berdiri lagi ...
Kataku "Ayo bangunnnnn, jangan tidur terus"
Ku mencoba naiki lumpur lumpur yang menimbun
Kulihat diriku dan badanku di cermin kehidupan
kotor dan penuh kotoran bau pesing
Tiada lagi diriku yang kukenal dulu ...
Ditengah kekotoran diri ku berteriak HOPE HOPE HOPE
Teriakan yang keluar dari benak seorang yang kotor dan bau
Hope akan hari bahagia di depan
Hari dimana tiada lagi kotoran kotoran bau pesing
Hari dimana lumpur lumpur ditimbun kemuliaan
Kemuliaan Allah juru selamat ku
Banyaaakkkk banget
Buatku tenggelam ke dalam lumpur kehidupan
Kehilangan arah mata angin menderu
Mau kemana aku ini pikirku
Hal hal kecil sepele pun ku tak sanggup hadapi
Kapankah ini berakhir
Dimanakah aku kan berakhir
Kucoba berdiri lagi ...
Kataku "Ayo bangunnnnn, jangan tidur terus"
Ku mencoba naiki lumpur lumpur yang menimbun
Kulihat diriku dan badanku di cermin kehidupan
kotor dan penuh kotoran bau pesing
Tiada lagi diriku yang kukenal dulu ...
Ditengah kekotoran diri ku berteriak HOPE HOPE HOPE
Teriakan yang keluar dari benak seorang yang kotor dan bau
Hope akan hari bahagia di depan
Hari dimana tiada lagi kotoran kotoran bau pesing
Hari dimana lumpur lumpur ditimbun kemuliaan
Kemuliaan Allah juru selamat ku
Saturday, March 04, 2006
Man of integrity + accountability
Just wanna share one important point from Men's Katoomba Convention (MKC) that I attended today ...
There is a saying out there that when a man is pushed to his limit, the true character will come out ... It is at the time of crisis when (un)godliness can be seen at its clearest ... I think there is an element of truth in that statement ...
Well, I went to MKC today with several of my church's buddies (thanks to all the drivers ^_^) and the topic was about the sermon on the mount ... One thing that strike me was the talk about being a man of integrity ... I knew about the topic before and the importance of being the man of God with integrity, but it is good to be reminded about it again and I learnt a lot about the topic as well today ...
These days, we need men in whatever profession they profess to live their lives full of integrity ... According to what Jesus said in the sermon on the mount, a man of integrity live his life as if he is standing in front of ONE audience, that is God the Father Himself ...
Pray secretly, Give secretly, Fast secretly, so your Father in heaven sees it and reward you ...
It's like living in constant awareness of God's presence and fearing Him ... Not living our lives in front of MANY audiences for the purpose of them seeing how good we are, but we live our lives for God so when others see our good deeds, the ONE audience will receive praise and honour ...
I realize that integrity comes with hard work and discipline ... it does not come easily like snapping our fingers ... We need other christians to keep us accountable to God ... This is where the concept of accountability is important, even in business world these days ... I know that the head of Macquarie Bank Financial Services Group emphasizes the concept of accountability for its employees ... Maybe it is a good idea to have other men that we can trust as a christian to keep us accountable in our daily life and struggle to live a life full of integrity ...
The world longs for a man with integrity in their thoughts, behaviour and words ... Have we stood up for the challenge, not just knowing in our head, but work hard to achieve it with the Holy Spirit's help? May this be an challenge to all of you ...
There is a saying out there that when a man is pushed to his limit, the true character will come out ... It is at the time of crisis when (un)godliness can be seen at its clearest ... I think there is an element of truth in that statement ...
Well, I went to MKC today with several of my church's buddies (thanks to all the drivers ^_^) and the topic was about the sermon on the mount ... One thing that strike me was the talk about being a man of integrity ... I knew about the topic before and the importance of being the man of God with integrity, but it is good to be reminded about it again and I learnt a lot about the topic as well today ...
These days, we need men in whatever profession they profess to live their lives full of integrity ... According to what Jesus said in the sermon on the mount, a man of integrity live his life as if he is standing in front of ONE audience, that is God the Father Himself ...
Pray secretly, Give secretly, Fast secretly, so your Father in heaven sees it and reward you ...
It's like living in constant awareness of God's presence and fearing Him ... Not living our lives in front of MANY audiences for the purpose of them seeing how good we are, but we live our lives for God so when others see our good deeds, the ONE audience will receive praise and honour ...
I realize that integrity comes with hard work and discipline ... it does not come easily like snapping our fingers ... We need other christians to keep us accountable to God ... This is where the concept of accountability is important, even in business world these days ... I know that the head of Macquarie Bank Financial Services Group emphasizes the concept of accountability for its employees ... Maybe it is a good idea to have other men that we can trust as a christian to keep us accountable in our daily life and struggle to live a life full of integrity ...
The world longs for a man with integrity in their thoughts, behaviour and words ... Have we stood up for the challenge, not just knowing in our head, but work hard to achieve it with the Holy Spirit's help? May this be an challenge to all of you ...
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
Finally, summer course had ended
Glad to have finished one summer subject ... The exam was very hard and I was "pasrah" after finishing the paper ... I hope I did well ...
Aside from that, my life has been eventful lately ... There are so many good things that God has given me and I am thankful for that ... So many things that I want to share here, but just don't know where to start ...Maybe later when time permits ...
Aside from that, my life has been eventful lately ... There are so many good things that God has given me and I am thankful for that ... So many things that I want to share here, but just don't know where to start ...Maybe later when time permits ...
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
Tag four
Since I am tagged by Rose and did not understand what it meant until I traced the person that tag Rose, so here we go ... :)
Four jobs I’ve ever had in my life:
- My Donald dining and cooking
- Research assistant at UNSW
- Programmer at Holocentric
- BA at Coin Software
Four movies I can watch over and over:
- Gokusen
- Naruto
- Gundam seed
- H2
Four TV shows I love to watch:
- Premiere league highlights
- SBS World news,
- Australian idol
- Amazing Race
Four places I have lived:
- Bondowoso
- Malang
- Surabaya
- Sydney
Four places I have been on vacation:
- Sydney
- Bali
- Singapore
- Holland + Europe (this year!!)
Four websites I visit daily:
- http://www.soccernet.com
- http://www.smh.com.au
- http://www.jawapos.com
- http://www.google.com
Four of my favourite foods:
- Hurricane ribs
- Northpoint beef laksa and chicken hainam
- KFC Indo
- Subway (eat fresh)
Four places I would rather be right now:
- I don't want to be anywhere else ... I am happy where I am now ...
Four people I am tagging:
- Jesslyn
- Jenny
- Hanvy
- Felix
Four jobs I’ve ever had in my life:
- My Donald dining and cooking
- Research assistant at UNSW
- Programmer at Holocentric
- BA at Coin Software
Four movies I can watch over and over:
- Gokusen
- Naruto
- Gundam seed
- H2
Four TV shows I love to watch:
- Premiere league highlights
- SBS World news,
- Australian idol
- Amazing Race
Four places I have lived:
- Bondowoso
- Malang
- Surabaya
- Sydney
Four places I have been on vacation:
- Sydney
- Bali
- Singapore
- Holland + Europe (this year!!)
Four websites I visit daily:
- http://www.soccernet.com
- http://www.smh.com.au
- http://www.jawapos.com
- http://www.google.com
Four of my favourite foods:
- Hurricane ribs
- Northpoint beef laksa and chicken hainam
- KFC Indo
- Subway (eat fresh)
Four places I would rather be right now:
- I don't want to be anywhere else ... I am happy where I am now ...
Four people I am tagging:
- Jesslyn
- Jenny
- Hanvy
- Felix
My heart is troubled
When you have to do the right thing, but it hurts the other person, would you do it?
Sunday, February 05, 2006
Song no 1: Tuhan itu...
Tuhan itu kekuatanku dan mazmurku
Ia telah menjadi keselamatanku
Ia Allahku, kupuji Dia
Tuhan itu pahlawan perang
Tuhan, itulah namaNya
Siapa yang seperti Engkau diantara para allah. ya Tuhan
siapakah seperti Engkau, mulia karena kekudusanMu
menakutkan karena perbuatanMu yg masyhur
Dengan kasih setiaMu Engkau menuntun umat yang telah Kau tebus
Dengan kekuatanMu engkau membimbingNya ke tempat kediamanMu yang kudus
Bangsa-bangsa mendengarNya dan menjadi takut
Halleluyah, Tuhan memerintah kekal selamanya.
Ia telah menjadi keselamatanku
Ia Allahku, kupuji Dia
Tuhan itu pahlawan perang
Tuhan, itulah namaNya
Siapa yang seperti Engkau diantara para allah. ya Tuhan
siapakah seperti Engkau, mulia karena kekudusanMu
menakutkan karena perbuatanMu yg masyhur
Dengan kasih setiaMu Engkau menuntun umat yang telah Kau tebus
Dengan kekuatanMu engkau membimbingNya ke tempat kediamanMu yang kudus
Bangsa-bangsa mendengarNya dan menjadi takut
Halleluyah, Tuhan memerintah kekal selamanya.
Saturday, January 14, 2006
Jangan kuatir
These days, I call home almost every week ... and usually I talk with mum ... One thing that I notice that everytime we speaks, she always worry about me and my brother ... THe bottom line is she wants us to be established in terms of financial and since I and my brother are still studying, it worries her a lot ...
I really can understand her feeling, but at the same time I realize it's wrong to do that ... It's unhealthy and not helpful at all ... Many times I listen to her stories, complaints, struggles .. I listen and listen and I learnt that being parents I will probably face the same struggles later .... The last time I told her that I am worried too, but at the same time, I want to learn to entrust my life to Him .. Whenever I am afraid, I trust ... I said to her gently, "ada Bapa di surga memelihara kok, jadi ga usah terlalu kuatir" ...
As for me, I am worried about my life too ... I don't know what is going to happen in 1 or 2 years time, let alone tomorrow ... One thing that om Joni said, the opposite of faith is not no faith but worry .. So I want to start this year positively, knowing that ada Father in heaven yg selalu memelihara ... Pray for me pls! thanks ...
I really can understand her feeling, but at the same time I realize it's wrong to do that ... It's unhealthy and not helpful at all ... Many times I listen to her stories, complaints, struggles .. I listen and listen and I learnt that being parents I will probably face the same struggles later .... The last time I told her that I am worried too, but at the same time, I want to learn to entrust my life to Him .. Whenever I am afraid, I trust ... I said to her gently, "ada Bapa di surga memelihara kok, jadi ga usah terlalu kuatir" ...
As for me, I am worried about my life too ... I don't know what is going to happen in 1 or 2 years time, let alone tomorrow ... One thing that om Joni said, the opposite of faith is not no faith but worry .. So I want to start this year positively, knowing that ada Father in heaven yg selalu memelihara ... Pray for me pls! thanks ...
Friday, January 13, 2006
Another week has passed
What have I done this week yah? mostly work, study and going out .... hmm ... I have not been doing some reading for the summer course ... must start soon ....
Tomorrow morning I will go for basketball .. yuhu ... and monday as well ... I guess it's a good way to start 2006 ... getting fit hehe ...
Tomorrow morning I will go for basketball .. yuhu ... and monday as well ... I guess it's a good way to start 2006 ... getting fit hehe ...
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
Saturday, January 07, 2006
Next week is basketball week + sport
Basket basketttt next week !!! ama temen kerja, tris dkk, and rio dkk kalo emang pada mau ..... I've also instructed my parents to bring my badminton + tennis rackets here when Jun comes back .... it should be good ... I wanna be fit ... ^^ .. and thin ... haha
Back to normal life - 1st week of 2006
It's been a week since my life back to normal .... Work is starting to get busier than pre-new year ... I have been assigned to one big project for Westpac and it's gonna get a lot busy ... But I don't mind really, I am excited actually ... Get to work with some excellent financial planners, and project managers from Westpac ... It should be exciting to see how they work and manage things ...
Uni has started as well and this summer I am taking FINS5516 ... 2 lectures per week and one tutorial should keep me busy for a while, but everything is good ... I have bought the textbook (second hand) and ready to roll ... My friend said the subject won't be too hard, so fingers crossed !! ^^ ... Next semester will hopefully be easy too ... Only taking one of the easiest subject in MCOM (according to another friend) FINS5512 and I feel this year will be much more relaxed than last year in terms of study ..
There are many things which I should do in the next month or two ... My passport is expiring late January and I need to find time to extend it ... I might move house and it requires lots of cleaning up and searching for a unit of course ... I must also prepare for my exchange mid of this year .. Not sure how I will tell my manager, but I'll manage ... Life goes on and as much as I love the people in my workplace, going to Holland is not such a bad idea at all ... I'll definitely keep in contact with all my friends ... They are all good buddies afterall ....
Bible study is starting soon ... I am so excited ... Not sure how it would turn out after such a long break .... I'll definitely miss andy ... He was a very good friend and definitely eager to learn about God's word .... I am not sure how my members feel when I am going to go exchange ... Maybe I should ask them .... Maybe I'll talk to them about it .... But aside from that, this semester is definitely exciting ... I'll try to prepare as much as I can from now, not just the material, but other things as well ...
Thinking ahead, I am not sure what I will be doing after coming back from exchange .... I might take a break and try to think what I want to do .... Who knows what will happen? Next year I'll be 26 and it may be is a good age .... ^^ ... Whatever happen happen lah .... Mau belajar pasrah dan berserah ...
Uni has started as well and this summer I am taking FINS5516 ... 2 lectures per week and one tutorial should keep me busy for a while, but everything is good ... I have bought the textbook (second hand) and ready to roll ... My friend said the subject won't be too hard, so fingers crossed !! ^^ ... Next semester will hopefully be easy too ... Only taking one of the easiest subject in MCOM (according to another friend) FINS5512 and I feel this year will be much more relaxed than last year in terms of study ..
There are many things which I should do in the next month or two ... My passport is expiring late January and I need to find time to extend it ... I might move house and it requires lots of cleaning up and searching for a unit of course ... I must also prepare for my exchange mid of this year .. Not sure how I will tell my manager, but I'll manage ... Life goes on and as much as I love the people in my workplace, going to Holland is not such a bad idea at all ... I'll definitely keep in contact with all my friends ... They are all good buddies afterall ....
Bible study is starting soon ... I am so excited ... Not sure how it would turn out after such a long break .... I'll definitely miss andy ... He was a very good friend and definitely eager to learn about God's word .... I am not sure how my members feel when I am going to go exchange ... Maybe I should ask them .... Maybe I'll talk to them about it .... But aside from that, this semester is definitely exciting ... I'll try to prepare as much as I can from now, not just the material, but other things as well ...
Thinking ahead, I am not sure what I will be doing after coming back from exchange .... I might take a break and try to think what I want to do .... Who knows what will happen? Next year I'll be 26 and it may be is a good age .... ^^ ... Whatever happen happen lah .... Mau belajar pasrah dan berserah ...
Sunday, January 01, 2006
2006 - If God willing
Many times I forget
Many times I fail to remember
Many times I put my hope in my ability
Many times I look to men than to the Almighty
I often said "I can do that alone"
Even when I say "I need you God" infront of others
BUT
This year if God willing
I will do this and that ...
This year if God makes it possible
I want my family to know Christ
This year if God gives consent
I want to leave whatever the things that entangle me in 2005 and move forward
This year if God let it happen
I want to win as many of my friends who does not know Christ
This year if God authorise it
I want to put my hope FULLY on Christ
This year if God permits
I will complete my study ...
This year if God allows
I will go to Holland and come back ...
If God willing .......................
Thank God for His Word ... I was blessed with a reminder from Church's sermon at the end of 2005 and the start of 2006 about many things ...
I guess, bye bye 2005 and welcome 2006 ... Hip Hip Horrayyyy!! Dor dor dorrr *Fireworks*
Many times I fail to remember
Many times I put my hope in my ability
Many times I look to men than to the Almighty
I often said "I can do that alone"
Even when I say "I need you God" infront of others
BUT
This year if God willing
I will do this and that ...
This year if God makes it possible
I want my family to know Christ
This year if God gives consent
I want to leave whatever the things that entangle me in 2005 and move forward
This year if God let it happen
I want to win as many of my friends who does not know Christ
This year if God authorise it
I want to put my hope FULLY on Christ
This year if God permits
I will complete my study ...
This year if God allows
I will go to Holland and come back ...
If God willing .......................
Thank God for His Word ... I was blessed with a reminder from Church's sermon at the end of 2005 and the start of 2006 about many things ...
I guess, bye bye 2005 and welcome 2006 ... Hip Hip Horrayyyy!! Dor dor dorrr *Fireworks*
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
kenapa orang dewasa susah banget put down their pride ya?
Gengsi tinggi, ga mau disalahkan, kedudukan dalam masyarakat, nama baik ... Gara-gara itu semua I learnt that masalah kecil bisa jadi gede .... masalah gede jadi tambah gede deh ....
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Enjoy the Jervis photos deh ...
Btw, just realized I did not take photos waktu kita di beach .. Jervis bay kok ga ada photo lautnya? hahahha ... I guess most of the time di pantai I already spent it playing volley ball or swimming .. hehehe ... But thanks for the trip again .. Ayo ayo .. share dong photos2 nya .... tengkiu ... ^^
Everyone ... @ Jervis Bay - Cheers
Jervis Bay trip .... thanks for the trip everyone ... It was enjoyable bangettt ...
Nasihat2 praktis di akhir taun for myself
Hendaklah kasih itu jangan pura2. Jauhilah yang jahat dan lakukanlah yang baik
Hendaklah kamu saling mengasihi sebagai saudara dan saling mendahului dalam memberi hormat
Janganlah hendaknya kerajinanmu kendor, biarlah rohmu menyala2 dan layanilah Tuhan
Bersukacitalah dalam pengharapan, sabarlah dalam kesesakan, bertekunlah dalam doa
Bantulah dalam kekurangan orang2 kudus dan usahakanlah dirimu untuk selalu memberikan tumpangan
Berkatilah siapa yang menganiaya kamu, berkatilah dan jangan mengutuk
Bersukacitalah dengan orang yang bersukacita, dan menangislah dengan orang yang menangis
Hendaklah kamu sehati sepikir dalam hidupmu bersama; janganlah kamu memikirkan perkara2 yang tinggi, tetapi arahkanlah dirimu kepada perkara2 yang sederhana
Janganlah menganggap dirimu pandai
Janganlah membalas kejahatan dengan kejahatan, lakukanlah apa yang baik bagi semua orang
Sedapat2nya kalau hal itu bergantung padamu, hiduplah dalam perdamaian dengan semua orang
Janganlah kamu sendiri menuntut pembalasan, tetapi berilah tempat kepada murka Allah, sebab ada tertulis: Pembalasan itu adalah hakKu. Akulah yang akan menuntut pembalasan. Tetapi jika seterumu lapar, berilah dia makan; jika ia haus, berilah dia minum. Dengan demikian kamu menumpukkan bara api diatas kepalanya.
Janganlah kamu kalah terhadap kejahatan, tetapi kalahkanlah kejahatan dengan kebaikan!
Hendaklah kamu saling mengasihi sebagai saudara dan saling mendahului dalam memberi hormat
Janganlah hendaknya kerajinanmu kendor, biarlah rohmu menyala2 dan layanilah Tuhan
Bersukacitalah dalam pengharapan, sabarlah dalam kesesakan, bertekunlah dalam doa
Bantulah dalam kekurangan orang2 kudus dan usahakanlah dirimu untuk selalu memberikan tumpangan
Berkatilah siapa yang menganiaya kamu, berkatilah dan jangan mengutuk
Bersukacitalah dengan orang yang bersukacita, dan menangislah dengan orang yang menangis
Hendaklah kamu sehati sepikir dalam hidupmu bersama; janganlah kamu memikirkan perkara2 yang tinggi, tetapi arahkanlah dirimu kepada perkara2 yang sederhana
Janganlah menganggap dirimu pandai
Janganlah membalas kejahatan dengan kejahatan, lakukanlah apa yang baik bagi semua orang
Sedapat2nya kalau hal itu bergantung padamu, hiduplah dalam perdamaian dengan semua orang
Janganlah kamu sendiri menuntut pembalasan, tetapi berilah tempat kepada murka Allah, sebab ada tertulis: Pembalasan itu adalah hakKu. Akulah yang akan menuntut pembalasan. Tetapi jika seterumu lapar, berilah dia makan; jika ia haus, berilah dia minum. Dengan demikian kamu menumpukkan bara api diatas kepalanya.
Janganlah kamu kalah terhadap kejahatan, tetapi kalahkanlah kejahatan dengan kebaikan!
Sunday, December 25, 2005
Relationships! - where to go from here?
I've been enjoying myself for the past 8 months not thinking about relationship and just taking it easy ... I concentrated fully on my study, work and ministry... I had lots of fun, did lots of sports, meeting new people, building friendships, etc ... I approached people with no intention of building a relationships whatsoever ... Basically, I call these days, "Just friends period"!! ^_^
Well, of course there's pressure from all directions ... Friends started to ask me why don't I start looking? ... My pastor also asked the same thing ... He wanted to talk to me about it for so many times, but I meet him very rarely anyway and we ended up not talking about it ... I shared with my flatmate A and he understands and supports me .. My parents pressured me so many times ... But I did not move one inch from what I've already decided ... I will do what I have decided and stay true to myself without disrespecting those people who care about me ... The next time I start looking, I will give all my heart to it .. ^^
At the moment, I want to enjoy my time as single ... that's why I am not looking ... What's the point if I am not serious about it? Just for fun?? I can't do that although there is plenty of opportunities if I want to ...
The second reason is I can't have a relationships now since I am so busy with uni .. How am I suppose to have a relationships if I can't give my time to the girl that I love? Uni, work and ministry have consumed all my time .....
The third reason is I am going to EUROPE next year ... Yes, I have decided to go and will start preparing my departure ...
Last but not least, the reason of why I decided to stay single is because I still like a girl that I used to like ... I've tried so many times to get to know other girls that have the "potential" (have a heart that loves God and pengertian), but I guess love is very strange ... I don't feel the same way as I felt towards her ... I think I'll wait for her a little longer ... If it does not work out by then, it's ok because that does not mean that God hates me ... I believe God has beautiful plan for us ... and I trust that because of what I've been through these past couple of years ... No, not just these past couple of years, but throughout my life ...
I guess, I'll wait kalo Tuhan kehendaki ... Til' then ... Ja ne ..
Well, of course there's pressure from all directions ... Friends started to ask me why don't I start looking? ... My pastor also asked the same thing ... He wanted to talk to me about it for so many times, but I meet him very rarely anyway and we ended up not talking about it ... I shared with my flatmate A and he understands and supports me .. My parents pressured me so many times ... But I did not move one inch from what I've already decided ... I will do what I have decided and stay true to myself without disrespecting those people who care about me ... The next time I start looking, I will give all my heart to it .. ^^
At the moment, I want to enjoy my time as single ... that's why I am not looking ... What's the point if I am not serious about it? Just for fun?? I can't do that although there is plenty of opportunities if I want to ...
The second reason is I can't have a relationships now since I am so busy with uni .. How am I suppose to have a relationships if I can't give my time to the girl that I love? Uni, work and ministry have consumed all my time .....
The third reason is I am going to EUROPE next year ... Yes, I have decided to go and will start preparing my departure ...
Last but not least, the reason of why I decided to stay single is because I still like a girl that I used to like ... I've tried so many times to get to know other girls that have the "potential" (have a heart that loves God and pengertian), but I guess love is very strange ... I don't feel the same way as I felt towards her ... I think I'll wait for her a little longer ... If it does not work out by then, it's ok because that does not mean that God hates me ... I believe God has beautiful plan for us ... and I trust that because of what I've been through these past couple of years ... No, not just these past couple of years, but throughout my life ...
I guess, I'll wait kalo Tuhan kehendaki ... Til' then ... Ja ne ..
Saturday, December 24, 2005
Bleach theme song <--- sugoi
Sugitekita hibi zenbu de
ima no atashi nan da yo
kantan ni ikanai kara ikiteyukeru
Verse:
Isogiashi de surechigau hitotachi
yume wa kanaimashta ka
atashi mada mogaiteru
kodomo no koro ni modoru yori mo
ima o umaku ikitemitai yo
kowagari wa umaretsuki
Chorus:
hi no ataru basho ni dete
kono te o tsuyoku nigitte mita
ano basho ano toki wo kowashite
I can change my life
demo kokoro no nak subete o
totemo tsutaekirenai
kantan ni ikanai kara ikiteyukeru
ima no atashi nan da yo
kantan ni ikanai kara ikiteyukeru
Verse:
Isogiashi de surechigau hitotachi
yume wa kanaimashta ka
atashi mada mogaiteru
kodomo no koro ni modoru yori mo
ima o umaku ikitemitai yo
kowagari wa umaretsuki
Chorus:
hi no ataru basho ni dete
kono te o tsuyoku nigitte mita
ano basho ano toki wo kowashite
I can change my life
demo kokoro no nak subete o
totemo tsutaekirenai
kantan ni ikanai kara ikiteyukeru
Monday, December 19, 2005
Lawenbrau ... Mango Beer + pork knuckles
Peter, Susanto, Hilton, Bryan, Anton, Eric, Piew, Ritta, Anthony, Edward, Irene and me
With work mates at luna park .. Spinning machine ... That was cooll!
Hilton, me, Pene, Ahn, Hua, Yang, Ian, and Ritta
Friday, December 16, 2005
Should I go?
I've just been nominated by UNSW to go to Erasmus university next year ... I am inclined to go, after all it EUROPE man ... I want to see what it's like .. hehe .. but at the same time, it's hard to leave some things in Sydney ... My heart is probably still in Sydney and I don't want to leave it just like that ... There are many unfinished businesses here and It just doesn't feel good leaving it like that ...
2 of my friends have advised me to go ... my mum probably does not want me to go ... "it's a bit too far" she said among other reasons ... Not sure what my brother thinks ... Does he want me to go? What about my church friends? What about my work mates? we are getting closer and closer these days ... do lots of activities and sports together, etc ... More importantly, does God want me to go?
I need to find reasons why I am going ... "fun" is certainly not good enough ... Will I come back to Sydney once I finish? or should I go straight to indo? What will happen to me in Holland? Will I be ok?
2 of my friends have advised me to go ... my mum probably does not want me to go ... "it's a bit too far" she said among other reasons ... Not sure what my brother thinks ... Does he want me to go? What about my church friends? What about my work mates? we are getting closer and closer these days ... do lots of activities and sports together, etc ... More importantly, does God want me to go?
I need to find reasons why I am going ... "fun" is certainly not good enough ... Will I come back to Sydney once I finish? or should I go straight to indo? What will happen to me in Holland? Will I be ok?
Saturday, December 10, 2005
Random Update!
Yuhuuu .. Got my uni results yesterday .. It's a lot better than what I expected ... much better than last session and I've got nothing to complain considering all the stresses that I've been through ... Thank God ..
Yesterday I had xmas party with FSG Macquarie .. The food was good, Enjoyed it thoroughly .. Did a bit of dancing on the floor as well, but not too much ... hehehhehe ... The party has got a theme .. JUNGLE theme ... I heard they spent about $100,000+ for about 500 people . Rumour says it could be more .. :) .. It was nice and enjoyable time ... Can't wait for the photos on Monday .... We took hips of photos ... hueheuhue
Amazing race at pemuda is today ... But I don't think I can play the whole game ... Must help sunday school with music ..
I am suppose to go scuba diving today, but the medical came too late ... So I decided not to go ... But I got the medical now, I think I might go whenever I have time ..
Yesterday I had xmas party with FSG Macquarie .. The food was good, Enjoyed it thoroughly .. Did a bit of dancing on the floor as well, but not too much ... hehehhehe ... The party has got a theme .. JUNGLE theme ... I heard they spent about $100,000+ for about 500 people . Rumour says it could be more .. :) .. It was nice and enjoyable time ... Can't wait for the photos on Monday .... We took hips of photos ... hueheuhue
Amazing race at pemuda is today ... But I don't think I can play the whole game ... Must help sunday school with music ..
I am suppose to go scuba diving today, but the medical came too late ... So I decided not to go ... But I got the medical now, I think I might go whenever I have time ..
Memang enak jadi anak remaja (This song rocksss!!)
memang enak jadi anak remaja
tak ada masalah yang memberat
semuanya utuh penuh dengan tawa
setiap hasrat jiwa menggelora
*
tak akan kulupakan masa-masa ini
kan jadi awal kisah percintaan ini kan kumulai...
reff:
bebaskan aku oh mama
kuingin coba semua
hidupku tak berarti tanpa mencoba semua
benar salah takkan tertukar
kan kubuat dunia bangga
jadikan hidupku senang tanpa kekecewaan
memang aku masih mencari-cari
setiap titik pasti kuteliti
back to: * , reff
tak ada masalah yang memberat
semuanya utuh penuh dengan tawa
setiap hasrat jiwa menggelora
*
tak akan kulupakan masa-masa ini
kan jadi awal kisah percintaan ini kan kumulai...
reff:
bebaskan aku oh mama
kuingin coba semua
hidupku tak berarti tanpa mencoba semua
benar salah takkan tertukar
kan kubuat dunia bangga
jadikan hidupku senang tanpa kekecewaan
memang aku masih mencari-cari
setiap titik pasti kuteliti
back to: * , reff
Sunday, December 04, 2005
Meeting strangers!
I have met strangers who ask for my help during these past few weeks ... One of them was a young person who wanted to use my phone to message his boss to get paid ... He claimed that he did not have any money to recharge ... I was about to help him out, but after thinking more I was suspicious and asked him a couple of questions ... He was quite desparate .. I don't think I was in danger at all, but I just didn't want to get involved ... I thought "what if the boss message me back" ... "what if the boss is someone from mafia?" ... Then I refused to help him out coldly ...
I can be very COLD and CRUEL sometimes if I don't trust a person ... Trust is very expensive for me ... But after that, usually another part of me feel bad about it .. I thought: "What if that person really need the money?" "Has he eaten for the past couple of days" .. haha ... Anyway ...
I am just confused about what should I do when I meet a stranger asking for help ... I am no fool to know that some of them ask not because they are in need .. some of them ask for help to buy cigarette or drugs ... Being raised in country like Indonesia, I am also aware of crime triggerred by these sort of actions .... Sometimes I am just in a hurry and do not have time to help (like going to uni to study for exam).. ... But some of them DO genuinely ask for help
Another experience that I had happened today on my way to a salon ... I met someone who distributed a pamphlet about Jesus ... At first, I refused coldly again ... Meeting stranger sometimes scared me ... But after looking at what he did, I felt that I shouldn't do that .. He was a christian like me .. He sat in disabled chair distributing pamphlet about the gospel in front of so many people ... I felt moved and I spoke to him for a while ... He was a nice guy, maybe a good christian too ...
The point is, I want to be a blessing to strangers as well ... I remember there is a story in my church's bulletin about a program in television testing people's generosity and humanity ... The program tried to test people's humanity by using someone who pretend not to have money to go back home ... That someone then began asking money desparately ... The amount is not big at all, just enough to get back to his town with public transport, but no one was willing to give the money ... In the end, it was a beggar, old lady that gave him the money and she won the prize eventually ... She said something like this: "I am used to live in poverty and to be able to help out another human being who is in need is a priviledge .. " ... Mannn, when I read it I compared her to myself straight away ... Jauh bangett!!
Kepolosan dia dan ketulusan hatinya emang patut diacungi jempol ... I want to be someone yg polos like that .. I like people with a polos heart ... But at the same time I want to be smart as well ... or should I say wise ... Being loving and wise is the goal ... Afterall, I am still learning but I thought i might share my experience here ...
I can be very COLD and CRUEL sometimes if I don't trust a person ... Trust is very expensive for me ... But after that, usually another part of me feel bad about it .. I thought: "What if that person really need the money?" "Has he eaten for the past couple of days" .. haha ... Anyway ...
I am just confused about what should I do when I meet a stranger asking for help ... I am no fool to know that some of them ask not because they are in need .. some of them ask for help to buy cigarette or drugs ... Being raised in country like Indonesia, I am also aware of crime triggerred by these sort of actions .... Sometimes I am just in a hurry and do not have time to help (like going to uni to study for exam).. ... But some of them DO genuinely ask for help
Another experience that I had happened today on my way to a salon ... I met someone who distributed a pamphlet about Jesus ... At first, I refused coldly again ... Meeting stranger sometimes scared me ... But after looking at what he did, I felt that I shouldn't do that .. He was a christian like me .. He sat in disabled chair distributing pamphlet about the gospel in front of so many people ... I felt moved and I spoke to him for a while ... He was a nice guy, maybe a good christian too ...
The point is, I want to be a blessing to strangers as well ... I remember there is a story in my church's bulletin about a program in television testing people's generosity and humanity ... The program tried to test people's humanity by using someone who pretend not to have money to go back home ... That someone then began asking money desparately ... The amount is not big at all, just enough to get back to his town with public transport, but no one was willing to give the money ... In the end, it was a beggar, old lady that gave him the money and she won the prize eventually ... She said something like this: "I am used to live in poverty and to be able to help out another human being who is in need is a priviledge .. " ... Mannn, when I read it I compared her to myself straight away ... Jauh bangett!!
Kepolosan dia dan ketulusan hatinya emang patut diacungi jempol ... I want to be someone yg polos like that .. I like people with a polos heart ... But at the same time I want to be smart as well ... or should I say wise ... Being loving and wise is the goal ... Afterall, I am still learning but I thought i might share my experience here ...
Sunday, November 27, 2005
Kasih setia Tuhan (God's faithfulness)
When someone mention about the word "kasih setia Tuhan", the first thing that I remember is definitely a song with this lyrics:
Kasih setia Tuhan, didalam hidup ini
Tak pernah berkesudahan, slalu baru tiap pagi
Saat jalanku buntu, glap di seklilingku
.........
Love that song ... hehehe... I am just thankful that I can go through the year 2005, with all its ups and downs ... Finished exams for this year, and 2 more semester to go ... I feel God's been helping me with everything and his presence is the most important thing ... There was a good illustration in the sermon at church this morning ... A husband is satisfied with the wife, not because maybe she can cook well or serve the husband and the children well, but just the presence of a wife in the husband's life is the most important out of all ... The presence of a godly wife is what all christian husband should appreciate ...
Year 2005:
1. Stress pelayanan - kasih setia Tuhan
2. Stress belajar - kasih setia Tuhan
3. Stress kerjaan - kasih setia Tuhan
4. Stress relationship - kasih setia Tuhan
5. Friend's support - kasih setia Tuhan
6. Bible study group - kasih setia Tuhan
7. Growth in my christian life - kasih setia Tuhan
8. All troubles and hardship - kasih setia Tuhan
9. Reminder from God's word - kasih setia Tuhan
10. IPC - kasih setia Tuhan
11. Persekutuan pemuda - kasih setia Tuhan
12. Friends at uni and work - kasih setia Tuhan
13. Family - kasih setia Tuhan
14. A job - kasih setia Tuhan
15. Holiday - kasih setia Tuhan
Now I am in holiday mood .... uheuheuheueh ... played around with friends a lot these past couple of days ... had lots ... no ... TONS of fun ... This is also a blessing ... Kapan lagi bisa main2 kayak gini ... sedikit waktu lagi, and maybe I have a family to support and will not have time to play ... Now I just want to enjoy my holiday .... maybe reading books is a good idea, or I am thinking of doing a project for myself and my parent's shop in indo ... we'll see lah ... But definitely going out is in the agenda .. hohoho ...
Interested to buy "Narnia" by C.S Lewis ... heard that Alastairs have the series and I am thinking of buying as well ... I should enjoy reading stories like that ... Part of me is still a kid kok ... :)
Kasih setia Tuhan, didalam hidup ini
Tak pernah berkesudahan, slalu baru tiap pagi
Saat jalanku buntu, glap di seklilingku
.........
Love that song ... hehehe... I am just thankful that I can go through the year 2005, with all its ups and downs ... Finished exams for this year, and 2 more semester to go ... I feel God's been helping me with everything and his presence is the most important thing ... There was a good illustration in the sermon at church this morning ... A husband is satisfied with the wife, not because maybe she can cook well or serve the husband and the children well, but just the presence of a wife in the husband's life is the most important out of all ... The presence of a godly wife is what all christian husband should appreciate ...
Year 2005:
1. Stress pelayanan - kasih setia Tuhan
2. Stress belajar - kasih setia Tuhan
3. Stress kerjaan - kasih setia Tuhan
4. Stress relationship - kasih setia Tuhan
5. Friend's support - kasih setia Tuhan
6. Bible study group - kasih setia Tuhan
7. Growth in my christian life - kasih setia Tuhan
8. All troubles and hardship - kasih setia Tuhan
9. Reminder from God's word - kasih setia Tuhan
10. IPC - kasih setia Tuhan
11. Persekutuan pemuda - kasih setia Tuhan
12. Friends at uni and work - kasih setia Tuhan
13. Family - kasih setia Tuhan
14. A job - kasih setia Tuhan
15. Holiday - kasih setia Tuhan
Now I am in holiday mood .... uheuheuheueh ... played around with friends a lot these past couple of days ... had lots ... no ... TONS of fun ... This is also a blessing ... Kapan lagi bisa main2 kayak gini ... sedikit waktu lagi, and maybe I have a family to support and will not have time to play ... Now I just want to enjoy my holiday .... maybe reading books is a good idea, or I am thinking of doing a project for myself and my parent's shop in indo ... we'll see lah ... But definitely going out is in the agenda .. hohoho ...
Interested to buy "Narnia" by C.S Lewis ... heard that Alastairs have the series and I am thinking of buying as well ... I should enjoy reading stories like that ... Part of me is still a kid kok ... :)
Saturday, November 19, 2005
Pingin banget pulang indo
Huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ... Imagining indo just makes me really want to go back ... It's a combination of wanting to take a break, a good break with family, enjoying myself and my family presence .. Sadly I do not have enough annual leave and hence I am just staying here, taking 2 weeks break from work ...
I guess I just have to live with it ...
I guess I just have to live with it ...
Monday, November 14, 2005
Stressful time
I can't say that I hate exam, because I consider it as a stepping stone to a higher place .. cieh cieh ... But I have to admit, that it's overwhelmingly and stressfully depressing ...
Reading lecture notes and textbooks for hours and hours and hours in the postgraduate commerce lab makes my neck hurt and on top of that I really lack motivation .... J asked me on Sunday why do I study so hard? I guess I just have to do what I have to do ... It's as simple as that ... I decided to take this course and I need to be responsible for it .... By not studying will send a bad example to people around me ...
On another occassion, I saw God worked in a wonderful way ... V, N and J saw a movie in the cinema (exorcism) and they had questions in their mind about that movies ... After they saw the movie, they started asking me all sorts of questions about demon, whether feng shui is alright or not, what does religion mean to them, and so on ... I always wanted to at least talk to V and N and J about God more often ... But did not have time to do so even though I am going out a lot with them for dinner ... And when I have the opportunity I was reluctant to do that, the occassion was just not right ... Tried to answer all of their questions and surrender everything to God ... But from that, I learnt some important lessons:
1. No matter how hard you try to testify, it's God who is ultimately behind everything
2. Knowing about the bible is good, but it must be backed up with a changed life .... Living a consistent godly life is hard and needs conscious effort ...
3. We must always want to learn more about God ... Quoting H: The time when we stop being teachable is the time when we stop growing as a person ..
4. Surrender to God to the MAX, Effort to the MAX, and always be thankful to the MAX
5. Be ready all the time to say the hope that is in you ... When I was asked those questions, I was a bit down spiritually and a bit tired as well ... I thought I was not ready, but I am glad that I was so full of energy answering the questions given to me .. haha ..
Gengki gengki ..
Reading lecture notes and textbooks for hours and hours and hours in the postgraduate commerce lab makes my neck hurt and on top of that I really lack motivation .... J asked me on Sunday why do I study so hard? I guess I just have to do what I have to do ... It's as simple as that ... I decided to take this course and I need to be responsible for it .... By not studying will send a bad example to people around me ...
On another occassion, I saw God worked in a wonderful way ... V, N and J saw a movie in the cinema (exorcism) and they had questions in their mind about that movies ... After they saw the movie, they started asking me all sorts of questions about demon, whether feng shui is alright or not, what does religion mean to them, and so on ... I always wanted to at least talk to V and N and J about God more often ... But did not have time to do so even though I am going out a lot with them for dinner ... And when I have the opportunity I was reluctant to do that, the occassion was just not right ... Tried to answer all of their questions and surrender everything to God ... But from that, I learnt some important lessons:
1. No matter how hard you try to testify, it's God who is ultimately behind everything
2. Knowing about the bible is good, but it must be backed up with a changed life .... Living a consistent godly life is hard and needs conscious effort ...
3. We must always want to learn more about God ... Quoting H: The time when we stop being teachable is the time when we stop growing as a person ..
4. Surrender to God to the MAX, Effort to the MAX, and always be thankful to the MAX
5. Be ready all the time to say the hope that is in you ... When I was asked those questions, I was a bit down spiritually and a bit tired as well ... I thought I was not ready, but I am glad that I was so full of energy answering the questions given to me .. haha ..
Gengki gengki ..
Sunday, October 30, 2005
I know
Now I know
the pain of caring for someone but cannot express it in words
Now I know
the pain of wanting to see an important person saved
Now I know
the pain of being patient in the midst of storm
Now I know
the anguish that comes with a heavy heart
But more than that I know
that my God is greater than anything
Oo I know
that in my weakness I am made strong
Yes I know
that I am powerless but God is powerful
Most importantly I know
that He cares
Yes, I know.....
the pain of caring for someone but cannot express it in words
Now I know
the pain of wanting to see an important person saved
Now I know
the pain of being patient in the midst of storm
Now I know
the anguish that comes with a heavy heart
But more than that I know
that my God is greater than anything
Oo I know
that in my weakness I am made strong
Yes I know
that I am powerless but God is powerful
Most importantly I know
that He cares
Yes, I know.....
Saturday, October 29, 2005
First Experience buying share
I just bought a share and made $560.82 in one day ..... Good first impression of the stock market, but I was ready to loose the money anyway!!! (wait until the market crash di, and u won't be so excited anymore)!!Sold the share already and take the money out! :)
MAS - FSG Conference
Well, maybe you wonder what MAS-FSG really mean? It is basically one division in Macquarie bank where I work for ... emm ...
MAS was held for two days, one night in Novotel Hotel, Wollonggong ... It was the whole MAS (one of Macquarie division) gathered and I met lots of people on that day .... Enjoyed the meal, the friendship and the whole experience ... But I found the talk was a bit dull ... I really like the gathering part and meeting up with new people (and of course my friends) and talking to them ...
The novotel was located near the beach.. I loovvvvee beach ... so I enjoyed it a lot ... Overall a fun experience and if I wished I could stay there a bit longer !!!
MAS was held for two days, one night in Novotel Hotel, Wollonggong ... It was the whole MAS (one of Macquarie division) gathered and I met lots of people on that day .... Enjoyed the meal, the friendship and the whole experience ... But I found the talk was a bit dull ... I really like the gathering part and meeting up with new people (and of course my friends) and talking to them ...
The novotel was located near the beach.. I loovvvvee beach ... so I enjoyed it a lot ... Overall a fun experience and if I wished I could stay there a bit longer !!!
Today is saturday!
Horee ... Saturday is here after all hard work in the past week ... Thank God for weekends haha ...
Well well ... I guess I have to start studying now !! Can't be relaxing all day !!
Cayo to myself!!! and all my seperjuangan friends !!! We can do IT! .. emm ... with God and hard works!
Well well ... I guess I have to start studying now !! Can't be relaxing all day !!
Cayo to myself!!! and all my seperjuangan friends !!! We can do IT! .. emm ... with God and hard works!
Thursday, October 20, 2005
Update from my *so called busy* life
1. Hmm ... I just got two results from one assignment and exam and I am quite dissapointed ... I was expecting them to be a higher than that .... But that's not what I want to share here ... On my way home today, I realized that I should give thanks in whatever situation it may occur ... I had gone through worse situations in the past and this is just little things in my way ... Just learnt from Romans, in the end it will work for good to those who love God, making more like Jesus, maybe more patient, generous, joyful and so on ... Now, I just have to pick myself up again and work little by little in this 4 weeks time ...
2. I guess I am a little tired of studying ... I can't really study much at home ... so many distractions ... by the time I got home, I am dead tired ... my body just won't function anymore ... :) ...
3. Just submitted exchange application form today ... next step is interview with the exchange officer ... Maybe I will do it over the phone .. It saves me from going back to uni during lunch time :)
4. Had a discussion about religion with work mates but it was going no where ... It was about why Christian was so strict about going out only with other christian .... Why can't we just respect others without trying to change the other partner to follow the same beliefs?*I don;t think christians forced the other party to become christian, God doesn't force us either* Tried to give an argument but I don't think it worked ... haha ... **I think arguing never works in the first place anyway when the two parties hold to their beliefs firmly**
5. I've Been going to work early these days ... so much work to do in the office ... it seems like I am burning out ... can't wait for the next 4 weeks to pass and I am free from UNI .. yippieeee ...
6. I learnt about company mergers and acquisitions in the lecture today ..... Funny enough, it is currently happening to one my uncle ... Someone is going to take over their shop forcefully ... I learnt some defense mechanism to prevent takeovers, but I don't think it will apply since they don't own the shop on paper ... It seems that they will have to leave the shop and let the other people takeover it ... what a sad story ..
7. I went through reading my blogs ... and yes .. it sounds depressing unlike me in real life :P ... haha ... I don't think I am depressed, but maybe I am a little without realizing it ... I will put some happy story later on ... I guess I should be joyful in whatever situation .. heuheuheuehueh ...
8. Tomorrow I am going for a 2 days company conference .. MAS (Macquarie something something) .. it should be fun .. we've planned so many things to do like playing board game ... I might bring some lecture note to read anyway ... I need to .. It's almost exam time ...
That's it from me ... Ciao!
2. I guess I am a little tired of studying ... I can't really study much at home ... so many distractions ... by the time I got home, I am dead tired ... my body just won't function anymore ... :) ...
3. Just submitted exchange application form today ... next step is interview with the exchange officer ... Maybe I will do it over the phone .. It saves me from going back to uni during lunch time :)
4. Had a discussion about religion with work mates but it was going no where ... It was about why Christian was so strict about going out only with other christian .... Why can't we just respect others without trying to change the other partner to follow the same beliefs?*I don;t think christians forced the other party to become christian, God doesn't force us either* Tried to give an argument but I don't think it worked ... haha ... **I think arguing never works in the first place anyway when the two parties hold to their beliefs firmly**
5. I've Been going to work early these days ... so much work to do in the office ... it seems like I am burning out ... can't wait for the next 4 weeks to pass and I am free from UNI .. yippieeee ...
6. I learnt about company mergers and acquisitions in the lecture today ..... Funny enough, it is currently happening to one my uncle ... Someone is going to take over their shop forcefully ... I learnt some defense mechanism to prevent takeovers, but I don't think it will apply since they don't own the shop on paper ... It seems that they will have to leave the shop and let the other people takeover it ... what a sad story ..
7. I went through reading my blogs ... and yes .. it sounds depressing unlike me in real life :P ... haha ... I don't think I am depressed, but maybe I am a little without realizing it ... I will put some happy story later on ... I guess I should be joyful in whatever situation .. heuheuheuehueh ...
8. Tomorrow I am going for a 2 days company conference .. MAS (Macquarie something something) .. it should be fun .. we've planned so many things to do like playing board game ... I might bring some lecture note to read anyway ... I need to .. It's almost exam time ...
That's it from me ... Ciao!
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
Anxious about things
I am so anxious these days ... So many deadlines ... argh .. Feel like not in control with my situation ... But when you think about it, we are never in control anyway from the beginning ...
Just have to do it slowly and carefully ... Leave the rest to God ...
1. STUDY - I am a bit behind now .
2. Personal finance assignment
3. Exam on wk 14
4. Exchange application - so hard to arrange when I am working and studying ... not easy to find the lecturers and coordinators
Just have to do it slowly and carefully ... Leave the rest to God ...
1. STUDY - I am a bit behind now .
2. Personal finance assignment
3. Exam on wk 14
4. Exchange application - so hard to arrange when I am working and studying ... not easy to find the lecturers and coordinators
Thursday, October 13, 2005
Earn your respect!
I wish I could respect "B" like before, but I just can't .. I used to respect him a lot .. He seems nice, very knowledgable about God, mature and so on ... But after knowing this person I can't help it but dissapointed with the way he live ...
He does not live like other people think ... I guess, respect is earned by living ur life with integrity, keeping what you say and promise ... Earn it or u won't own it!
He does not live like other people think ... I guess, respect is earned by living ur life with integrity, keeping what you say and promise ... Earn it or u won't own it!
Share
Share - it is such a simple word ... but I think it has got a deep meaning ... It makes me want to share what I learnt these past months ... hehehhehe ...
These days I feel like people view me as a loner ... I don't talk as much as before, I don't gather with friends as much as before ... not because I can't but because these days I am really really busy ... I can still be someone yang heboh like before, hehe, I can even be more heboh than before .. hahahaha ... tapi sekarang I feel like talking only when it is needed ... Often I restrain myself from talking ... I feel like this is part of the process of growing ^^ ... I guess busyness makes me like this ....
Balancing between work, church, study, brother and friends and other things can be quite challenging ... fiuhh ... I sometimes feel guilty of not giving the best or when I don't divide up my time wisely, for friends, brother, and so on ... But I know God is good and He is always there whenever I call on Him ..
When I am alone or down (like doing assignment in commerce lab, haha), the only thing that keeps me going is the fact that God is good and He has shared his life with me ... I realize that in this life hate, bitterness, anger, joy, love must be shared with other people .... Sharing means active, not waiting /passive ... We might get no response, but keep trying ... All one can do is create his own path through hard work without being a loner and taking the easy route ... I wish that as the day unfold, in all things that I do, I will be able to share more and more ...
These days I feel like people view me as a loner ... I don't talk as much as before, I don't gather with friends as much as before ... not because I can't but because these days I am really really busy ... I can still be someone yang heboh like before, hehe, I can even be more heboh than before .. hahahaha ... tapi sekarang I feel like talking only when it is needed ... Often I restrain myself from talking ... I feel like this is part of the process of growing ^^ ... I guess busyness makes me like this ....
Balancing between work, church, study, brother and friends and other things can be quite challenging ... fiuhh ... I sometimes feel guilty of not giving the best or when I don't divide up my time wisely, for friends, brother, and so on ... But I know God is good and He is always there whenever I call on Him ..
When I am alone or down (like doing assignment in commerce lab, haha), the only thing that keeps me going is the fact that God is good and He has shared his life with me ... I realize that in this life hate, bitterness, anger, joy, love must be shared with other people .... Sharing means active, not waiting /passive ... We might get no response, but keep trying ... All one can do is create his own path through hard work without being a loner and taking the easy route ... I wish that as the day unfold, in all things that I do, I will be able to share more and more ...
Sunday, October 09, 2005
What good is it
for a MAN if he gains the whole world and yet ...
1. loses his soul
2. loses his family
3. loses all his friends
4. lives in bitterness and worry everyday
5. loses his God
What can the MAN give in exchange for those things? That would be a really sad story ... :(
1. loses his soul
2. loses his family
3. loses all his friends
4. lives in bitterness and worry everyday
5. loses his God
What can the MAN give in exchange for those things? That would be a really sad story ... :(
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
First day back to uni - cape
Yesterday was the first time i was back to lecture in a while ... Mann, it was tiring ... I had to put heaps of effort just to stay awake *didn't understand most of what the lecturer said - haha - need to study* ... But it was good ... coz it reminded me to change my mood, after such a nice long break ...
These things awaits me in the next 7 weeks:
1. Personal Finance assignment
2. Capital Budgeting exam
3. Weekly online quizes for Investment Portfolio
4. Case studies for Investment Portfolio and Capital Budgeting
5. Final exams for those three subjects
Non-uni related thingy:
6. Meet Exchange officer and the faculty to submit the application form
7. Pay airfares to go back to indo
8. Bible study related stuffs
9. Buy mincer for mum
10. Apply for credit card
11. Buy ink for my printer
12. Change the electricity provider to AGL
13. etc ...
These things awaits me in the next 7 weeks:
1. Personal Finance assignment
2. Capital Budgeting exam
3. Weekly online quizes for Investment Portfolio
4. Case studies for Investment Portfolio and Capital Budgeting
5. Final exams for those three subjects
Non-uni related thingy:
6. Meet Exchange officer and the faculty to submit the application form
7. Pay airfares to go back to indo
8. Bible study related stuffs
9. Buy mincer for mum
10. Apply for credit card
11. Buy ink for my printer
12. Change the electricity provider to AGL
13. etc ...
Thursday, September 29, 2005
It comes down to 3 choices
Erasmus University of Rotredam - Netherlands
York University - Schullish Business School - Canada
Manchester Business School - England
Which one will it be? I can't wait to go ...
York University - Schullish Business School - Canada
Manchester Business School - England
Which one will it be? I can't wait to go ...
Sunday, September 25, 2005
Jeremiah 20
Jeremiah 20:9
9 But if I say, "I will not mention him
or speak any more in his name,"
his word is in my heart like a fire,
a fire shut up in my bones.
I am weary of holding it in;
indeed, I cannot.
*maju maju terus*
9 But if I say, "I will not mention him
or speak any more in his name,"
his word is in my heart like a fire,
a fire shut up in my bones.
I am weary of holding it in;
indeed, I cannot.
*maju maju terus*
Giving
It is hard to give ... especially for me who comes from a chinese background and are currently in a situation where I need money to pay for my school fee ... It's not that I am in financial difficulties, I can still save up quite a bit, but then the problem is I always want to save more ...
Well, since I started doing my study, I've always been very stingy ... I don't give as much as I used to be for the work of the gospel coz I felt in need .... I counted the profit and loss, and counted how much I will save by the end of the year if I give and if I don't give ...
It's such a struggle especially when your salary is getting a lot bigger than it used to be ... Should I give or should I give less?
Talking about giving, I realize that everything comes from God .. When I give, I will make sure from now on that I give it with all my heart .... I want to be reminded everytime I give that I love God that's why I give .... That's what has been missing this year ... I wanted to save for the future, but forget that giving is such an important part in our Christian life ... sharing, giving to those in need, to gospel ministry and to your home chuch is important and God cares about us giving our money, time and whole lives to Him ...
Well, since I started doing my study, I've always been very stingy ... I don't give as much as I used to be for the work of the gospel coz I felt in need .... I counted the profit and loss, and counted how much I will save by the end of the year if I give and if I don't give ...
It's such a struggle especially when your salary is getting a lot bigger than it used to be ... Should I give or should I give less?
Talking about giving, I realize that everything comes from God .. When I give, I will make sure from now on that I give it with all my heart .... I want to be reminded everytime I give that I love God that's why I give .... That's what has been missing this year ... I wanted to save for the future, but forget that giving is such an important part in our Christian life ... sharing, giving to those in need, to gospel ministry and to your home chuch is important and God cares about us giving our money, time and whole lives to Him ...
Thursday, September 22, 2005
Plan Plan Plan: my decision
When you go to an interview session, the interviewer usually ask you about your short term and long term plan ... It can be hard to answer given that our future is highly unpredictable and you can only answer it the best you can ...
Well, I have sort of decided about my short-term plan ... In just days, I've decided to pursue a possibility of going overseas for exchange student program next year (second semester) ... I am hoping to go to the U.S for 1/2 year if possible. It all seems good, but after looking into it more, it is hard to find universities that have "compatible" program to M.COM at UNSW... Most of them have an agreement with MBA from AGSM but not MCOM. I just have to wait and see after I meet the UNSW international exchange adviser ... If I can't go to US, I might go to Singapore or Canada ...
On the other note, there are so many people (3P = parents, prenz, and pastor) these days that tries to match me with someone ... :) ... Well, I have to thank all of you for perhatiannya ... It flatters me a lot on how much all of you care .. and yet, after thinking about it, I have also decided .... to remain single until I finish my study next year, fully concentrate on my potential .... to grow more, and to serve more .. Then I will seriously think about who I want to marry ... Is it going to be a bit too late? Maybe ... But I have decided that I am not going into any relationship if I don't think I fully commit to it ... So, end of next year will be serious beginning of hunting period ... haha :) .. Yoshh!
*God, man can plan but you decide everything. I surrender my short term plan into Your hands*
Well, I have sort of decided about my short-term plan ... In just days, I've decided to pursue a possibility of going overseas for exchange student program next year (second semester) ... I am hoping to go to the U.S for 1/2 year if possible. It all seems good, but after looking into it more, it is hard to find universities that have "compatible" program to M.COM at UNSW... Most of them have an agreement with MBA from AGSM but not MCOM. I just have to wait and see after I meet the UNSW international exchange adviser ... If I can't go to US, I might go to Singapore or Canada ...
On the other note, there are so many people (3P = parents, prenz, and pastor) these days that tries to match me with someone ... :) ... Well, I have to thank all of you for perhatiannya ... It flatters me a lot on how much all of you care .. and yet, after thinking about it, I have also decided .... to remain single until I finish my study next year, fully concentrate on my potential .... to grow more, and to serve more .. Then I will seriously think about who I want to marry ... Is it going to be a bit too late? Maybe ... But I have decided that I am not going into any relationship if I don't think I fully commit to it ... So, end of next year will be serious beginning of hunting period ... haha :) .. Yoshh!
*God, man can plan but you decide everything. I surrender my short term plan into Your hands*
Thursday, September 15, 2005
It's been a killer 3 weeks
Mann, I think I've just experienced one of the most packed schedule in my life these past 3 weeks .... Glad it's all finished now and looking forward to the mid session break in 2 weeks time ...
Sunday, September 11, 2005
Another Weekend has passed!
Another weekend has ended in a flash...These last 2 weeks was pretty hectic, but I should be fine by next weekend (must do 1 more exam plus assignment worth 40% and 30%) ... At least I will have a space to breathe until the final exam ..
A couple of things:
1. Rose is going to Toraja next week (bener ga sih?) for 3 weeks ... wish u a safe trip deh rose if u r reading ... and also bisa jadi berkat disono ...
2. Andy is going back to indo soon, for good ... I think I am going to miss him ... I have seen so many of my friends come and go ... But everytime ada yg pergi pasti sedih ... especially Andy is part of my bible study and he is good friend, hard working, and very caring kali too ...
3. Jemy is back!! He is going to stay here in Sydney with his wife ... and will probably apply the job vacancy at where I work now as IT support ...
4. Got a lot of CD from Hilda ... wih I don't think I will have a chance to listen to them all .... so busy busy ... but thanks anyway Hil ...
5. I think I am glad for the difficulties that I faced in my life so far ... I thank God because through all that, I can understand people with similar problem a little bit better ... One person in my bible study faced a problem that I faced about 1 year ago and I can testify how hard it was ... Been there before ... and hence I could at least try to encourage him (in my own way) to consider Christ seriously ...
6. I need to submit the leave form tomorrow .. I must plan to take leave during my final exam and want to take 3 weeks holiday in December ... The queue is very long already and I should delay no more .... Otherwise, no going back to indo this December .. walaw!
7. Bible study prep today was fun ... I feel like wanted to learn more about God and the bible ... The people was very critical and have the same desire to learn ... Even though I gave the impression of being bored, but was quite excited .... How good is that, learning the bible together with my fellow bros and sis ...
8. Had group meeting with my 5514 group. Lots of things still need to be done to complete the assignment due this Thursday ... Fiuhhh .. mati matiii
9. Tomorrow is mid-session exam for 5510 ... I have read the book but haven't look at the tutorial ... Must start now!
Until then my blog ... *Jane my blog*
*Mada mada dane*(not yet) and *moto moto*(stronger and stronger) ...
A couple of things:
1. Rose is going to Toraja next week (bener ga sih?) for 3 weeks ... wish u a safe trip deh rose if u r reading ... and also bisa jadi berkat disono ...
2. Andy is going back to indo soon, for good ... I think I am going to miss him ... I have seen so many of my friends come and go ... But everytime ada yg pergi pasti sedih ... especially Andy is part of my bible study and he is good friend, hard working, and very caring kali too ...
3. Jemy is back!! He is going to stay here in Sydney with his wife ... and will probably apply the job vacancy at where I work now as IT support ...
4. Got a lot of CD from Hilda ... wih I don't think I will have a chance to listen to them all .... so busy busy ... but thanks anyway Hil ...
5. I think I am glad for the difficulties that I faced in my life so far ... I thank God because through all that, I can understand people with similar problem a little bit better ... One person in my bible study faced a problem that I faced about 1 year ago and I can testify how hard it was ... Been there before ... and hence I could at least try to encourage him (in my own way) to consider Christ seriously ...
6. I need to submit the leave form tomorrow .. I must plan to take leave during my final exam and want to take 3 weeks holiday in December ... The queue is very long already and I should delay no more .... Otherwise, no going back to indo this December .. walaw!
7. Bible study prep today was fun ... I feel like wanted to learn more about God and the bible ... The people was very critical and have the same desire to learn ... Even though I gave the impression of being bored, but was quite excited .... How good is that, learning the bible together with my fellow bros and sis ...
8. Had group meeting with my 5514 group. Lots of things still need to be done to complete the assignment due this Thursday ... Fiuhhh .. mati matiii
9. Tomorrow is mid-session exam for 5510 ... I have read the book but haven't look at the tutorial ... Must start now!
Until then my blog ... *Jane my blog*
*Mada mada dane*(not yet) and *moto moto*(stronger and stronger) ...
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
Peaceful life on earth? There is no such thing
I used to live a peaceful life with other people .. I think it is a priviledge, but come to think of it, there is a flip side to it ... I am not used to be in conflict with other people .. I always tend to make peace straight away ...
Life is so full of conflict and whether I like it or not, whether I am ready or not, it will happen ... I remember a couple of years ago, someone was pissed off at me ... I did not do anything wrong, but still I ended up to be the one saying sorry ... My friend whom I consulted said that I shouldn't feel that way ... That incident taught me a lot how to face life ... If you are not strong, people will do those nasty things to you ... I might do the same without even realizing it ....
What about us living as children of God? We should try to live a peaceful life if it depends on us ... do our best in every situation and show that we are not a wimp ... Be strong and loving sometimes is hard, but possible !
Life is so full of conflict and whether I like it or not, whether I am ready or not, it will happen ... I remember a couple of years ago, someone was pissed off at me ... I did not do anything wrong, but still I ended up to be the one saying sorry ... My friend whom I consulted said that I shouldn't feel that way ... That incident taught me a lot how to face life ... If you are not strong, people will do those nasty things to you ... I might do the same without even realizing it ....
What about us living as children of God? We should try to live a peaceful life if it depends on us ... do our best in every situation and show that we are not a wimp ... Be strong and loving sometimes is hard, but possible !
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
My chinese name is a girl name? MUMMMMM
Met a new friend today in a class .... Her name is Mei Na ... When she asked my name, I gave her my chinese name since she is from China, why not give her my chinese name ... We needed one minute to spell my name correctly ... :) .. After she figured out what my chinese name really is, she said, "wow, that is a very beautiful name, good meaning but it's for a woman. Shiek Ming yen, shiek ming yen sounds like a girl name, but it has a good meaning" ...
I laughed and laughed and laughed ... and she laughed as well ... so funny ...
I laughed and laughed and laughed ... and she laughed as well ... so funny ...
Saturday, August 27, 2005
Everyday I struggle
I guess feeling a bit tired because of so many things that needs to be done ... I am burned out I guess ... Everyday I struggle to live ..... whether it is at work, ministry, at home, uni ... I feel constant pressure from all directions ...
At home, dissapointed with so many things that I see at home ... there are so many things... like cleaning the room, house, and many other that I can't share here ...
At church, I feel some dissapointments on why no-one actually follow up my flatmates from church .. Why do I have to do it myself? On top of that I have to be strong and encourage other people ... Why do I have to do that?
At work, Pressure from doing one project after another and not being able to stay late because of lecture... I am struggling to tell others about Christ ... struggling to be examples in the way I work and produce results ...
With Uni, So many assignments and exams ... ARGHH!
Well, I came to pemuda today, heard a sermon from Bruce ... What a wonderful sermon ... Not that all my problems are solved after that, but in that sermon I see the big picture of God's grand plan since the beginning to end ...
God from the beginning is longing to have relationship with human ... When he called Abram, Israel, he wants other nations to be blessed through them .. God is longing to make his name known among the nations of the earth .. He longs to have a relationship with us .... That's why we are here on earth .... Hearing that making me feel like gado2 ... I long for that day to happen ... kapan kapan Tuhan? .. I feel joy, and I know that God is the one longing to make his name known among the nations ... Evangelism is God's initiative through us ...
So, having seen the big picture, I should stop complaining ... I wanted to be encouraged when I came to pemuda today, and I did ... knowing that the bottom line ....... at the end of the day ....... when nothing else can help us, It is God (my Father) that matters ..... It is to make His name known and to have a deep relationship with Him ....
So stop complaining and do your work! Be thankful!
At home, dissapointed with so many things that I see at home ... there are so many things... like cleaning the room, house, and many other that I can't share here ...
At church, I feel some dissapointments on why no-one actually follow up my flatmates from church .. Why do I have to do it myself? On top of that I have to be strong and encourage other people ... Why do I have to do that?
At work, Pressure from doing one project after another and not being able to stay late because of lecture... I am struggling to tell others about Christ ... struggling to be examples in the way I work and produce results ...
With Uni, So many assignments and exams ... ARGHH!
Well, I came to pemuda today, heard a sermon from Bruce ... What a wonderful sermon ... Not that all my problems are solved after that, but in that sermon I see the big picture of God's grand plan since the beginning to end ...
God from the beginning is longing to have relationship with human ... When he called Abram, Israel, he wants other nations to be blessed through them .. God is longing to make his name known among the nations of the earth .. He longs to have a relationship with us .... That's why we are here on earth .... Hearing that making me feel like gado2 ... I long for that day to happen ... kapan kapan Tuhan? .. I feel joy, and I know that God is the one longing to make his name known among the nations ... Evangelism is God's initiative through us ...
So, having seen the big picture, I should stop complaining ... I wanted to be encouraged when I came to pemuda today, and I did ... knowing that the bottom line ....... at the end of the day ....... when nothing else can help us, It is God (my Father) that matters ..... It is to make His name known and to have a deep relationship with Him ....
So stop complaining and do your work! Be thankful!
Friday, August 26, 2005
Gift suggestion
Does anyone has any good suggestion on what to give for someone that is about to go back to indo for good? I am thinking of giving that person a book..
any recommendation?
any recommendation?
Sunday, August 21, 2005
My Sunday
2 blog entries in one day is quite rare .. haha .. but there you go ..
Today had a late morning church and followed by drama practice .. I guess I am still learning to act bit by but .. The drama is about passing the warmness/fire of Christ to the people surround us .. It was followed by Aldo's birthday ... He is 18 years old .. hahaha congratulation congrats!! akhirnya dah pass age boleh drink alcohol ? :P
emm ... Had KFC and met so many new friends at aldo's place. Wuih ... they are all so youngggg ..... hahaha ... But I am young too at heart ... Aldo's friends are quite friendly ... Ended up had a few conversations with them ...
Went home, slept for the whole 3 hours until 6.45pm .. hehe ... gubrak* ... Now I have to study ...
Today had a late morning church and followed by drama practice .. I guess I am still learning to act bit by but .. The drama is about passing the warmness/fire of Christ to the people surround us .. It was followed by Aldo's birthday ... He is 18 years old .. hahaha congratulation congrats!! akhirnya dah pass age boleh drink alcohol ? :P
emm ... Had KFC and met so many new friends at aldo's place. Wuih ... they are all so youngggg ..... hahaha ... But I am young too at heart ... Aldo's friends are quite friendly ... Ended up had a few conversations with them ...
Went home, slept for the whole 3 hours until 6.45pm .. hehe ... gubrak* ... Now I have to study ...
Packed saturday
Well, hello again ...
Today was really packed with good stuffs ... I enjoyed bible study and sharing with J about life ... Even though we look like problem-free people from outside, but we have got lots of problems too surprise surprise ... We pray for each other today about problems and surrender them to God who is able to do all things ... I am really encouraged by J's life .. J is very hardworking guy .. He does not play around with time and has sincere heart ... very sincere .. Emm, the thing that encourage me the most is the way he prays and commit his life to Jesus ... I guess I am glad to be learning together about God with him ...
What else yah? Bible study was good ... full with food .. hahaha .. physical food and hopefully the Word of God too .. emm, most people were sleepy today including myself .. Huh .. being bible study leader is hard because you have to motivate people when they are tired or sleepy or not in the mood ... Whereas before, I just slept and couldn't careless about other people ...
Went off to Damon's birthday, had catch up session with a number of people .. Happy birthday Damon .. 20 something huh ? hehehe .. God bless u I guess ... Pray that you grow more godly in the gospel ...
In the meantime, tomorrow is Aldo birthday ... So many birthdays ... aldo is probably a lot younger than me ... He is very open and tells lots of stories whenever we meet ... funny guy, very open unlike me ... apalagi yah? I guess that's all .. tomorrow mesti belajar nih ...
Today was really packed with good stuffs ... I enjoyed bible study and sharing with J about life ... Even though we look like problem-free people from outside, but we have got lots of problems too surprise surprise ... We pray for each other today about problems and surrender them to God who is able to do all things ... I am really encouraged by J's life .. J is very hardworking guy .. He does not play around with time and has sincere heart ... very sincere .. Emm, the thing that encourage me the most is the way he prays and commit his life to Jesus ... I guess I am glad to be learning together about God with him ...
What else yah? Bible study was good ... full with food .. hahaha .. physical food and hopefully the Word of God too .. emm, most people were sleepy today including myself .. Huh .. being bible study leader is hard because you have to motivate people when they are tired or sleepy or not in the mood ... Whereas before, I just slept and couldn't careless about other people ...
Went off to Damon's birthday, had catch up session with a number of people .. Happy birthday Damon .. 20 something huh ? hehehe .. God bless u I guess ... Pray that you grow more godly in the gospel ...
In the meantime, tomorrow is Aldo birthday ... So many birthdays ... aldo is probably a lot younger than me ... He is very open and tells lots of stories whenever we meet ... funny guy, very open unlike me ... apalagi yah? I guess that's all .. tomorrow mesti belajar nih ...
Saturday, August 20, 2005
Morning morning!
Had a very good sleep (from 1.30am - 10am) hauhauha .. ... I almost forgot how to sleep well and relax these days ...
Today's schedule:
1. Bible study 12-3PM
2. Latian music for Pemuda 3.30 - 4.30
3. Pemuda 5.00 - 6.30
4. Damon's birthday party (6.30 until who knows)
5. Sleep - or do assignment if I am not tired ...
Today's schedule:
1. Bible study 12-3PM
2. Latian music for Pemuda 3.30 - 4.30
3. Pemuda 5.00 - 6.30
4. Damon's birthday party (6.30 until who knows)
5. Sleep - or do assignment if I am not tired ...
My life this week!
Life is good .. Thank God ... This week was very busy in terms of work and study (I feel like I am always busy these days). Two of my team mates at work went for holiday, so I end up had to do their works too .. Imagining it really makes me feel *hueekkk*... So many things to do at so little time ... I am afraid of committing to any more things these days ... I just don't have the time and I don't think it will be good for me, and the thing I will be involved in ... I'll just enjoy my life now to the MAX!! :) ..
One lesson that I learnt this week at work is that I don't have to rush in doing my work ... Do everything carefully and pay attention to detail as much as possible ... It is hard because many times I am not very patient with things and I don't pay attention to details as much as I do to the overall big picture ... I usually inclined to finish my work as fast as possible but with average result .. even though I could do much better if I just put little more effort into it ... So yeah, something to learn there ...
What else is happening yah? I guess uni wise I am happy because in every class I have got quite a number of friends ... Friends are no more a problem this semester .. hahaha ..... Forming a team is not difficult at all ... But, I am starting to feel the pressure of exams and assignments ... So, got to start studying A-S-A-P ... The problem is I've got less motivation these days!! haha ..
One thing this week is I met so many old friends from Bondowoso through friendster ... Well, I am so encouraged because God has worked in my friends' life ... They look like a good Christians (through friend's testimonial and the message that I got from them) .. hehehe .. even I got a message saying, "Can you help me with ....... ? But it must be legal yah, we are God's children kan?" .... they are also surprised that I am a christian ... Well, it's just amazing how God changes people's lives ... I'll definitely contact them if I go to Jakarta or Melbourne later...
I also met lots of people at work (some of them are new recruits), there's Katherine, Fenny, and Anton, Anthony, Andrew, Ahn, Penelope, Glenn, Peter, Edward, Hua, Irene, Jane, Suzanne, Bryan, Erik, Suwandi etc ... So much fun, interesting and challenging ... We talked a lot during lunch time and when discussing something at work ... Talking to them everytime always gives me more insights about myself, about other people and the world ... After doing some communication course, I am more aware of how I communicate with others now, my perceptions, etc etc... ^^
Alright ... I guess that's all for me this week .. Just had dinner tonight at Andy's place .. Thank you Leo for organizing the steamboat dinner .. It was niceeeeee! Appreciate it a lot .. Tomorrow is bible study and I have to prepare stuffs .. So, that's it for now! Gnite blog! =)
One lesson that I learnt this week at work is that I don't have to rush in doing my work ... Do everything carefully and pay attention to detail as much as possible ... It is hard because many times I am not very patient with things and I don't pay attention to details as much as I do to the overall big picture ... I usually inclined to finish my work as fast as possible but with average result .. even though I could do much better if I just put little more effort into it ... So yeah, something to learn there ...
What else is happening yah? I guess uni wise I am happy because in every class I have got quite a number of friends ... Friends are no more a problem this semester .. hahaha ..... Forming a team is not difficult at all ... But, I am starting to feel the pressure of exams and assignments ... So, got to start studying A-S-A-P ... The problem is I've got less motivation these days!! haha ..
One thing this week is I met so many old friends from Bondowoso through friendster ... Well, I am so encouraged because God has worked in my friends' life ... They look like a good Christians (through friend's testimonial and the message that I got from them) .. hehehe .. even I got a message saying, "Can you help me with ....... ? But it must be legal yah, we are God's children kan?" .... they are also surprised that I am a christian ... Well, it's just amazing how God changes people's lives ... I'll definitely contact them if I go to Jakarta or Melbourne later...
I also met lots of people at work (some of them are new recruits), there's Katherine, Fenny, and Anton, Anthony, Andrew, Ahn, Penelope, Glenn, Peter, Edward, Hua, Irene, Jane, Suzanne, Bryan, Erik, Suwandi etc ... So much fun, interesting and challenging ... We talked a lot during lunch time and when discussing something at work ... Talking to them everytime always gives me more insights about myself, about other people and the world ... After doing some communication course, I am more aware of how I communicate with others now, my perceptions, etc etc... ^^
Alright ... I guess that's all for me this week .. Just had dinner tonight at Andy's place .. Thank you Leo for organizing the steamboat dinner .. It was niceeeeee! Appreciate it a lot .. Tomorrow is bible study and I have to prepare stuffs .. So, that's it for now! Gnite blog! =)
Monday, August 15, 2005
Ku Bahagia
Just saw some Indonesian movies - bring back memories from masa masa remaja ... lots and lots of memories .. Enjoy the lyrics from Melly (one of the best Indonesian song composer in my generation)
The song is EXCELLENT!! I will definitely sing this in karaoke next time ..
Artist: Melly Goeslow
Song Title: Ku Bahagia
Album:
di atas bumi ini ku berpijak
pada jiwa yang tenang di hariku
tak pernah ada duka yang terlintas
ku bahagia
ingin ku lukis semua hidup ini
dengan cinta dan cita yang terindah
masa muda yang tak pernah kan mendung
ku bahagia
dalam hidup ini
arungi semua cerita indahku
saat-saat remaja yang terindah
tak bisa terulang
ku ingin nikmati
segala jalan yang ada dihadapku
kan kutanamkan cinta tuk kasihku
agar ku bahagia
The song is EXCELLENT!! I will definitely sing this in karaoke next time ..
Artist: Melly Goeslow
Song Title: Ku Bahagia
Album:
di atas bumi ini ku berpijak
pada jiwa yang tenang di hariku
tak pernah ada duka yang terlintas
ku bahagia
ingin ku lukis semua hidup ini
dengan cinta dan cita yang terindah
masa muda yang tak pernah kan mendung
ku bahagia
dalam hidup ini
arungi semua cerita indahku
saat-saat remaja yang terindah
tak bisa terulang
ku ingin nikmati
segala jalan yang ada dihadapku
kan kutanamkan cinta tuk kasihku
agar ku bahagia
Sunday, August 07, 2005
...
In the quietness of sleepless nights
I offer my prayer to Thee
Life's burdens I surrender
Sins I confess
Acknowledging that You are the One
You are the One
You are the One
The only One that my soul longs for
More of You oh the One
My shepherd You are
Make me holy and humble
In the presence of difficulties and uncertainties
...
...
...
...
I offer my prayer to Thee
Life's burdens I surrender
Sins I confess
Acknowledging that You are the One
You are the One
You are the One
The only One that my soul longs for
More of You oh the One
My shepherd You are
Make me holy and humble
In the presence of difficulties and uncertainties
...
...
...
...
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
Feel old
Don't know why, this past couple of weeks, I've been feeling really old ... Maybe I've grown up? hahaha ...
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